I swear before G-d that if I could time travel back to my youth.. at least age 5 but have the lack of care to my fears I once greatly had as a kid that I do now. and know everything I experienced including what I'v forgotten details. I would catalog it ahead of time in writing, find a way to have it held in trust and not to be opened for further years to come (like 2020 or later) and videotape everything I could .. from a Betamax cam in the 1970s and finding a way to hide it's giant bulky sidepack and camera to that of the highest resolution in 2001 to every fucking lie and punk ass double talkers and double personas of the people I one respected or feared.
and a few other things I secretly envision of doing
