2015-08-08 at 7:40 AM UTC
victim of incest
[my p.a. supernal goa]
I swear this won't be as gay as it sounds in the title. My current girlfriend and I both agree that the concept of a "soulmate" is bullshit fed to us as slave morality seeking to pacify our ambition. From childhood we have people telling us that someone out there is meant to be compatible: we have to find them, pursue them, sacrifice to make it work and struggle to maintain a relationship that was meant to be. It sounds like an assignment rather than a promise of happiness. When I was 17 I bagged groceries. One day I told my manager that I can't do it anymore and I wanted to move up. She had nothing at that time to offer me, but the next day some weird fucking Indian lady came into the store looking for strapping, handsome young gentlemen to help her move luggage from her luxurious home to a nearby storage unit. Responding to my inquiry, the boss passed her number along to me and I used my car to help her with the transportation. Unexpectedly she discovered an anthology of William Blake in the glove compartment and we got to chatting about poetry and mysticism. Bear in mind she was in my approximation within four years of medicare eligibility so this was obviously not a romantic connection in any way. From there she recounted for me her academic career in literature, briefing my impressionable young mind on the philosophies of Milton in particular but what she said that made the strongest impression on me was about love. She said, "Zanick, everyone will tell you to find somebody who's perfect, to compromise what you want to obtain the person you think you deserve because it's the order of the world. Don't listen to them, you ought to settle for somebody who is good enough and get on with your life." At first I thought this was cynical, defeatist in attitude and contrary to my inherited concept of Disney romance. Over the last few years, I've thought about it more. She was probably right. People are flawed, nobody will be perfect for me. Some people get that, but it's rare and they probably don't get to achieve the things I want to achieve.
2015-08-08 at 8:06 AM UTC
That's one of the worst things I've ever heard, but it's probably accurate. Instead I chose the "do not participate option". Even if it's worse and it kills me, I don't want to play this sick game.
2015-08-08 at 2:25 PM UTC
That lady was absolutely right, people who 'seek out their soul mate' are insufferable, and probably secretly gay.
2015-08-09 at 10:29 PM UTC
weak whyte, frothy cuck, and former twink
I've met the "one" for right now... haha. But sadly she is moving to go back to teaching at the university in DC.
I've known her for almost 2 months now and we've never really had any problems, we get along great and she even takes interest in my hobbies,(we've gone to 2 concerts in the last 2 weeks of some of my favorite bands.
She's a bit older than me, but she is classier and sexier than a lot of girls my age. She even sewed buttons back onto on of my favorite shirts recently. My ex gf, always said she would do that but was always to tired/busy.. Even though she's just lazy.
She's pretty intelligent she's written several books. I felt kinda weird about seeing her because I felt like she's way to smart for me, but I realize now that doesn't matter.
She even once brought me beer and chicken, and put on lingerie. She told me she doesn't care if I see other girls, just as long as she is my only chicken.
She asked me to move to DC with her, but I told her I can't do that, being as how I'm somewhat bound to austin currently.. or am i?
2015-08-10 at 1:42 AM UTC
I was fishing for something else......HINT HINT
2015-08-18 at 11:17 AM UTC
After dozens of failed relationships I've given up on dating. Yeah I have a "girlfriend" but she/we know it's just a friends with benefits arrangement, I'm a "boyfriend" solely to save face with her friends and family. Looking back on it a lot of relationships are just so the girl doesn't feel like a whore, they don't want to be labeled as the "slut". Of course being a guy I could give a fuck less what people label me as. To me no there is no "one". You could meet someone who's as close to ideal as possible but humans are flawed and not one is perfect. I guess I have a pretty decent arrangement lately, she's damn sweet, absolutely gorgeous no exaggeration but nah there is no soul mate there. I've gotten so used to being the lone wolf there is no possibility I could live with someone else again, share a bed regularly, going to graduations/family events etc..
I tried that a few years back and I just felt like I was a total poser and felt people could see right through it. Being miserable to make someone else happy is no way to live a life.
2015-08-19 at 11:22 PM UTC
I have. She's three years younger than me, but still legal, but only 4'9", red hair, and absolutely a devious and evil girl. It's awesome.