So i've been saving up (most my 30k tax return which im using to get spick rims on the batmobile i don't have) and i have about 200$
NOW I KNOW THAT SOUNDS BAD GUYS
but i have 3 dab carts (new), and 1 marijuana, i think one sec. Yeah i found that mufucka, i had hidden him while iw as at the bar dirnking with my mom yestera7y. I hurled a beer can at her car because she got really mean to me like abusive and im like i did not drink all this tequila for you to be mean to me mom!
anyway, so i've been really sad the last two weeks with my dead friends, knowing 0 cambodian lady boys, umm vindicky vinny told me i can basically like not have sex tourism be a lifegoal without him calling me a pedophile and telling everyubody liek hey look there's that chomo from the internet i'm gay with
so i was crying and masturbating while drunk (Not at the same time) and looking at pictures of me and my tranny ex and i'm like yeah she has an onlyfans, so i'm looking i shit u not, im looking up how to use onlyfans for free (you cant without giving them details i refuse to) so
back story, in 2019 i was living weith th is very fat white woman and her half negro son, i lived with them in a meth town up north in a trailer, and i got the kid off meth, i had a lot of sex with him mom which i did want to do, i was gonna go fuckin get tyhis k ids enemies and shit they started calling them selves KILL THE BLOODS and we stared rolling around in his mom's whip looking for these KTB fags and i said kid if anything happens just get teh whip home
he stole from me, dumb 15 year old kid, im the only father figure he ever had and like it odl his mom "I feel llike im the first black guy Jay Penis (His initials were JP but since we got sotned a lot and he was like my nigger son, i called him jay penis)
He said i don't wanna have the name Jay Penis, I said aihght aight aight, now u JAY WEINER~~~~!!~!~!~
was extremely good at dark souls 3, i taught that littlenigga how to work the ribs in a fist fight so other kids wouldn't have to tell on him
his mom said i'm a good influance i said no lady im a brad influence
i was way better at rappin than this kid will ever be and gettin resin out of pipes, im relly ggood at that too
so i go on this date like uh in two weeks it'll be 3 years on the 30th, so she's an ugly tranny but hey you know what she seemed kinda nice
Was fuckin retarded like straight up, i didn 't know what a trasngeder person was supposed to be like, how would I'm a dopeboy from the hood who told everyone he was gay at like 22 years old, i learned how to give a handjob just the other day
anyway, she says her name is Jill and i say "Like is your dude name Jack?" and she said "No it's xxxx"I said Oh ok
she kissed me 1 time and iw as already kinda past this weirdo LARPing as a chick but im a nice guy, so i paid for dinner too. I will say this, at htis point in the story i have not had a drink in 4 years between 2015 and 2019. So i'm super past wwatchin ga tranny drink 1 beer and start talking funny (i'm a drug user so)
i go home, masturbate (to gay porn), start playing like ummm it was the fallout not 3 not 76, i think that's 4. The one that everyone really likes, and i message Jildo (as thelove of my life calls her) and she says she's not really that into me and i said " cool i really just wanted to be in you but ok"
So an hour later her transgender friend messages mne and like FUCKIN FIRE BRO I have never seen a girl this pretty in my life and liek she wanted to hang out and go to the nature board walk thing int hat city and it's a town of 10,000 people and like my father is someone up there to bad people and it clicks in my head "Lady you're teh most beuatiful person in this town, but like this seems too perfect"
so she sent me a photo of her dude ID from the year before and her new ID with her name, with the same address on both years apart, googled and saw it was a family home, i said alright let me get ready and i'll be there
I fell in love with her, umm honestly within a few hours of knowing each other. It's like you have two hands and obviously it's a right and a left, they're different obviously, but it's the same. That's how I found my best friend.
Fast forward 5 weeks and we're living in a house together with this huge lesbian that loved to smoke weed a nd tell jokes. She was like a papa bear to me.
I get into a fight with her and tel her to fuck off, this is the first and only argument we've had this far. For 5 weeks she did not leave my side except at one point she had a kidney stone which she went under for and i waited outside the operating room for hours reading our books and thinking about how much I loved her.
so she leaves me just like leaves the house, grabbed her stuff an hour later, and pealed out, I never got to talk to her again. The lesbian said ya i don't want you here now, i said that figures, and then i moved to my father's farm about two hours away even more in he bum fucky up north no where. A week later i'm really high on meth an d start doin gthis weird dehydrated crying cuz she didn't answer the phone and i grab the everclear i used to make plant medicines and just started chugging swallowfuls after about 3years 8 months of sobriety.
I don't remember the last couple weeks, and i have been actively drinking since that date in 2019. FWithin a few weeks i was thinking about killing myself almost every day, all day at times, just getting high, logging, poaching, masturbating, crying, and thinking about death.
she visits me 3 times at my dads over the ensuing year, each tiem she came to visit me i remember every smell of her hair, i remember how she looked, i would look at the photos but in my mind i remembered everything about her. I would have mail order her clothing and gifts and saved up weed for weeks so we'd just be able to get faded all day and night and fuck and my father loved how happy it made me.
It's like I didn't withdrawl from alcohol when she was there, i would take 1/2 a xanax (i was extremely nervous and HARD for days before she'd come) and we'd sleep on my yoga matts and make food, and 1 time she ate a whole thing of mayo with like 3 pieces of turkey and ya we had no mayonaise for weeks after but like
the sex is always better everytime than any sex i've ever had with anyone ever.
So fast forward to 2020 and i'm living back in a city like closer to eople and im living with my gay roommate who i wasn't have sex with. He likes to get pumped full of the semen of strong negros and much like a boofer the testosterone just hits his blood stream and he talks all this shit and gets all big and bad, but then he takes a shit and becomes a massive bitch once aagain.
one day he threw a glass at me because i told him i'm not turning off the light if i want to fuckin read OK
so ic alled her, cried for ten minutes, and she dropped everything sh e was doing, threw her tiny dog into the car with all of her bullshit, and just drove to me within two hours. Aint nobody ever done anyhtin gthat kind for me, iw as so happy i left half my shit and 80% of my bonsai trees and like half my clothing there, idgaf i didn't need anything I got my best friend back. This is the most important thing I could ever have to me. I love my best friend and she loves me enough to come help me out of fmy bad sitaution.
We spent like April of 2020 to August 2020 living together, it's at this point she sees how bad my drinking is and how drunk i stay, I was attacked by a man with a knife after he kicked in my ex's front door when we weren't home, i defended mysef and i deeply regret how it impacted her family hearing about what i did to the man who tried to take my life.
Cops said I"M good tho and my lawyer told me i'm lucky it was all on camera when he stopped the car and started charging me on the dock, the super market caught all of it, :P
After i got cut and this happened it was my birthday (end of july) and i needed to move, and i had no money, none of my stuff i left at that fags house was getting returned, i have a massive drinking problem, and i have no vehicle as my girlfriend is leaving
she off and on wanted to be with this other man, he is a user of heroin has 3 kids, their best friends and he is a homophobic/transphobic person and won't be with her. She gets his name tattooed over her heat
and then i about just taking my paddle boat and a brick and just dying while iw as drunk fishing int he local lake with my boat all fucked up like every other day
but i didn't, i dusted my shit off, said fuck it, and with tears in my eyes i rented a uhaul and drove back to milwaukee to go face my enemies and go face my demons and tell my mom i love her before i die fighting my ops
so i spent all of august and september sitting out by this light house, drinking half vodka half soda out of a bottle just crying, i caught 2 fish total, b u t iw as out there 14-16-18 hours a day, i would bring a yoga mat and just kinda dare myself to just start undressing and see how far i coudl swim in the middle of the night
so i prayed to Odin and because i am an alcoholic, my reelationship with him isn't the best as i am an alcoholic and of little use to anyone i feel like, at least to a god. so my life got better and worse and better and not really anything just time passed ,i go throughw inter, i stoped drinking hard liquor (sometimes i do a shot or four) and i'm down to drinking about 5-6 steel reserves a day (I have had nothing to drink today, but yesterday i pissed myself cuz i got too wasted and stared doing other drugs) at some point i block my ex and refuse to masturbate to the pornography of us that i have
So i'm kinda sad right and horny and not really up to much yesterday so i hit up my father's ex's daughter whose dating my ex's and I's plug, we'll she's married to my plug now, but whatever i say hey i gotta talk to my ex i really am not doing good, all my friends are dying and i haven't yett and im really sad about it. can you let her know i'm trying to get a hold of her, sh e yes yes, my ex texted three different phone numbers (all old burners lol)
Finally i get her on Facebook.
She starts just going on andon about hwo my gods a piece of shit (this used to bother me) about how all my firends are dying cuz they're drug addicts, how my dad made the news three times in the last year cuz he's a piece of shit criminal too, and i let her go on and on and on and on, i tell her i know, yep, i know.
Then I said "Is this because you found out i was planning on moving to cambodia to teach english and study khmai lady boys?"
I've never ever ever loved anyone like I love my best friend and I hope one day, if God is good, she'll be my wife and we'll have a family and a lot of pets and when I have nothing, I will look into my heart and find her there
might get really drunk and tell her to give me that boy pussy as i furiously masturbate this water bottle size cock on webcam