2019-06-22 at 11:42 AM UTC
Wariat
Marine/Preteen Biologist
WHen I first got deported sex was all in my mind. Masturbation and thinking about what ifs from my past was the only sanity you had in your head in prison or a time to actually relax and forget where you were. But since Ive had actual sex again a few times back, most of the time with anything I could get while drunk, I realized it is a worthless energy (rediscovering porn when first released all over again was something else also). Most of these Pollack females are super selfish and bitchy anyway and wont even go down many times but expect it. But in general the more porn I watch the less I want to have sex. Its just like whats the point. WHy deal witth he drama, or pay for dinners and dates just to get some? Or why have to be someones mule who wont do what you want but selfishly expects you do to everything for them? Plus, what really is good about it? Ive never really been into intercourse just the foreplay stuff anyway, especially with a condom/ You cant feel it and stay hard with a condom anyway.
2019-06-22 at 11:46 AM UTC
Wariat
Marine/Preteen Biologist
Lately, I choose to just better myself and focus on fitness. I dont really like the culture here anyway but will stay because it is cheap and I can work from home. If I were to move to europe Id have to struggle and pay everything using euros. But I will just focus on weight lifting and running and learning to do hand stands and shit and not even think about sex. I do have a problem with porn still at least once in a while the ammount of day I waste particularly when I wake up and thinking about it. But when it comes trying to get any in real life, I dont try or care anymore.I am also thinking of getting back to the martial arts and actually get good in jiu jitsu because Ive had potential there.
2019-06-22 at 11:47 AM UTC
aldra
JIDF Controlled Opposition
having a single point of focus makes people easier to predict and control
