2023-04-19 at 9:06 AM UTC
I'm thinking about whether or not I should sleep. It's almost (or already) 11am and I woke up late today at 3am. I could stay up the entire day and sleep after the pre-dawn meal which comes past midnight. Or I could sleep now. I don't know. We shall see.
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2023-04-19 at 5:56 PM UTC
Speedy Parker
Black Hole
[my absentmindedly lachrymatory gazania]
Originally posted by Kafka
He's crazy
Is that the length men will go to avoid sex with you?
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2023-04-19 at 11:47 PM UTC
Thinking of wearing coloured contacts from now on. My dad had black hair and grey hazel eyes. My natural hair colour is brown but everyone says I suit black hair better, so maybe I'll suit blue eyes as well.
2023-04-19 at 11:48 PM UTC
I'm either gonna go w blue or gold, bcus sometimes my eyes are bright amber and I like them then.
2023-04-20 at 1:29 AM UTC
I'm tryna make video diaries every day now and am alarmed at how catatonic I seem and there are other signs of stress. Idk how long I've been like this and what it means if I've been this way for a long time, when was the last time I was okay? Idek what I'm stressed about.
2023-04-20 at 1:38 AM UTC
I feel so far removed from the person I'm watching. I'm starting to wonder if that's the main me and I'm just an alt.
2023-04-20 at 1:45 AM UTC
Now I'm wondering if I really have chronic fatigue or if it's just catatonia
2023-04-20 at 1:58 AM UTC
Thinking about the what could have been with my life, kind of depressing. I had a good talk the other day with my son's mom, showing me stuff from his baby things. She still had love letters in a notebook she wrote to me and had a picture of me, her and my mom at her graduation ceremony. Brought tears to my eyes, because my mom's been gone about 4 or 5 years now. I think about if I would have ever got on dope real bad if I stayed with my son's mom. She is a good woman and I used to be a pretty bad drunk, and she told me she was sorry she failed me. She wanted me to get help and get my life together. I really should have, it's one of the few regrets in life I struggle with, if I would have stopped drinking and treated her how she deserved and spent time in my son's life maybe I would feel fulfilled instead of empty. I would love to have a family, I'm to the point where I don't see it happening. I told her she didn't fail me but damn, that made me realize even though all the bullshit she went through with me she still cares about me in her own way.
Apologies for the wall of text, I just emotional dumped on y'all. I needed that 😊
2023-04-20 at 2:06 AM UTC
I wish I'd been homeschooled but not by my mum.
