I wish I wasn't me.

1. 2023-02-28 at 12:23 PM UTC

   #1
   

   Bradley Black Hole
   Hard drinking off and on has caused me most of my issues.
   
   I could explain my constant stop drinking do well relapse stop drinking but I'd like to tell everyone I want to go back to a rehab, it's sad to say but I don't really even like me when I'm drunk. But once I start I find it extrwmeky difficult to stop.
   
   I've been sober for like 60 hours in the last month. And I'm gonna go get another 40 in an hour cuz I don't want to feel shitty. I wish I was still in Wisconsin.
   
   Its really long walk home when you don't have one.
   
   I hate myself for not being able to kick the drinking but it's part of being me and imma keep working at getting rid of it. Thanks for reading my thread
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2. 2023-02-28 at 12:25 PM UTC

   #2
   

   Buff Billy Houston
   your problems are aunty in the scope of the world today. What happens when your connection to the outside world is closed on both ends and you lose all control, are you gonna "wake up" then? or fall in line and follow instruction? Get ready
3. 2023-02-28 at 12:26 PM UTC

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   vindicktive vinny Black Hole
   thats because your a weak, weak "man".
   
   and i use the term "man" very, very loosely.
   
   as loose as those who need diapers because their shithole is no longer capable of keeping their shits.
   
   in.
4. 2023-02-28 at 12:36 PM UTC

   #4
   RIPtotse victim of incest [my adversative decurved garbo]
   Just stop dude go to the hospital and do a detox and a long term rehab like a year, that's what basically gave me .ost of the tools I use to stay sober even if it's ghey and I don't wanna admit it.
   
   Bradley u really are smart enough and I've told you 100x that u can do it.
   
   I quit vaping like 3 months ago now and quit smoking Jan 2022.
   
   I'm gonna start reducing my methadone soon ish. Within the next 6 months prolly
5. 2023-02-28 at 1:15 PM UTC

   #5
   

   Jiggaboo_Johnson Black Hole
   It's easy to quit drinking if you really want to, I did in 1 day.
   
   The problem is you don't really want to.
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6. 2023-02-28 at 1:19 PM UTC

   #6
   

   Buff Billy Houston

   Originally posted by Jiggaboo_Johnson It's easy to quit drinking if you really want to, I did in 1 day.
   
   The problem is you don't really want to.

   
   that's not the problem at all, that's just a circle of logic. Truth is a triangle.
   
   You are focusing on the problem and not the person. A person only does something like that because they have nothing else to do, no passion or motivation to do anything but that, THAT'S the problem
   
   AND NOT BECAUSE OF THE ALCOHOL , you can quit the alcohol but the void is still there and most people aren't fools like you that go around clouded with circular logics all the time. and if they do they usually end up killing themselves some day.
   
   Welcome to the shrub herbs there is no escape key
   
   

   Originally posted by RIPtotse Just stop dude go to the hospital and do a detox and a long term rehab like a year

   
   That's just a waste of time, waste of life. All he needs is a productive hobby, not a circular crutch aka a wheelchair.
   
   People that are productive and happy aren't chronic alcoholics
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7. 2023-02-28 at 1:28 PM UTC

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   Jiggaboo_Johnson Black Hole

   Originally posted by Buff Billy that's not the problem at all, that's just a circle of logic. Truth is a triangle.
   
   You are focusing on the problem and not the person. A person only does something like that because they have nothing else to do, no passion or motivation to do anything but that, THAT'S the problem
   
   AND NOT BECAUSE OF THE ALCOHOL , you can quit the alcohol but the void is still there and most people aren't fools like you that go around clouded with circular logics all the time. and if they do they usually end up killing themselves some day.
   
   Welcome to the shrub herbs there is no escape key

   
   Then you get something else to do duh...you can't do that while you are still focused on the drink...stop the drink, get something else to do.
   
   It's very simple...again I did it, from heavy daily drinker to 0 in 1 day...that's now 5 1/2 years ago.
   
   
   ETA: You for example can break your addiction to creating dozens of alts too.
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8. 2023-02-28 at 1:36 PM UTC

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   Haxxor Space Nigga

   Originally posted by Jiggaboo_Johnson Then you get something else to do duh…you can't do that while you are still focused on the drink…stop the drink, get something else to do.
   
   It's very simple…again I did it, from heavy daily drinker to 0 in 1 day…that's now 5 1/2 years ago.
   
   
   ETA: You for example can break your addiction to creating dozens of alts too.

   
   While it’s truly simple, for many it’s not easy.
   It requires doing whatever is necessary to change your life. If you really wanted it bad enough you’d stop coming up with excuses and simply do the damn thing.
   Many have- myself included. No “program” no bullshit….just man up and do what you know you need to do.
   
   Breaking the addiction to creating dozens of alts however seems to require a prefrontal lobotomy……just ask Scron
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9. 2023-02-28 at 1:38 PM UTC

   #9
   

   Jiggaboo_Johnson Black Hole

   Originally posted by Haxxor While it’s truly simple, for many it’s not easy.

   
   It's very easy...again if the person REALLY wants to quit...the problem is they don't. I didn't...until I did.
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10. 2023-02-28 at 1:42 PM UTC

    #10
    

    vindicktive vinny Black Hole

    Originally posted by Jiggaboo_Johnson It's easy to quit drinking if you really want to, I did in 1 day.
    
    The problem is you don't really want to.

    
    thats only because your a natural quiter, or because your not addickted to alcohol or have not developed dependencies on it.
    
    or all of the above.
11. 2023-02-28 at 1:42 PM UTC

    #11
    

    Haxxor Space Nigga

    Originally posted by Buff Billy that's not the problem at all, that's just a circle of logic. Truth is a triangle.
    
    You are focusing on the problem and not the person. A person only does something like that because they have nothing else to do, no passion or motivation to do anything but that, THAT'S the problem
    
    AND NOT BECAUSE OF THE ALCOHOL , you can quit the alcohol but the void is still there and most people aren't fools like you that go around clouded with circular logics all the time. and if they do they usually end up killing themselves some day.
    
    Welcome to the shrub herbs there is no escape key
    
    
    
    That's just a waste of time, waste of life. All he needs is a productive hobby, not a circular crutch aka a wheelchair.
    
    People that are productive and happy aren't chronic alcoholics

    
    Ok “Billy” time to admit you aren’t productive or happy because you choose to label yourself a “chronic alcoholic” and then give up after any extended period of sobriety you choose to drink…..it’s your choice…completely in your control.
    
    No escape key lol talk about circular logic 🤯
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12. 2023-02-28 at 1:43 PM UTC

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    Jiggaboo_Johnson Black Hole

    Originally posted by vindicktive vinny thats only because your a natural quiter, or because your not addickted to alcohol or have not developed dependencies on it.
    
    or all of the above.

    
    Well no, it was because the doc said I'd be dead soon if I didn't.
13. 2023-02-28 at 1:47 PM UTC

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    vindicktive vinny Black Hole

    Originally posted by Jiggaboo_Johnson Well no, it was because the doc said I'd be dead soon if I didn't.

    
    well how soon ?
14. 2023-02-28 at 1:55 PM UTC

    #14
    

    Jiggaboo_Johnson Black Hole

    Originally posted by vindicktive vinny well how soon ?

    
    in a couple of years he said.
15. 2023-02-28 at 2 PM UTC

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    vindicktive vinny Black Hole

    Originally posted by Jiggaboo_Johnson in a couple of years he said.

    
    so did you ask if you drank for another month how much would that had left you ?
16. 2023-02-28 at 2:03 PM UTC

    #16
    

    Jiggaboo_Johnson Black Hole

    Originally posted by vindicktive vinny so did you ask if you drank for another month how much would that had left you ?

    
    No, I just stopped that day.
17. 2023-02-28 at 2:23 PM UTC

    #17
    

    vindicktive vinny Black Hole
    lacks critical thinking, courage or logic.
18. 2023-02-28 at 2:25 PM UTC

    #18
    

    Jiggaboo_Johnson Black Hole

    Originally posted by vindicktive vinny lacks critical thinking, courage or logic.

    
    Yup, like I said it's really easy...you don't need to employ any of those things, you just simply stop.
19. 2023-02-28 at 2:28 PM UTC

    #19
    

    vindicktive vinny Black Hole

    Originally posted by Jiggaboo_Johnson Yup, like I said it's really easy…you don't need to employ any of those things, you just simply stop.

    
    
    
    cowardice in its brevity
20. 2023-02-28 at 2:30 PM UTC

    #20
    

    Jiggaboo_Johnson Black Hole

    Originally posted by vindicktive vinny
    
    cowardice in its brevity

    
    I'm not afraid to die, I'm just not ready to go yet.