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2019-12-02 at 12:18 AM UTCTell us ITT
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2019-12-02 at 12:19 AM UTCI'm a sociopath and I like to play with knives! eee eeeeeeee!
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2019-12-02 at 12:20 AM UTCI need to pee
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2019-12-02 at 12:21 AM UTCYou start.
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2019-12-02 at 12:25 AM UTC
Originally posted by Erekshun You start.
I have OCD, mild depression, social anxiety, and most likely a severe personality disorder. Im also completely alienated socially and emotionally from society. I have spent my life replacing any sort of self-growth with drug abuse. Im also fundementally one of the laziest people who has ever existed. I depend on other people to do everything for me. Also I want to degrade/abuse/torture women for sexual thrillThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-12-02 at 12:31 AM UTC
Originally posted by Rrr I have OCD, mild depression, social anxiety, and most likely a severe personality disorder. Im also completely alienated socially and emotionally from society. I have spent my life replacing any sort of self-growth with drug abuse. Im also fundementally one of the laziest people who has ever existed.
yeah i have all of those things too, but also bipolar. OCD is a mother fucker though. I also have insomnia really bad for the last several years partially because of my enlarged brostate. At work a month ago I was just staring off into space and my manager was like "Bill Krozby are you alright" and I snapped out of it real quick and was like yeah I'm just fine, chicken, how are you? -
2019-12-02 at 12:32 AM UTCWhat the fuck isn't?
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2019-12-02 at 12:33 AM UTC
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2019-12-02 at 12:35 AM UTCThere's no point in trying to explain it because I wouldn't know where to end
Negative thinking doesn't change anything. If you don't like some aspect about yourself you should work to change it. -
2019-12-02 at 12:40 AM UTC
Originally posted by the man who put it in my hood There's no point in trying to explain it because I wouldn't know where to end
Negative thinking doesn't change anything. If you don't like some aspect about yourself you should work to change it.
somethings are so hard to say even though say them everyday.. -
2019-12-02 at 12:41 AM UTCI'll kill you motherfucker
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2019-12-02 at 12:43 AM UTCI have anxiety and depression, am prone to bouts of intense anger and obsession. I have paranoia attacks all the time and have PTSD. Cannot have a relationship without a form of toxicity. I take marijuana and opiates everyday and have lived that way for a long time. Am greedy and selfish and quick to anger. Feel sanity slowly slipping
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2019-12-02 at 12:52 AM UTC
Originally posted by Sudo I have anxiety and depression, am prone to bouts of intense anger and obsession. I have paranoia attacks all the time and have PTSD. Cannot have a relationship without a form of toxicity. I take marijuana and opiates everyday and have lived that way for a long time. Am greedy and selfish and quick to anger. Feel sanity slowly slipping
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2019-12-02 at 12:56 AM UTC
Originally posted by Sudo I have anxiety and depression, am prone to bouts of intense anger and obsession. I have paranoia attacks all the time and have PTSD. Cannot have a relationship without a form of toxicity. I take marijuana and opiates everyday and have lived that way for a long time. Am greedy and selfish and quick to anger. Feel sanity slowly slipping
was your ptsd from your stay in prison? the last time I was in jail there was this guy they transported from the prison in oklahoma to the county jail here in austin. and he would eat his meals with his elbows up like someone was going to take it from you.. while staring at your food it was really weird.. he even pointed to me from the lower tier cell doing a dick sucking jester pointing to a bag of coffee.. he later went up to me and said he was just joking.. I later saw him walking around for a few days like he just got ass fucked up.. turns out he had an eigth of weed up his shit pusssy.. his celly fat albert sold him out for a hunny bun and a cup of coffee "ILL TELL U ERRRTHING!"
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2019-12-02 at 12:56 AM UTCopiates aren't a big issue for me at all really. I can hide it without anyone knowing and I have a legal prescription.
Tell us about your problems §m£ÂgØL and be genuine for once -
2019-12-02 at 1 AM UTCI am not rich but I get by and I am OK with that.
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2019-12-02 at 1 AM UTC
Originally posted by Sudo opiates aren't a big issue for me at all really. I can hide it without anyone knowing and I have a legal prescription.
Tell us about your problems §m£ÂgØL and be genuine for once
§m£ÂgØL isn't going to tell you anything, he's texted me many times several years about but now redacts everything, which is fine but he will be the first to rag on you for your problems. -
2019-12-02 at 1 AM UTC
Originally posted by Bill Krozby was your ptsd from your stay in prison? the last time I was in jail there was this guy they transported from the prison in oklahoma to the county jail here in austin. and he would eat his meals with his elbows up like someone was going to take it from you.. while staring at your food it was really weird.. he even pointed to me from the lower tier cell doing a dick sucking jester pointing to a bag of coffee.. he later went up to me and said he was just joking.. I later saw him walking around for a few days like he just got ass fucked up.. turns out he had an eigth of weed up his shit pusssy.. his celly fat albert sold him out for a hunny bun and a cup of coffee "ILL TELL U ERRRTHING!"
gross
Nah, my PTSD is from childhood, mostly physical abuse, minor sexual (female related no homo), some when I was older from some other stuff, had a few things happen that I'm only starting to deal with. The experience of prison itself did manifest some issues but I don't know of anything I would call traumatic, mostly just really shitty an isolated in many ways. I was in the hole for 3 months and that DEFINITELY had an effect on me and I could have been part of a lawsuit but didn't so I guess that's another problem, lol
I actually told someone they had something wrong with them today because they were too anxious to be in a crowded diner but I later apologized because I knew what they were going through -
2019-12-02 at 1:11 AM UTC
Originally posted by Sudo gross
Nah, my PTSD is from childhood, mostly physical abuse, minor sexual (female related no homo), some when I was older from some other stuff, had a few things happen that I'm only starting to deal with. The experience of prison itself did manifest some issues but I don't know of anything I would call traumatic, mostly just really shitty an isolated in many ways. I was in the hole for 3 months and that DEFINITELY had an effect on me and I could have been part of a lawsuit but didn't so I guess that's another problem, lol
I actually told someone they had something wrong with them today because they were too anxious to be in a crowded diner but I later apologized because I knew what they were going through
yeah prison seems like it can be quite the quandary. I've been to county jail numerous times and have spoke to a lot of gonts that said prison of course sucked but they didn't get ass raped or anything but I've heard from some that they had a really hard time there. Like this one lil snarky gont killed his best friend on accident driving fucked up smoking sherm, and he was kind of a dick to me but nothing serious but we got to talking and I felt really bad for him because he choked up when telling me how much time they are going to give him, and he was only like 19 or something.
That shits for no one (except a few), when I was last in jail I just eventully signed for probation but I think if I had waited a little bit longer they would of just let me go but I hated how boring it was and the nigs ect.. and wanted to save my apartment.
I don't know how it is where your at but it seems if you didn't do anything too bad and just wait it out they'll just dismiss it and let you out. -
2019-12-02 at 1:25 AM UTC
Originally posted by Sudo opiates aren't a big issue for me at all really. I can hide it without anyone knowing and I have a legal prescription.
Tell us about your problems §m£ÂgØL and be genuine for once
Lol @ 'not a problem because legal and can hide it'
I've hid all sorts of addictions. Legal and not. It's still a problem.
Currently my problem is that I constantly want escape and will seek it out in any way possible. I'm PRETTY GOOD about not filling it the void with constant drug use, but I still have lapses. I quit Crouton and nicotine months ago after quitting opiates about two years ago. Did a few months smoking weed everyday but I stopped that. Lately I've been drinking once a week, but even latelyrr I've just been buying the bigger bottle instead (it's a deal!) once a week and drinking with a friend then finishing the rest by myself. Last week I bought a handle just for myself, because I bought beer to share and felt ripped off, so I decided it's time to stop and now I'm stopping. My last time getting drunk was on Thanksgiving, which was actually a really good time. I don't know why I came home and slugged back 12 shots of vodka in an hour or two, but I did.
I'm going to start going to NA soon. I need to stop seeing this friend but he's the only person around me who I want to see. I have a lot of friends but I tend to drop right the fuck out of friends groups because I prefer to be alone. They'll invite me to stuff for a while and eventually give up. Or just text to see how I'm doing and we'll talk a bit and I just leave their messages un-responded to. I don't know if it's a bad thing but I definitely need to learn how to keep my new friends instead of tossing them away.
Other than that idk. I wish I was more motivated of a person. I'm not lazy by any means I just don't know what I want. I spend a lot of time writing half finished stuff I'll never publish. I play guitar, harmonica, piano, and ukulele, but I'm not particularly fantastic at any of them and mostly just fuck around freestyling when I play instead of improving. I study Chinese but I have gaps where I don't use it at all and I end up forgetting stuff, so my Chinese is worse than it was a year ago. I talk to girls but even when they hint hard as fuck I don't ask them out. I can draw well but I never finish anything that's not a doodle.
Pretty sure the instant satisfaction of drugs for 11 years has permanently fucked my brain's ability to feel satisfied. I always feel exhausted so I drink double black tea 3 times a day. I'm probably going to go to a trade school next year and hope that it gives me some direction.
I also have rampant insomnia and tend to hallucinate when I'm stressed or tired. It's usually minor things and does not effect my perception of reality. Stuff like a car door slamming where there is none. Or a bug dashing that's not actually there. I have HPPD so I can hallucinate on command and make my carpet shrink/grow/wave/etc.
Other than that I'm basically a perfect human being who has no faults. Women adore me. Men are jealous of me. Dogs listen to me. I actually lied earlier I'm fluent in all languages and I play every instrument with the skill of a professional musician. My books are NY times best sellers and I'm getting my cock sucked by Mila Kunis as we speak.
