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Some O.G. Totseans - Chime up if you know what they up to or if you happen to be them with a new username
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2018-12-15 at 9:32 AM UTCTwistedFerret / AdMech - I made a thread SPECIFICALLY looking for him already, but I'm mentioning him again here. I miss him most of all.
Robbinhoody - If you don't know who Robbinhoody was, you may be too much of a Yung Blood. You may not even need to continue reading this thread.
Gun Lover - We used to talk to each other about drugs a lot. Never about guns though, despite the name. I think he might been a mod of BLTC at one point.
Gustav/Guswut - This one goes way back, but I am curious as to what this motherfucker done been up to.
Silverfuck - Well, if you've seen her pics, 'nuff said. We came close to meeting in person, too, when I was living in Ottawa (near Toronto or wherever SF was from... she also went by Sophistry too at one point, I think).
CreamOfAndyWarholSoup - This dude did not have a particularly high post count, but he was one of the few Totseans I met in person (when I was living in Ottawa).
deadlycindy - She was mod of Bad Ideas - and back when I actually used to post there all the time (I used to do crimes and shit - long time ago, like 2004/2005 - I don't anymore).
bloodydiaperman - Probably the most (in)famous of all Totseans. I mean, he ran for city council or mayor or some shit, and had some crazy stories and YouTube videos.
Tr1p - FUCKIN TRAINS, MAN!!!!! IT'S A FUCKIN TRAIN!! Also known for his gargantuan nose.
MrMojoRisin - She was mod of S&A, I believe. Kinda hot (from one picture of her boobs in a bra - that's about all I can remember).
Metaphysicist - Everyone knows who he was (mod of BLTC, eventually mod of SG, where he ruled with an iron fist; was in a band; was also crippled in some capacity).
Glitterpunk112358 - Those numbers were the Fibonnaci sequence. This chick was a narcissist but reminded me of myself.
breed - Another poster that wasn't particularly popular on Totse, but I met him in real-life (in Southwestern BC, Canada).
soro_one - Yet another poster that might not have been Totse-famous, but I met him in real life.
Pyrohydrosmok - Mod of BLTC; also fucked a bagel.
Sick_Boy (sp?) - There was more than one Totsean who named themselves after the Trainspotting character, but there was a gal from Alberta with the username. Her geographical proximity makes me think of her that much more frequently.
Some more (don't even know for sure if they were ever on Totse, but might have been on, say Zoklet):
Tachozoma (sp?) - Is it just me, or is his face on one of the NIS banners??
That's all I can think of for now.
I'm sure dozens more will pop into my head later on after I post this.
And for the record, I think it's really cool that Panthrax is still around (i.e. Grimace). I would have probably listed him above if I didn't know that he's still here.
If anyone else thinks of anyone they miss from Totse days, mention them here.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2018-12-15 at 9:59 AM UTCOh man, the funny thing is, one of the posters that I thought of that actually made me make this thread, I forgot to include...
ArgonPlasma2000 (sp? Can't remember the exact number after ArgonPlasma) - He was kind of a hardcore nerd (much like many Totseans), and had some romantic difficulties, and was one of the few openly religious folks on there - (Christian I'm pretty sure).
Greyfox - Thinking of religion got me thinking of him. That was his username, right? I'm starting to rethink if I got it right. He lived in Alaska, and posted all kinds of weird "spiritual" stuff. Actually, I remember hearing/reading somewhere, on here even I think, that he's passed on. :(
nuclearrabbit - I heard somewhere he had some issues with... well... something particularly controversial.
JoePedo - WTF happened to this dude? Everybody's favorite open/uncloseted pedophile. He was a decent dude though. And he was freaking brilliant too, especially with chemistry. That dude knew his chemistry. He may have had unsavory sexual predilections, but he was still a stand up dude, I don't care what anybody says. -
2018-12-15 at 10:05 AM UTCOH MAN, who was that motherfucker that lived on a farm and had a huge crush on some chick from school that he saw on the bus all the time...
Damn, it was like...
I don't know, but a poster her has the username "BunnyMofo", and for whatever reason, that reminds me of this character.
I think he had pet llamas.
And I think his crush was also his neighbour.
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2018-12-15 at 10:07 AM UTCRegarding Admech, I had hoped he'd be my tutor upon my appointment to moderating the religion subforum but he was MIA and never returned. I can't help but worry, and I still haven't shaken that feeling even though it's been years. He seemed like a fantastic guy.
Robinhoody became committed to the post-Silverfuck project in a uniquely disturbing episode of impersonation that I can only assume emerges through a kind of self-hatred which, when inadequately rationalized, produces a fetish that commands you to play sexual games with a stolen identity of the opposite sex. I don't think this situation was a coincidence for our site, rather, it was a pattern.
Gun Lover was a true expert. My hope is that he found a place where his intellect feels at home.
Silverfuck disappeared, but later on, Enter got to wear her face — or maybe it was Robinhoody, I've never understood exactly who did what. Later she got arrested with Mancannon for several robberies and theft of controlled pharmaceuticals. Forget the woman you saw before, this will be your foremost visual memory of her going forward. Isn't it sad how we preserve people as they are at their worst?
bloodydiaperman blew his mind out in a car, this is easily accessed Totse canon.
Tacho is presumably still a janitor, given that his political philosophy confesses a dramatic lacking of social mobility.
I don't know about the rest.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2018-12-15 at 10:08 AM UTCI'm friends with Greyfox on Facebook. He's still an enlightened liberal bastard.
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2018-12-15 at 10:08 AM UTCA few more:
Firekitty - Something about her always just turned me the fuck on. I'll never forget how she used to criticize me in S&A.
yoyobeck - Mod of S&A at one point.
jackketch - A very interesting character, with interesting sexual proclivities... He was also mod of S&A at one time I think. -
2018-12-15 at 10:11 AM UTCOMG, Rust...
Ok, I know there was a thread made about him recently, and about he apparently got all power hungry over at Zoklet and fucked shit up.
I still have a lot of respect for him though. Does anyone know what he's up to or stay in contact with him?
OH MAN, and...
DerDrache - Also OneMulatto? Or was he TwoMulatto's?
HOLY FUCK, and Zay...
Where is Zay?
SO MANY TOTSEANS I MISS DAMNIT. -
2018-12-15 at 10:13 AM UTCi think i might have an old email of robinhoodys, I can look through decade old emails of the bltc research project to see what i can find
what about ShutMeUp? she had great titsThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2018-12-15 at 10:19 AM UTC
Originally posted by Zanick Regarding Admech, I had hoped he'd be my tutor upon my appointment to moderating the religion subforum but he was MIA and never returned. I can't help but worry, and I still haven't shaken that feeling even though it's been years. He seemed like a fantastic guy.
STATUS: Found.
He reallywasIS a fantastic guy. I will find him one day. He got hooked bad on the opiates, around the same time as me. I remember when I was finally getting clean, I got an e-mail message from him out of the blue, but it sounded like he was still stuck in it all.
He better be out there somewhere.
All I know is he lived a small town in STATE REDACTED, studied chemistry as an undergrad, and had a thing for opioids.
Also, and this is ironic as FUCK, for a short while he had a girlfriend in VAN-FUCKING-COUVER (that's where I USUALLY live, for the record)... He ended up coming out to my home town for a while to be with his GF... I happened to be living in Ottawa at the time.
Anyway, FIRST NAME REDACTED (I hope he doesn't mind me using his government name instead of his username), WHERE ARE YOU?
Originally posted by Zanick Robinhoody became committed to the post-Silverfuck project in a uniquely disturbing episode of impersonation that I can only assume emerges through a kind of self-hatred which, when inadequately rationalized, produces a fetish that commands you to play sexual games with a stolen identity of the opposite sex. I don't think this situation was a coincidence for our site, rather, it was a pattern.
So when those rumors arose that robinhoody actually was Silverfuck, it's because he tried to take on her persona?
WTF?
Originally posted by Zanick Gun Lover was a true expert. My hope is that he found a place where his intellect feels at home.
He was a smart fella. I didn't talk to him a whole heck of a lot, but a bit, and he kinda crosses my mind from time to time.
Originally posted by Zanick Silverfuck disappeared, but later on, Enter got to wear her face — or maybe it was Robinhoody, I've never understood exactly who did what. Later she got arrested with Mancannon for several robberies and theft of controlled pharmaceuticals. Forget the woman you saw before, this will be your foremost visual memory of her going forward. Isn't it sad how we preserve people as they are at their worst?
MY LAST INTERACTION WITH HER (on Zoklet) WAS ABOUT OPIATE ADDICTION...
She was addicted around the same time as myself (and AdMech, for that matter).
Our last conversation was about opiate addiction.
By which I mean, with Silverfuck, as well as with AdMech.
Opiates be killin' niggas left, right, and center, WTF!?
Originally posted by Zanick bloodydiaperman blew his mind out in a car, this is easily accessed Totse canon.
Well shit... I am clearly out of the loop then.
Originally posted by Zanick Tacho is presumably still a janitor, given that his political philosophy confesses a dramatic lacking of social mobility.
Lol interesting...
Originally posted by Zanick I don't know about the rest.
You provided a lot, my good man.
Zanick, you are a gentleman and a scholar.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2018-12-15 at 10:21 AM UTC
Originally posted by Rizzo in a box i think i might have an old email of robinhoodys, I can look through decade old emails of the bltc research project to see what i can find
what about ShutMeUp? she had great tits
I would have mentioned you too if I didn't already know you were here.
There are very few of us who have stuck around all this time, especially with the same user name.
I remember the name Rizzo going way back.
Panthrax I remember, but he's Grimace now here for some reason.
Zanick, now that I think of it... (gonna continue in a new post)... -
2018-12-15 at 10:21 AM UTCZanick, were you Zanick on Totse?
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2018-12-15 at 10:21 AM UTCanyone heard anything about poast boartem?
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2018-12-15 at 10:24 AM UTC
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2018-12-15 at 10:25 AM UTCsotb ?
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2018-12-15 at 10:27 AM UTC
Originally posted by gadzooks Zanick, were you Zanick on Totse?
Did you have a different username?
Yeah, I've kept this username the whole time, but I'm better known for my presence on Zoklet. I think the only contributions I made to Totse were a thread inquiring about the recreational uses of Sudafed and a few ignorant comments about other OTC drugs.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2018-12-15 at 10:31 AM UTC
Originally posted by Zanick Yeah, I've kept this username the whole time, but I'm better known for my presence on Zoklet. I think the only contributions I made to Totse were a thread inquiring about the recreational uses of Sudafed and a few ignorant comments about other OTC drugs.
I can tell you been around for a spell.
You know a fuck of a lot more about what's been going down than I do.
I actually wasn't on Zoklet all that much.
On Totse, I had like 5th most posts out of all users (15,000) or something. I was a narcissistic attention whore though and I mostly posted about my sexual exploits in S&A, but also a lot in BLTC, and way earlier on, in Bad Ideas.
But on Zoklet, it was basically whenever I was on heroin for some reason.
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2018-12-15 at 10:32 AM UTC
Originally posted by gadzooks I would have mentioned you too if I didn't already know you were here.
There are very few of us who have stuck around all this time, especially with the same user name.
I remember the name Rizzo going way back.
Panthrax I remember, but he's Grimace now here for some reason.
Zanick, now that I think of it… (gonna continue in a new post)…
considering the reaction I've gotten, I wonder if people would really want to see some of their totse favorites actually come back. people change, the worlds changes, the internet changes. the weird wild west that I grew up with isn't the corporate, walled off, everything connected internet that we have today. even at the time of zoklet things were starting to seriously go downhill. in 2018, almost 2019? this a totally different world.
can't imagine a forum like totse, with all those weird and illegal people coming together for great discussions. JP we will probably never see, along with some of the smarter or more subversive posters. Or the ones that were smarter and ended up working for the feds (there were a few of those on totse as well).
if I was growing up today, or if I had to give advice to a hypothetical child, I would definitely not recommend the free-wheeling internet usage that gave us all so much enjoyment. In 2006 I felt comfortable talking about my drug experiences and asking questions on a weird fringe forum not connected to my name. in 2016 everything you do online is part of your digital brand and your employers want to know all your social media. every online service is connected to everything else and a profile is built up of you.
this is terrible, I would never have been able to enjoy the many great stories I read on totse that inspired me to share my own wacky misadventures, with this constant threat of weaponized offense, deplatforming, etc.
honestly feel like its even a bad idea to post here, now, under this name, with the presumption that this is my actual person. would have been smarter to let this account die.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2018-12-15 at 10:37 AM UTC
Originally posted by Rizzo in a box considering the reaction I've gotten, I wonder if people would really want to see some of their totse favorites actually come back. people change, the worlds changes, the internet changes. the weird wild west that I grew up with isn't the corporate, walled off, everything connected internet that we have today. even at the time of zoklet things were starting to seriously go downhill. in 2018, almost 2019? this a totally different world.
can't imagine a forum like totse, with all those weird and illegal people coming together for great discussions. JP we will probably never see, along with some of the smarter or more subversive posters. Or the ones that were smarter and ended up working for the feds (there were a few of those on totse as well).
if I was growing up today, or if I had to give advice to a hypothetical child, I would definitely not recommend the free-wheeling internet usage that gave us all so much enjoyment. In 2006 I felt comfortable talking about my drug experiences and asking questions on a weird fringe forum not connected to my name. in 2016 everything you do online is part of your digital brand and your employers want to know all your social media. every online service is connected to everything else and a profile is built up of you.
this is terrible, I would never have been able to enjoy the many great stories I read on totse that inspired me to share my own wacky misadventures, with this constant threat of weaponized offense, deplatforming, etc.
honestly feel like its even a bad idea to post here, now, under this name, with the presumption that this is my actual person. would have been smarter to let this account die.
I think what we had was a good thing.
But now, it's not the same thing it once was.
By posting anything, it's like auto-doxxing yourself.
I've thought of just making a thread where I post my passport photos, street address, and place of business, just to get the inevitable out of the way...
Totse was great for getting together with a bunch of diverse people with similar interests (drugs, pyrotechnics, whatever), and just chatting it up in Internet forums.
Nowadays, people are paranoid as fuck.
I've noticed that a lot of people refuse to use old usernames out of paranoia.
You and I, Rizzo, either we're brave souls, or we're way behind the curve, because we've stuck with our old names for some reason.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2018-12-15 at 10:43 AM UTC
Originally posted by gadzooks Was that a Totsean?
I can't say I recognize the name/phrase.
poast boartem was I think part of the half baked crew, and HB was its own thing. im not sure if he had the same name on totse, but during zoklet we ended up fighting a months long war against the mods. actually, I don't think this story was ever told. So, some zoklet history (NEVER BEFORE SEEN, EXCLUSIVE). well it might have been told before but I'm too drunk to remember if we ever revealed our evil doings. It's been several years and this was all over petty internet bullshit, so forgive a lack of details or misinformation.
During Zok's reign, people had a lot of problems with him. He wasn't exactly the best admin, and the fact that Wires had a grip around his spineless body didn't help. I forget the specifics but I was a moderator of NFHC (bltc) at the time, and was helping to coordinate leaks and battles against the mods and zok. Poast boartem and I were the masterminds but we had a dozen or two people involved, mostly coordinating on Anne's (wtf was her username?) site TRP (wtf was the actual name of the site?) on a secret forum. It was pretty fucking autistic, but there was a lot of lulz with double crossings, paranoia, leaks, drama, all that shit. it was great.
eventually I got demodded for something else entirely but I already had a few other mods in my pocket leaking shit, poast and I were going to announce our autistic goings on but I decided not to, on the off chance I could get modded again and keep up the reign of terror. then zoklet shutdown.
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2018-12-15 at 10:52 AM UTC
Originally posted by gadzooks I think what we had was a good thing.
But now, it's not the same thing it once was.
By posting anything, it's like auto-doxxing yourself.
I've thought of just making a thread where I post my passport photos, street address, and place of business, just to get the inevitable out of the way…
Totse was great for getting together with a bunch of diverse people with similar interests (drugs, pyrotechnics, whatever), and just chatting it up in Internet forums.
Nowadays, people are paranoid as fuck.
I've noticed that a lot of people refuse to use old usernames out of paranoia.
You and I, Rizzo, either we're brave souls, or we're way behind the curve, because we've stuck with our old names for some reason.
I've got that paranoia, too - like I said, part of me regrets every post I make on this site, under this name. I made it when I was 16. it's linked up to many (old, dead) sites and various other information that could seriously compromise if someone really wanted to fuck with me. There's already enough information out there for a malicious actor to fuck me over, and there's nothing I can really do. The FBI and DHS are already aware of me (not just from watchlists), the literal only thing going for me is that I am such a fuck up. God help me if I was successful and had a bank account and a family to threaten. There's not very much to take from me...but it can always get worse, which is why I'm still paranoid.
I feel like this dovetails into a broader discussion about privacy and security, which is more of a solemn prayer to the things we once had, rather than a discussion.
