2022-04-15 at 3:35 AM UTC
I used to be anorexic, pro-ana, because my ex was and I’m highly-suggestible. It crept up on me, thinking if they hated fat so much they wouldn’t find me attractive if I had fat. When I get information overload the last thing I want to see is fat and I think it’s a control thing, I’m scared if I ever go over 9 stone then I could lose control of my weight. I liked wearing crop-tops so that was another factor. I would stay around 8.3 stone and they told me they would want to lose even more weight if they were me. I was weighing myself everyday and had an app to count calories, the limit was 700 cals a day. Only on one occasion I made myself throw up and I can’t eat that food ever again. I got to 7.10 stone.
I don’t count calories or weigh myself anymore but I’m conflicted because some part of me wants to gain weight and look healthy, I know other people think I’m too skinny. Another part of me wants to be anorexic again and just get more dermal fillers in my face for the loss of volume. Right now I’d say I’m around 8.7 stone, 8.3 would be underweight.
2022-04-15 at 5:04 PM UTC
I think you look really good to be honest, you're in good shape. I also have previously practiced eating disorders but no longer do that.
It took a lot of self love and Acceptance
2022-04-15 at 5:12 PM UTC
Bradley gettin his game on.
2022-05-07 at 9:55 PM UTC
I'll say it again Kafka you disgust me you should get sober and get in therapy. physics dick and a bunch of simps that you lure in and then discard publically will not fix you
2022-05-07 at 9:57 PM UTC
Originally posted by Incessant
you should get sober
Whoa whoa whoa let's not fly off the handle here
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post didn't die in a fire!
I was gonna say she should try meth if she hasn't yet. Or learn to make LSD
