2025-02-08 at 8:17 PM UTC
Thinking about the voices in my head. Never would've really thought they were actual v2k or real people till I saw my ex "internet flame" here in person several times.
I'm still madly in love with her but if she wants nothing to do with me I just want her to have a good life. The voices claiming to be mostly army intelligence and CIA said her family wouldnt let her talk to me unless they confirmed I wasn't a psychopath and that I'd quit drinking.
They keep saying "just 5 more days" but then they extend it another week if I smoke weed or drink a monster.
Some "deal" when they can change the rules whenever they like. Supposedly they were also mad that I bought some new pants cause she wanted to buy me all new ones, but at the same time they want me to be respectful and presentable. Rather contradictory. I definitely could use some shirts and socks still though, among other things. She's good with math and the only person I'd ever trust so I'd just give her whatever money I have so she didnt have to worry, if we were together. But I guess it doesn't matter now. I have a feeling it's just a psyop and that she wants nothing to do with me anymore.
I just gotta worry about myself, I know she has a good life now and that's all that matters. Improving my life is the only realistic thing I can do.
Tldr I fell in love with molly hale
2025-02-08 at 9:28 PM UTC
POLECAT
POLECAT is a motherfucking ferret
[my presentably immunised ammonification]
just got back from a sled ride, only 50 miles but the snow was pretty good and we have 8 to 12" cummin tonight so I'm headed out to the gas station to got 20 gallons of gas so i can ride all day tomorrow
2025-02-08 at 9:35 PM UTC
I'm sweating. I need to shave my armpits and make some homemade deodorant. Although the tulpas demons have convinced me to refrain from spending any money. What do they think I'll do with the money when it turns out she's never coming back into my life? Do they think I'm magically going to want to be with any of the other beautiful women here that I'm not in love with?
I'll just leave them to wallow in their own filth and move to a high trust society. They're trying to exploit me, and some are trying to poach me. I feel hunted.
2025-02-08 at 10:16 PM UTC
I'm too fat and apparently I suck at saving money. I need to get the lead out of my pants.
I am trying. What are these benevolent nazis planning? I cannot feel the air.
It's all so confusing.
Still working on the armpit hair.
I'll be back later to let you guys know how it went.
