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Fuck. I drank too much. I just tried calling an emotional support hotline
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2020-04-09 at 11:11 AM UTC
Originally posted by mmQ Hey yiure good . It's all good. I tried to address the fact that I knew I was gonna be embarrassed at it later. Like it took me 20 mins and a few tool songs to feel better. At that moment I just really really wanted to talk to someone on the phone, and I always hate the phone.
But thanks Matty. I'm ok.everythibf is gonna be ok with me or whatever. How are you ? Sometimes I get so caught up with myself that I forget I can be helpful to others.
Mentally ill people like you and I oftentimes do, because it's tough managing our own emotions, so we cant always be there for others... I'm not gonna lie to you and say that I'm joyous and happy, but I'm OK and managing. I think life sucks in a lot of ways n the negatives outweigh the positives. But I do my best to find the joy and beauty in life, also. I have a chemical imbalance that will always be with me, so I have to just accept it. -
2020-04-09 at 11:15 AM UTC
Originally posted by WellHung But that's totally OK, is my point. No need to be embarrased. We're at the point in history where it's recognized that guys need emotional releases too. It's not weak or cowardly to express negative emotions…its part of being human. we all feel them. A lot of women actually find it sexy because you're not afraid to be emotionally transparent, which takes courage.π
Well, I am. I will be. Yeah i know good women like that like to be the FIXERS. they can help wounded little ole me. Until i get dumb and they get exhausted. At the end of the day I'm better off alone. Like, it's better for everyone. Except kitties. I need a new kitty. I'm always nice to them and there is no reason to ever argue or fight. Fuuuck. I need a new cat. I miss Chootie so much. Is it weird that it's been a little over 2 years now since I stared in her eyee as that stupid fucking nurse bitch did the thing where she put her to sleep
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2020-04-09 at 11:16 AM UTC
Originally posted by Sudo the kr0zler is quite the wordsmithy lil gont
mmq I wish I could cover you in a big blanket and roll you around
good observation. Some may get the impression that Douglas is a dumb party boy... But he is actually very thoughtful and intelligent and has an excellent vocabulary. He expresses himself well. Like many mentally ill folks, like myself, wren, and doug himself, he's very bright and has a great capacity for introspection. -
2020-04-09 at 11:21 AM UTC
Originally posted by mmQ Well, I am. I will be. Yeah i know good women like that like to be the FIXERS. they can help wounded little ole me. Until i get dumb and they get exhausted. At the end of the day I'm better off alone. Like, it's better for everyone. Except kitties. I need a new kitty. I'm always nice to them and there is no reason to ever argue or fight. Fuuuck. I need a new cat. I miss Chootie so much. Is it weird that it's been a little over 2 years now since I stared in her eyee as that stupid fucking nurse bitch did the thing where she put her to sleep
Now I'm crying again.
No it's not weird. You and I are both animal lovers and I still think about and get sad and sometimes cry about pets that i had. Especially my cat that got shot with a pellet gun by one of the neighbors and I saw him drag himself up on the screened-in porch and die in front of me. I'm sorry about Chootie, but please don't blame the nurse, OK. She didn't force that upon your cat. Someone had to do it n and it obviously had to be done for good reason. What consoles me is that I look forward to seeing all my previous pets in the next life. I can't wait to reunite with them. -
2020-04-09 at 11:24 AM UTCNope. Sad again. Life sucks.
Let's be done with this thread. It's fine.
What the fuck?
This is so fucking dumb. To be happy and sad every fuxking 30 minutes or whatever. I hate it. Fuuuuuck.
Just whatever. That's my motto. Just whatever. -
2020-04-09 at 11:27 AM UTC
Originally posted by mmQ Nope. Sad again. Life sucks.
Let's be done with this thread. It's fine.
What the fuck?
This is so fucking dumb. To be happy and sad every fuxking 30 minutes or whatever. I hate it. Fuuuuuck.
Just whatever. That's my motto. Just whatever.
The rollercoaster of emotions and the unpredictability of them is very debilitating... over time it wears us down upstairs. That's an excellent point and an often neglected topic of symptoms of mental illness -
2020-04-09 at 11:30 AM UTCChootie is the best ever. I miss her so much.
That sounds like a futureman comment.
My dad is dead too. Maybe I miss him more but that's repressed. See? No. Bad bad bad. Lol. I need to SPOUT myself to someone.
My problem is when I'm sober I cant do it, unless I'm forced to. I cant do it myself. I'm a a little bitch like that .
Whew I need to calm down. -
2020-04-09 at 11:33 AM UTCThen I sound like a fuxking sesame street character. Hi I just wanna love everyone and hold hands and just live laugh and love.
I am a stupid sesame street character at heart. I'm Elmo. With a weird brain that likes horror and imagining really sick ass morbid shit shitnsometimes . But I'm Elmo at heart. I want to die -
2020-04-09 at 11:45 AM UTCWhen I was little everybody loved the cute characters on Sesame Street, not me, I loved Oscar the Grouch. He was my fav. I even have a ceramic piggy bank of Oscar that I painted.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2020-04-09 at 11:57 AM UTCThanks everyone .
I'm going to bed.
I love Oscar the grouch too, tech :) he teaches the lessons that people dont wanna hear but hes probably lowkey the smartest dude on the show. Lol. Oscar <3
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2020-04-09 at 11:57 AM UTC
Originally posted by mmQ Chootie is the best ever. I miss her so much.
That sounds like a futureman comment.
My dad is dead too. Maybe I miss him more but that's repressed. See? No. Bad bad bad. Lol. I need to SPOUT myself to someone.
My problem is when I'm sober I cant do it, unless I'm forced to. I cant do it myself. I'm a a little bitch like that .
Whew I need to calm down.
With age and maturity, u will. It will happen when the time is right. When ur ready.π -
2020-04-09 at 11:58 AM UTC
Originally posted by mmQ Thanks everyone .
I'm going to bed.
I love Oscar the grouch too, tech :) he teaches the lessons that people dont wanna hear but hes probably lowkey the smartest dude on the show. Lol. Oscar <3
Good night.
the sun is already up. just stay up with us and go to bed this evening. You won't want to continue this conversation when you're sober. -
2020-04-09 at 12:05 PM UTC
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2020-04-09 at 12:52 PM UTCYes you do.
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2020-04-09 at 12:57 PM UTC
Originally posted by WellHung But that's totally OK, is my point. No need to be embarrased. We're at the point in history where it's recognized that guys need emotional releases too. It's not weak or cowardly to express negative emotions…its part of being human. we all feel them. A lot of women actually find it sexy because you're not afraid to be emotionally transparent, which takes courage.π
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2020-04-09 at 12:59 PM UTC
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2020-04-09 at 1:04 PM UTC
Originally posted by mmQ Because whatever. Its 4 am. I'm actually never this sad. But I am right now. I called it and it was some guy with a monotone voice and he said hi how can I help you and I said hi isnt this the line for just talking to someone and he was like blah blah . I hung up on him. He didnt sound like he cared. I was hoping it would be a girl for some reason.
Just because I've had drinks doesn't mean I should be a nothing. I want to cry. I want to talk to someone. Heh. I know this is so lame and I'll regret it tomorrow especially when nothing happens. But uh. Will anyone talk to me or just .. whatever. ? I'm dead serious
why dont you look at some gay porn? -
2020-04-09 at 1:07 PM UTCThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
