Fonaplats' Trying My Best to Keep it Together Thursday

1. 2018-05-03 at 3:21 PM UTC

   #1
   The Self Taught Man Black Hole
   Hello Family,
   
   Fonaplats here.
   
   Kind of sad today.
   I spent a lot of time in my head yesterday at work and everything just seems so stupid anymore.
   Nothing I dream of seems possible.
   I think my health is declining.
   My sorrow is so sorrowful.
   
   I got to do something guys.
   I have been just faking it until i make it but damn is it hard.
   And to top it all off I feel I am unable to trust myself.
   Like a lot of the things I say or do on any given day bring me regret the next day.
   Why can I not see these things will bring me hurt before I actually do or say them?
   
   I do not want to hurt peoples feelings.
   I just want people to be happy.
   I wanna help people.
   But I am not fake. I tell it like it is.
   
   And yet I am a liar and a backstabber. I dont mean to be.
   Its like there is 2 sides to me and the meany side is really cunning and strong.
   So hard to control it sometimes.
   
   Uhg.
   
   I love you guys.
   I need to find a way to cheer myself up today.
   Thing is I dont know if I will always be able to.
   And that scares me.
   
   I need a hug so bad.
   
   I love you all very much.
   I will check in later.
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   • Red_Woman
2. 2018-05-03 at 3:32 PM UTC

   #2
   The Self Taught Man Black Hole
   I just wanna hug u rn fona!!
3. 2018-05-03 at 3:37 PM UTC

   #3
   The Self Taught Man Black Hole

   Originally posted by Boss_bebe74 I just wanna hug u rn fona!!

   
   You have no idea how much that just affected me.
   I suddenly feel a lot better.
   
   I have to remember that I am doing all this to make the world a better place and you just helped make mine better.
   I thank you.
   
   You have helped cheer me up.
4. 2018-05-03 at 3:38 PM UTC

   #4
   

   itybit African Astronaut [daze my amino pe-tsai]
   Awwww (((hug))) hug for you Fona
5. 2018-05-03 at 3:40 PM UTC

   #5
   The Self Taught Man Black Hole

   Originally posted by Boss_bebe74 I just wanna hug u rn fona!!

   
   Hug you too
6. 2018-05-03 at 3:40 PM UTC

   #6
   The Self Taught Man Black Hole

   Originally posted by itybit Awwww (((hug))) hug for you Fona

   
   I hug you now also.
7. 2018-05-03 at 3:43 PM UTC

   #7
   The Self Taught Man Black Hole

   Originally posted by Fonaplats You have no idea how much that just affected me.
   I suddenly feel a lot better.
   
   I have to remember that I am doing all this to make the world a better place and you just helped make mine better.
   I thank you.
   
   You have helped cheer me up.

   
   ❤
8. 2018-05-03 at 3:45 PM UTC

   #8
   

   Red_Woman African Astronaut

   Originally posted by Fonaplats Its like there is 2 sides to me and the meany side is really cunning and strong.
   So hard to control it sometimes.

   
   Unleash the beast.
   
   
9. 2018-05-03 at 4 PM UTC

   #9
   The Self Taught Man Black Hole
   he's losing it!
10. 2018-05-03 at 4:05 PM UTC

    #10
    

    aldra JIDF Controlled Opposition
    I always read these fona threads like poems
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    • Red_Woman, 
    • Zanick
11. 2018-05-03 at 4:06 PM UTC

    #11
    The Self Taught Man Black Hole
    Fona gives good fone.
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    • A College Professor
12. 2018-05-03 at 4:13 PM UTC

    #12
    The Self Taught Man Black Hole
    I have talked to Boss_bebe74 on the Fona-fone. she is cheering me up a lot.
    She should get a Boss_bebe-phone
13. 2018-05-03 at 4:14 PM UTC

    #13
    The Self Taught Man Black Hole

    Originally posted by Red_Woman Unleash the beast.
    
    

    
    I can not unleash Emily again.
    She ruined my life once.
    Ill be damned if that fucking whore goes and tried to kill me again.
14. 2018-05-03 at 4:14 PM UTC

    #14
    The Self Taught Man Black Hole

    Originally posted by Something Squirrel he's losing it!

    
    Am not!
15. 2018-05-03 at 4:15 PM UTC

    #15
    The Self Taught Man Black Hole

    Originally posted by aldra I always read these fona threads like poems

    
    Thank you.
    Should I be a poet?
16. 2018-05-03 at 4:17 PM UTC

    #16
    

    aldra JIDF Controlled Opposition
    I think you should give it a try
    
    you seem to like writing and poetry would let you write whatever you like without having to worry about syntax, structure and the like
17. 2018-05-03 at 4:19 PM UTC

    #17
    The Self Taught Man Black Hole
    I just hit the enter button so my words dont run off the page
18. 2018-05-03 at 4:21 PM UTC

    #18
    

    aldra JIDF Controlled Opposition
    you should try to sing it along with an instrumental track
    
    like wrong words karaoke
19. 2018-05-03 at 5:20 PM UTC

    #19
    The Self Taught Man Black Hole
    Something amazing has happened today!
    I have made a best friend!
    We might be in love but its a little too soon to be sure.
    I love you!
20. 2018-05-03 at 6:05 PM UTC

    #20
    The Self Taught Man Black Hole
    I'm at work now.
    It's a nice day.
    Rained earlier and suppose to rain again.
    I hope I get to work by a window so I can watch it rain.
    I am so very thankful for everyone.
    Espessially my new girlfriend.
    I love you.
    I love all of you!