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Employment is bullshit and its everyones fault but mine
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2016-07-16 at 5:03 PM UTCThere is nothing wrong with me, I'm strong, smart and skilled. When I work all I do is escapism (video games, shopping, Netflix, mindless sex, drugs, social media.)
I'm supposed to be writing a resume and job searching right now, actually for the past 30 days and all I have done is shit post and play shitty 2D online computer games.
In 5 hours I can send out 100 job applications in the most competitive market in the country, get rejected a lot, talk to a bunch of HR fags on the phone, go to job interviews, ride around town on a bus, the entire time thinking "this is fucking bullshit"
Getting a paycheck isn't rewarding, I know as soon as I get it I will have to buy a bunch of over priced shit and pay bills or "save" (do nothing just sit there bored) it. There is no dopamine or rewarding feeling being produced when I engage in these activities, unlike video games which are EXTREMELY rewarding to kill someone in an online game, my brain is flooded with dopamine and all I want to do is WIN.
The only way to win in the real world is with a million dollars and getting away with white collar Crimes or murder.
I don't think soviet society, Nazi socialism or early american society had these problems, people only made like $10 a week but everything was cheap and land only costed $1000 so you could realistically think "okay if I work for a year I can buy a farm and start a family bla bla bla". Nowadays its more like "okay I make $20,000/yr but a house costs a million and then there's taxes and bills.. WELL I GUESS I SHOULD COOK METH AND ROB A BANK!! CAPITALISM HO!".
I'm not knocking capitalism, government intervention ruined it and now everything is fucked.
I think this explains why mass shootings are so desirable these days, its the only thing you can do that's rewarding and purely human anymore. REAL competition, survival of the fittest.
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2016-07-16 at 6:42 PM UTCFind something semi-rewarding that earns a paycheck. Or find a way to be satisfied with earning enough to afford what you want.
You just want to play video games? You need at least a basic place, electricity, an Internet connection, and your entertainment device(s) of choice. All of that costs money. Go out and earn it knowing what it will ultimately afford you to do, which should give you some satisfaction. -
2016-07-16 at 7:09 PM UTCVideo games are escapism, when I worked full time all I did was pay bills, play video games and smoke weed and it wasn't very satisfying.
I derive satisfaction from undermining society.
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2016-07-16 at 9:27 PM UTCGo thru a government welfare job placement program.
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2016-07-16 at 10:22 PM UTCIve tried to strive for a semi-normal life/career, but I know exactly what you mean. This is why I dropped my entire life in Florida and am going for broke to dothe things Ive wanted to do for such a long time, and hopefully Ill make it and find some satisfaction and meaning in life before I keel over. What is it you'd want in life? What is your 'ideal' life like, being realistic? I struggle staying focused on mygoals and I think that is most people's, including yours and mine problem with finding fulfillment in life.
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2016-07-16 at 10:28 PM UTCAlso, I think what stifles most people, including myself before now, is the fear of the unknown and failure. The one thing that has helped me let go of that now is the certain knowledge within myself that my time here onthis earth is extremely limited- I can choose to squander that time by doing shit that will be miserable, yet socially by appearances, the 'right' and acceptable thing to do, or I can go out and enjoy what little I have, or atleast try to do that.