wake up crying then furious rage for 10 minutes then coffee and euphoria for a couple minutes then existential horror which leads to apathy and then the cycle starts again.
the creator really really really really just wants me to sit in my room and xanax myself to death. that has to be the way. it has to be a slow slow death. none of my ridiculously deadly overdoses or attempts at destroying myself are effective and neither are my attempts to be a normie. i have to sit here and observe for years and years. maybe someday the accumulated pain and apathy will be able to be enhancemented into some art form that others who are suffering can enjoy, or maybe i am just like an ant under the magnifying glass
Originally posted by Jiggaboo_Johnson
It's how I get if I don't have them.
i dont have any rn but im making some potato bread toast with hummus
Originally posted by G
Fuck this place is an asylum lol.
i used to be normal believe it or not. in fact i used to be much more stable than normal. my entire life was in order, had a direction, and people told me i was the most consistent and reliable person they've met
Originally posted by OG_GREENPLASTIC_JOHNSON_III
i dont have any rn but im making some potato bread toast with hummus
i used to be normal believe it or not. in fact i used to be much more stable than normal. my entire life was in order, had a direction, and people told me i was the most consistent and reliable person they've met
Exercise & non-processed food provides spark. Xanax is anti-spark for sure, get the blood moving endorphins,adrenaline etc. is a great way to break the murk.
Originally posted by OG_GREENPLASTIC_JOHNSON_III
this is such a waste of my time im just going to go shoot up a gram of ephedrine and not eat for a week and see if i die
Can I have that potato bread and hummus then if you're not going to eat it?
