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drank sum Crouton just now
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2020-07-26 at 9:37 AM UTC
Originally posted by Kev fucking hell i took 250 mg yesterday just to fall asleep and i felt drowsy but extremely uncomfortable, it kept filling me with negative thoughts and paranoia, which are persisting now 24 hours later. wtf is this bullshit?
i have a loaded gun by my chair right now because i expect rioters or cops to bust my door down any minute. i know intellectually that iam experiencing an illusion but i cant shake these fucking thoughts.
this sucks
not gonna use recreational doses of tihs shit ever again
Good. Also, it's a bad idea to keep a loaded gun around you when you're in such a state. I hope you had the safety on and no bullet in the chamber. -
2020-07-26 at 1:54 PM UTC
Originally posted by Sophie Good. Also, it's a bad idea to keep a loaded gun around you when you're in such a state. I hope you had the safety on and no bullet in the chamber.
i took some klonopin to calm down and i had a decent nap but not full 8 hours of sleep. you are right, i put the gun away. i'm perfectly coherent at the minute but i'm still uncomfortable.
how the hell did this bullshit happen? i have been stressed out days prior and this crap just amplified it to insane levels. this is not something i expected from a downer. with benzos i do get rebounds but this shit is just out of this world. calmness, tactile sensation and drowsiness mixed with horrible anxiety, paranoia and dark thoughts. is this delirium feels like?
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2020-07-26 at 2:02 PM UTClooks like our 750 mg bet aint happening, sophie. for someone who preached empathy to me earlier, where the fuck do you come from encouraging others to ingest dangerous doses? being well versed in the philosophy of harm reduction, i would never do that shit, not even to people i hate.
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2020-07-26 at 2:14 PM UTC
Originally posted by Kev looks like our 750 mg bet aint happening, sophie. for someone who preached empathy to me earlier, where the fuck do you come from encouraging others to ingest dangerous doses? being well versed in the philosophy of harm reduction, i would never do that shit, not even to people i hate.
Don't be so uncharitable towards me. I wasn't encouraging anything. Did the 'i triple dare you' not send all the red flags up? Because if they didn't you are naive. And i didn't figure you to be naive. I am glad you didn't do the 500 or 750 dose, but you were going on about how you'd be fine and how delirium works and whatnot, clearly you didn't have a clue. Now you can give what i said to you an uncharitable interpretation and say i was trying to cause you harm. I wasn't. I was cautioning you against it. And here's another thing i know you wouldn't have died from the doses i dared you to take, so if you had been stupid, which you're not contrary to what you might say and believe and you would have taken the big dose, it would have been so awful you'd never do it again.
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2020-07-26 at 4:24 PM UTC
Also, don't fucking inch to it like you're building up tolerance to some lethal poison like you're about to be assassinated. Get the DPH and take 750. Bolt the doors.
very bad advice. there was a reason i inched to it. at 200 i felt little to nothing, at 250 it did this. who the fuck knows what 3 times this amount wouldve done.
being in this scene for so long, what i know is how different everyone is and how generalizing doses/effects is impossible. encouraging someone to take a potentially lethal dose, knowing fuck all about the persons history or tolerance is an extremely dick move.
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2020-07-27 at 10:09 AM UTC
Originally posted by Kev very bad advice. there was a reason i inched to it. at 200 i felt little to nothing, at 250 it did this. who the fuck knows what 3 times this amount wouldve done.
being in this scene for so long, what i know is how different everyone is and how generalizing doses/effects is impossible. encouraging someone to take a potentially lethal dose, knowing fuck all about the persons history or tolerance is an extremely dick move.
nothing about you is charitable.
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2020-07-27 at 10:13 AM UTCLook you fucking idiot if i wanted you to take a mega dose that would have harmed you for sure, i would have come into the conversation way differently. The point was not to get you to do big doses that would get you into a delirious state. The way i went about achieving that goal was manipulative, but in the end you didn't do it. Mission accomplished, do you honestly think i couldn't have done the reverse if i really wanted to?
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2020-07-27 at 10:16 AM UTC
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2020-07-27 at 10:18 AM UTC
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2020-07-27 at 10:28 AM UTC
Originally posted by Sophie Look you fucking idiot if i wanted you to take a mega dose that would have harmed you for sure, i would have come into the conversation way differently. The point was not to get you to do big doses that would get you into a delirious state. The way i went about achieving that goal was manipulative, but in the end you didn't do it. Mission accomplished, do you honestly think i couldn't have done the reverse if i really wanted to?
how do i put this... your post had no influence on what i did or didnt take, you missed the point entirely. what irked me was the dangerous dumbshit advice you gave that violates the principle of harm reduction which is sacrosanct on almost every drug forum.
even on a site like this i wouldnt pull shit like that, least not on BTLC.
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2020-07-27 at 10:32 AM UTC
Originally posted by Kev how do i put this… your post had no influence on what i did or didnt take, you missed the point entirely. what irked me was the dangerous dumbshit advice you gave that violates the principle of harm reduction which is sacrosanct on almost every drug forum.
even on a site like this i wouldnt pull shit like that, least not on BTLC.
and after all that preaching about empathy, fucking christ. knew i smelled a rat from the start.
Violates the principle of harm reduction. Lmao. This isn't Totse You're not even posting in BLTC dumb fuck.
You know what. You have a very adversarial personality. I imagine it's lonely. Have fun with that. -
2020-07-27 at 10:32 AM UTC
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2020-07-27 at 10:47 AM UTC
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2020-07-29 at 3:07 PM UTC
Originally posted by Sophie You know what. You have a very adversarial personality. I imagine it's lonely. Have fun with that.
A lone wolf lives content and dies content. you on the other hand developed a bizarre infatuation with me from the start despite knowing fuck all about me, thats the behavior of someone lonely and desperate.
I recommend you Chirin no Suzu, a japanese children's short that american kids unfortunately were never shown. you remind me of the lamb protagonist and how he ended up. adjusted for 2020, the future i see for you is what happened to all the low hanging fruit on 7axxn, playpen and so on. -
2021-04-28 at 3:48 PM UTCWe are not a harm reduction forum, not in BLTC, not here, not anywhere. We neither advocate or discourage any advice be it of a nature that helps or harms. You get what you get, faggot.
I used to take 13 of them bitches which was 650mg because 13 was a scary number, when i was 13 bitch nigger.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2021-04-28 at 3:53 PM UTC
Originally posted by Bradley We are not a harm reduction forum, not in BLTC, not here, not anywhere. We neither advocate or discourage any advice be it of a nature that helps or harms. You get what you get, faggot.
I used to take 13 of them bitches which was 650mg because 13 was a scary number, when i was 13 bitch nigger.
lol, fucked up as you may be, at least you dont have some bizarre crush on me. you disturb me less than he does any day. -
2021-04-28 at 3:56 PM UTCwhy would i have a crush on a loser
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2021-04-28 at 3:57 PM UTC
Originally posted by Kev Why oh why the hell do i do this? This stuff tastes like complete shit, it looks like something a toad shat out, i told myself the last few times it would be the last but here im at it again cause i got nothing else at my disposal. all for a slight buzz that will last barely an hour and now im probably not gonna get my shit done like i was supposed to. i regret buying this, i hvae no idea how i swallowed 6g raw last month, its difficult enough to drink as a tea with a pound of sugar.
fuck it, chillout time
OP is a rat ass bitch. I wish he was dead instead of this star that eats Crouton straight from the bag
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2021-04-28 at 4:01 PM UTCCrouton tea just tastes like a particularly weird green tea.
