2019-05-18 at 12:54 PM UTC
And what was your experience like?
2019-05-18 at 2:49 PM UTC
Oh come the fuck on surely 9 out of 10 people on this forum have been to one
2019-05-18 at 2:51 PM UTC
Once i tried offing myself i literally felt chemically lobotomized.
2019-05-18 at 2:56 PM UTC
I have been to a hospice
I did contract work
I know what death smells like
2019-05-18 at 3:29 PM UTC
I went to one in 2014 right before new years. This is a blog I made the summer of that same year
https://mr420happy-blog.tumblr.comI was involuntarily committed for a week after I smoked an eight ball of meth and didn't eat or sleep for many days, I started binging before Christmas.
I lived in a dope house/haunted house and someone saw me smoking meth through the window and tried to rob me during this ordeal and even knocked on my door and threatened me. It wasn't a hallucination because I took a picture of the guy and sent it to my friend.
My phone died at the hospital though so they thought I was tripping, I thought the robbers were gonna break in my house and murder my cats so I was crying a lot and I thought they were driving me in an ambulance to talk to a detective in the next town over keeping me in protective custody against a hitman. When I got to the hospital psych ward I suspected something was up and they just had to keep me here until I spoke to the detective.
Then I realized I got myself stuck in a psych ward while tripping on meth and it took me a week to get out because all of my family and co workers were to ashamed of me to come pick me up lol. Also it was during New Years.
I spent new years 2015 watching The Wire, eating hospital food and Ativan. When I got out my job gave me medical disability and I joined RDFRN and became a NEET.
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2019-05-18 at 3:52 PM UTC
I went through far less and for some reason they kept me locked up for five days
it was really fucking strange there was this jew woman who wouldn't shut the fuck up about being jewish, I'm kind of worried that she might have been a mossad agent.
they even played debussy on the tv while I was asleep .... which is fucking weird because the tv was off every night except for that one occasion ...
2019-05-18 at 4:05 PM UTC
Here is my story.
In 2015 my grandparents passed away around the same time, days or a week apart (my grandfather in-law was a freemason btw) and my mother and I became homeless and lived in hotels from 2015 to 2016 then with a couple of her friends in 2017 and then her car in 2018.
Around that time, her maniacal piece of dogshit exhusband who used to stalk us and break into our apartments bought my family home that was ours for almost 70 years, the place I grew up in so I refuse to believe that dumb fuck just bought the place because of the garage.
One day my mom and I got in a huge fight and the bitch drove off in the car without me (if she really thought she was going to do that to me and leave me homeless I would have seriously killed her) and so I was sleep deprived and had built a fire inthe woods where I made some tomato soup over the flames I had started over the train tracks.
I walked all the way to my home to ask (I can't believe I had to ask the fuck to sleep in my own goddamn house) the piece of shit if I could stay and he was like "why should I let you stay when you say such bad things about me", my miserably stupid whore of a cousin had gone and told him about a conversation we had on facebook where I told her about all the awful things he had done to us, which he SWEARS never happened (he had a stroke in 2008 and is now brain damaged), I went all off on him calling him the fuck out for trying to force himself in my family's life and moving into my goddamn house ... he started laughing at me in a shrieking voice and I fucking lost it and threw the phone down, picked up one of the chairs on the porch and broke all the windows on the front of the house then stuck the chair in one of the windows to send a message.
Well ... I thought I would be able to sneak my way back to the forest and pass out but no ... I almost made it to the bridge in downtown and three police SUVs chased after me and sounded their sirens.
It gets even more strange though because one of the police officers asked me if I was worried about the government and NWO and I have no fucking clue where he would have got that information from.
Anyways I was given two choices, either go to jail or go the a psychiatric ward and I wasn't about to go to jail so I went to the psychward.
It wasn't all bad the only creepy parts were the jew woman and this one bitch whore employee that tried scaring me one day when she walked passed me and said "we control you" ,.... also the whole debussy thing was scary as fuck and this one guy who worked there (who was probably jewish) was suspicious as fuck and at one point I think he tried fucking with me psychologically.
I just hope and pray that nothing really weird happened there and those were just random people and the jewish woman was just there for real reasons and not to toy with me.
This one black girl one day walked around making the 666 (now known as white power) symbols with her hands and started yelling "666 ILLUMINATI" which freaked me the fuck out so I walked up to her and she was talking about this female wing of the freemasons and how her mom as in it ... I wonder if they actually did things to her ...
goddamn I hate this reality
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2019-05-18 at 4:55 PM UTC
The food was pretty decent.
There 2 guys that stayed at the psych ward I was in at East Kootenay regional hospital who was from the same town as me, I knew them. One left the same day I got there and the other one never ate, talked or left his room.
I would eat his breakfast, he came out for lunch and dinner but always slept in until right before lunch. In the mornings I would grab 4 orange juices and chug them. They never gave us enough juice or milk but there as lots of coffee and tea.
The had loafs of bread and packs of peanut butter, honey, jam and a toaster, crackers and fruit and veg sometimes. I ate a lot because I was coming down from a meth binge and didn't eat for almost a week.
2019-05-18 at 5:28 PM UTC
Sorry hikka sounds rough. They might have done things to her especially if her mother was compliant and part of the eastern star. That’s what gets to me.... I’ll never know if they did anything to me. No one to ask now...
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I've been in twice...
2005 (Voluntary self-admission): I was having a bit of a mental break down and just couldn't handle life and genuinely thought I was losing it. I just went into the E.R. and said I needed help.
2014 (Involuntary hold): I told my family I was going to kill myself, and I went a bit crazy and grabbed a kitchen knife and started ranting about how I just couldn't go on anymore. A major factor here was that I was rapidly tapering off methadone, and truly felt like life without opiates was just plain not worth it. A cop came and he tazed me and cuffed me and brought me into the ER.
I was only in for ~5 days. For the first night, I was strapped to a bed, but told one of the nurses that I have a ritual and need to jerk off every night before I go to sleep. I started to pretend to do it (as best as I could given how restrained I was). They told me I could, alternatively, sleep alone in a super high security cell (it was identical to the drunk tank cell at any local police precinct).
Then the next day they moved me into the 3rd wing with all the really mentally ill folks - either experiencing full on psychotic breaks, or expressing serious danger to themselves or others, or just plain non-responsive. It was pretty brutal, but I think I was only in there for one night.
The next night they moved me to the 2nd wing. It's still on lock down, but the people in there are more calm, lucid, and you can actually converse with them.
One of the psychiatrists in the wing was actually one I had seen before separately, and we got along well. I was also really cooperative because it's not a very pleasant place to be (and the boredom drove me pretty crazy). Combine all that with the fact I have a degree in psychology (yes, just a bachelor's degree, but you still have to take a handful of clinical psych classes to graduate - so I kinda had a pre-existing understanding of how the whole process works), and so I was able to get myself released pretty promptly, relatively speaking.
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2019-05-18 at 8:25 PM UTC
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Too much shit has happened to me.
2019-05-18 at 9:07 PM UTC
Here in the US, especially in Texas, it's a very bad idea to go to one of these places. They'll force you to take experimental medication and TB and other diseases are everywhere.
2019-05-18 at 9:40 PM UTC
I think my school experimented on me with drugs
they said it was just MSG but that stuff made me trip out and super sick
that whole fucking school creeps me out and is totally up to some MKULTRA type stuff
they even used a robot controlled fly once and flew it into my soda can to freak me out
and one time they were going to attempt to recruit me into a secret program but they made it seem like I won a raffle contest to eat at a restaurant with the principal
I mean you might say I'm schizo for saying all of that (I'll admit the fly thing could have been pure accident and not some weird government thing) but the time I was to go to dinner with the principal? wtf why would that even be a contest in a public school.
2019-05-18 at 9:46 PM UTC
and what are the fucking odds that I would even win something like that
in the cafeteria where they held the raffle contest there had to have been 100+ kids
that's a 1 in 100 chance and I happened to win it ... or did I?
I think I was purposely selected.
I was the most autistic kid there, slightly queer, loner, impressionable, very outgoing (I was the most charismatic kid at the school play), I have an extremely advanced state of consciousness/awareness (which is why I think they targeted me).
I would have been turned into a media figure probably, something like what they're doing with desmond is amazing.
It's sad really, because growing up in the 90s everything felt so normal and I had no idea things were so corrupt.
