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2019-12-02 at 1:32 AM UTCThe reason you all have problems with drugs is because you don't respect them as sacred substances
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2019-12-02 at 1:34 AM UTC
Originally posted by MexicanMasterRace Lol @ 'not a problem because legal and can hide it'
I've hid all sorts of addictions. Legal and not. It's still a problem.
Currently my problem is that I constantly want escape and will seek it out in any way possible. I'm PRETTY GOOD about not filling it the void with constant drug use, but I still have lapses. I quit Crouton and nicotine months ago after quitting opiates about two years ago. Did a few months smoking weed everyday but I stopped that. Lately I've been drinking once a week, but even latelyrr I've just been buying the bigger bottle instead (it's a deal!) once a week and drinking with a friend then finishing the rest by myself. Last week I bought a handle just for myself, because I bought beer to share and felt ripped off, so I decided it's time to stop and now I'm stopping. My last time getting drunk was on Thanksgiving, which was actually a really good time. I don't know why I came home and slugged back 12 shots of vodka in an hour or two, but I did.
I'm going to start going to NA soon. I need to stop seeing this friend but he's the only person around me who I want to see. I have a lot of friends but I tend to drop right the fuck out of friends groups because I prefer to be alone. They'll invite me to stuff for a while and eventually give up. Or just text to see how I'm doing and we'll talk a bit and I just leave their messages un-responded to. I don't know if it's a bad thing but I definitely need to learn how to keep my new friends instead of tossing them away.
Other than that idk. I wish I was more motivated of a person. I'm not lazy by any means I just don't know what I want. I spend a lot of time writing half finished stuff I'll never publish. I play guitar, harmonica, piano, and ukulele, but I'm not particularly fantastic at any of them and mostly just fuck around freestyling when I play instead of improving. I study Chinese but I have gaps where I don't use it at all and I end up forgetting stuff, so my Chinese is worse than it was a year ago. I talk to girls but even when they hint hard as fuck I don't ask them out. I can draw well but I never finish anything that's not a doodle.
Pretty sure the instant satisfaction of drugs for 11 years has permanently fucked my brain's ability to feel satisfied. I always feel exhausted so I drink double black tea 3 times a day. I'm probably going to go to a trade school next year and hope that it gives me some direction.
I also have rampant insomnia and tend to hallucinate when I'm stressed or tired. It's usually minor things and does not effect my perception of reality. Stuff like a car door slamming where there is none. Or a bug dashing that's not actually there. I have HPPD so I can hallucinate on command and make my carpet shrink/grow/wave/etc.
Other than that I'm basically a perfect human being who has no faults. Women adore me. Men are jealous of me. Dogs listen to me. I actually lied earlier I'm fluent in all languages and I play every instrument with the skill of a professional musician. My books are NY times best sellers and I'm getting my cock sucked by Mila Kunis as we speak.
this is all really cringey boring fake bullshit. Maybe you aren't capable of introspection, in which case you're probably a shitty writer and storyteller. People without problems don't hitchike across the US to lose their virginity to hydro and get assfucked by a hillbilly, then get tricked into believing they got her pregnant, basically because she tricked you. This obviously seems like someone who is very naive. You also seem like kind of a loser. Perhaps you're a loser for boring reasons. You also try to inject yourself into conversations which makes you seem lonely or like you're not receiving the attention that you seek. Your self aggrandizing is very forced and boring and makes your insecurities seem that much more pronounced. Maybe it's all because you look like Mexican Keenan Cahill -
2019-12-02 at 1:36 AM UTCOh! I also have an ingrown toenail.
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2019-12-02 at 1:42 AM UTC
Originally posted by Sudo this is all really cringey boring fake bullshit. Maybe you aren't capable of introspection, in which case you're probably a shitty writer and storyteller. People without problems don't hitchike across the US to lose their virginity to hydro and get assfucked by a hillbilly, then get tricked into believing they got her pregnant, basically because she tricked you. This obviously seems like someone who is very naive. You also seem like kind of a loser. Perhaps you're a loser for boring reasons. You also try to inject yourself into conversations which makes you seem lonely or like you're not receiving the attention that you seek. Your self aggrandizing is very forced and boring and makes your insecurities seem that much more pronounced. Maybe it's all because you look like Mexican Keenan Cahill
Yeah, I'm just not as shitty of a person as you are. I don't cheat and I don't hurt others. I haven't been to prison.
I mean, lol
Originally posted by Sudo I have anxiety and depression, am prone to bouts of intense anger and obsession. I have paranoia attacks all the time and have PTSD. Cannot have a relationship without a form of toxicity. I take marijuana and opiates everyday and have lived that way for a long time. Am greedy and selfish and quick to anger. Feel sanity slowly slipping
You're just a shitty person with mental problems. That doesn't make you interesting. That makes you like sploo.
Pretty much everyone IRL adores me. I have a captivating personality and I lift people up instead of tear them down. -
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2019-12-02 at 1:44 AM UTCI'm horny pretty much 24/7 i think I have a sex addiction or i was just meant to be like Genghis Khan and rape 10,000 womenThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-12-02 at 1:45 AM UTC
Originally posted by MexicanMasterRace Yeah, I'm just not as shitty of a person as you are. I don't cheat and I don't hurt others. I haven't been to prison.
I mean, lol
You're just a shitty person with mental problems. That doesn't make you interesting. That makes you like sploo.
Pretty much everyone IRL adores me. I have a captivating personality and I lift people up instead of tear them down.
This isn't IRL because HERE you are an opposite piece of Mexican shit! -
2019-12-02 at 1:46 AM UTC
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2019-12-02 at 1:46 AM UTC
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2019-12-02 at 1:47 AM UTCThis is real life. Being an asshole on the computer doesn't absolve you of anything
You are still just an asshole even if you just say you are trolling -
2019-12-02 at 1:49 AM UTC
Originally posted by MexicanMasterRace Yeah, I'm just not as shitty of a person as you are. I don't cheat and I don't hurt others. I haven't been to prison.
I mean, lol
You're just a shitty person with mental problems. That doesn't make you interesting. That makes you like sploo.
Pretty much everyone IRL adores me. I have a captivating personality and I lift people up instead of tear them down.
I think you're just a shitty, weak, boring, insignificant spic, often overlooked so you will never travel in the plains with lions or climb mountains with eagles. You will remain a stereotypical mexican mouse but without the charisma or ability of speedy Gonzales. You are weakness incarnate
I forgot to mention I have a sex problem of some sort too and have intrusive obsessive, aggressive sexual thoughts much of the time. I am getting better with this -
2019-12-02 at 1:53 AM UTC
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2019-12-02 at 1:55 AM UTCOk Donnie, you got this. Everyone understands your drunk ramblings.
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2019-12-02 at 1:56 AM UTC
Originally posted by Sudo I think you're just a shitty, weak, boring, insignificant spic, often overlooked so you will never travel in the plains with lions or climb mountains with eagles. You will remain a stereotypical mexican mouse but without the charisma or ability of speedy Gonzales. You are weakness incarnate
I forgot to mention I have a sex problem of some sort too and have intrusive obsessive, aggressive sexual thoughts much of the time. I am getting better with this
I don't really care what a violent cheating absentee father thinks about me. I am not trolling when I say that you are scum. You are immoral scum. You can call me 'shitty' and 'weak' and 'boring' but I am not immoral like you are. I guess you just can't fathom me actually being a better and more likeable person than you because you feel insecure about your own person. I am not insecure in the slightest because I know I'm a good and loveable person. Never met somebody who didn't like me. -
2019-12-02 at 1:57 AM UTCKanye said fuck Tech, she a fake nigger lover.
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2019-12-02 at 1:57 AM UTC@gullm
The fact that you have psychotic episodes/schizophrenia didnt even occur to you. 0 self awareness achieved -
2019-12-02 at 2:03 AM UTC
Originally posted by MexicanMasterRace Never met somebody who didn't like me.
That's abnormal. Like in the older pokemon games you had rivals or foes because that was a normal experience for children.
But in the newer games they got rid of that because it was too aggressive for a society and generation that is against conflict -
2019-12-02 at 2:06 AM UTC
Originally posted by Rrr @gullm
The fact that you have psychotic episodes/schizophrenia didnt even occur to you. 0 self awareness achieved
I don't have psychotic episodes, or schizophrenia. I've had two psychotic episodes and they were both drug induced. The first one on 'the rest of the bag' of ethylone and the second on 750ug AL-LAD.
No psychologist has ever diagnosed me with schizophrenia or any type of schizoaffective disorder. -
2019-12-02 at 2:07 AM UTC
Originally posted by the man who put it in my hood That's abnormal. Like in the older pokemon games you had rivals or foes because that was a normal experience for children.
But in the newer games they got rid of that because it was too aggressive for a society and generation that is against conflict
Alright I take it back.
Blue hated me. -
2019-12-02 at 2:11 AM UTC
Originally posted by MexicanMasterRace I don't really care what a violent cheating absentee father thinks about me. I am not trolling when I say that you are scum. You are immoral scum. You can call me 'shitty' and 'weak' and 'boring' but I am not immoral like you are. I guess you just can't fathom me actually being a better and more likeable person than you because you feel insecure about your own person. I am not insecure in the slightest because I know I'm a good and loveable person. Never met somebody who didn't like me.
well that's good you believe you are a good and lovable person. I believe you are that too, nobody said that you weren't, I guess making it seem like you are shitty an insignificant might seem mutually exclusive to someone of a small and narrow mind. Jesus, Allah and I Love you as well as many members of your familia. I'm sure you have met people who left with a negative perception of you because that kind of statement is obviously hyperbolic. Maybe one day you will be grown up enough to see your the issues you've created and the issues that are inherent within yourself. For your sake I hope so, until then you will always continue to be a faggotThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
