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2017-01-18 at 4:44 AM UTCHow many ppl here regularly think of killing themselves, or at least have a plan to someday? Lately I spend probably at least 2-3 hours a day fantasizing about how I could off myself, what I would do, mentally making a checklist of people to write notes to, etc. because life gets hella tedious and boring and shitty. But it seems pretty logical that for almost anyone who doesn't die prematurely, there will be a time when staying alive is more trouble than it's worth. It's just a matter of when the scales tip.
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2017-01-18 at 4:51 AM UTCthe majority of deaths are suicides.
"fifty billion car accidents a year! ten billion accidents!"
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2017-01-18 at 4:54 AM UTCI think its normal to have thoughts like that, and I do often but ultimately I don't want to do that. And I know you like to smoke and I don't know how much but believe it or not there is a link between wanting to kill yourself and smoking weed. Even that guy (metaphysisct) or whatever his name was once chimed in on my thread about smoking and wanting to kill yourself. He said for years when he would smoke it would trigger his suicidal ideation.
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2017-01-18 at 4:57 AM UTCAs morbidly depressed as I've been I don't ever think about it because I know I wouldn't do it. I've experienced too many highs in life to willingly remove myself from the possibility of ever experiencing them again. I'm used to the ups and downs now, and as tiresome as the downs are, I can handle them, with the knowledge that there will again be pure happiness in my life. I'm a patient man. And I retain hope.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-01-18 at 5:27 AM UTClol do it
i think about it whenever i feel mildly dissatisfied -
2017-01-18 at 5:38 AM UTC
Originally posted by the holy ghost lol do it
i think about it whenever i feel mildly dissatisfied
but if i did it, you wouldn't have the satisfaction of knowing, because i'd just stop posting one day and you'd just forget about me -
2017-01-18 at 5:39 AM UTC
Originally posted by Bill Krozby I think its normal to have thoughts like that, and I do often but ultimately I don't want to do that. And I know you like to smoke and I don't know how much but believe it or not there is a link between wanting to kill yourself and smoking weed. Even that guy (metaphysisct) or whatever his name was once chimed in on my thread about smoking and wanting to kill yourself. He said for years when he would smoke it would trigger his suicidal ideation.
That actually sounds pretty plausible. I've been getting stoned heavily with edibles and dabs and all kinds of shit now for a long ass time and sometimes I feel like everything is just gray. I'm actually on day 2 of no weed (or other drugs for that matter) so we'll see how that goes. -
2017-01-18 at 5:43 AM UTC
Originally posted by greenplastic but if i did it, you wouldn't have the satisfaction of knowing, because i'd just stop posting one day and you'd just forget about me
>not livestreaming suicide
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2017-01-18 at 5:55 AM UTC
Originally posted by greenplastic That actually sounds pretty plausible. I've been getting stoned heavily with edibles and dabs and all kinds of shit now for a long ass time and sometimes I feel like everything is just gray. I'm actually on day 2 of no weed (or other drugs for that matter) so we'll see how that goes.
weeds a strange drug and has so many side effects, I've been smoking since I was 14 and the higher the quality of weed it makes me more aware of my body and I feel more pain lol, I know it sounds crazy but its true, I have kids 10 years younger than me say shit like "lol brah datz cuz you smoke dat bammer" as if theres no way over the last 15 years I've smoked good weed and wouldn't know the difference, cause bammer definitely doenst do that to me. -
2017-01-18 at 6:05 AM UTC
Originally posted by Bill Krozby weeds a strange drug and has so many side effects, I've been smoking since I was 14 and the higher the quality of weed it makes me more aware of my body and I feel more pain lol, I know it sounds crazy but its true, I have kids 10 years younger than me say shit like "lol brah datz cuz you smoke dat bammer" as if theres no way over the last 15 years I've smoked good weed and wouldn't know the difference, cause bammer definitely doenst do that to me.
yes, marijuana increases sensitivity for me as well. if i smoked right now and i was hurt it'd dull the pain. but it'd hurt more when i came down.
marijuana really does feminize you. it wraps your mind and body into a soft, snug blanket, and when you come out of it, the world is cold and harsh and rough. -
2017-01-18 at 6:59 AM UTC
Originally posted by snab_snib yes, marijuana increases sensitivity for me as well. if i smoked right now and i was hurt it'd dull the pain. but it'd hurt more when i came down.
marijuana really does feminize you. it wraps your mind and body into a soft, snug blanket, and when you come out of it, the world is cold and harsh and rough.
its not even exactly like it hurts me, but more of like a slow acheyness like I have the flu or something. its weird.
but yeah for about the last year I would only smoke weed maybe like 1-3 times a month and while it was a nice treat I was glad that it was just that a treat, cause other than that weed makes me a lazy bastard.
like I smoked weed at work a couple times last year and I felt all awkward and introverted and kinda like I just didn't want to be high. But any other day of the week I was taking shots and on the ball and working hard, to each their own I guess, my co-workers all smoked and did there job fine, but I just couldn't do it.
there was this one dude that smoked all the time and he was a quiet person normally so for the most part you couldn't really tell he was high or anything, but you could definitely tell when he wasn't smoking weed, he would act like a uppity lil priss, and you would be like woooaaah do you need to go wipe your vagina down or something?
almost the same thing with the neighbor girl she would smoke weed all the time and just be normal then when she was out she would be acting all weird and twitchy and doing weird shit like taking tabacco out of cigs and rolling it in papers like it was weed. and one day she was like "oh doug, I understand how it is for to go thru alcohol withdrawals, I can't sleep and I feel like such a bitch"
to me it sounded kinda silly she was comparing marijauana wd's to that of alcohol, but hey maybe theres something to it, if you do it every day all day.
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2017-01-18 at 7:12 AM UTCI don't actively want to kill myself but I do constantly wish something would happen that kills me
Although any time something even mildly annoying happens, suicide is the first thing to pop into my mind. I don't know why. I think they have a specific mental illness for that.
If I were to decide to kill myself one day I would starve myself so that I would have to prove to myself I really want it, and by the time i died I'd probably feel better -
2017-01-18 at 8:12 AM UTCI can't die
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2017-01-18 at 8:17 AM UTC
Originally posted by Bill Krozby taking tabacco out of cigs and rolling it in papers like it was weed.
Lol why the fuck would you not just buy loose tobacco if you wanted to do this.
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2017-01-18 at 10:29 AM UTC
Originally posted by Bill Krozby weeds a strange drug and has so many side effects,
Too true. Marijuana makes you 28% more suggestible. -
2017-01-18 at 11:02 AM UTC
Originally posted by Discount Whore Lol why the fuck would you not just buy loose tobacco if you wanted to do this.
Cause she likes American spirits and doesn't normally smoke -
2017-01-18 at 8:06 PM UTC
Originally posted by Bill Krozby Cause she likes American spirits and doesn't normally smoke
i only smoke american spirits too, but you can get a can of it fresh from a tobacconist, it's much cheaper that way -
2017-01-18 at 8:48 PM UTC
Originally posted by snab_snib i only smoke american spirits too, but you can get a can of it fresh from a tobacconist, it's much cheaper that way
she liked to just have the occasional american spirit and would hold onto a single pack for weeks, the only reason why she was emptying them and rolling one was just to immitate the feel of rolling a j while she was out of weed, she didn't by them originally with that intent im pretty sure. -
2017-01-18 at 10:50 PM UTCidk all he had to do wos waitThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-01-18 at 11:04 PM UTC
Originally posted by Hash Slinging Slasher I don't actively want to kill myself but I do constantly wish something would happen that kills me
Although any time something even mildly annoying happens, suicide is the first thing to pop into my mind. I don't know why. I think they have a specific mental illness for that.
If I were to decide to kill myself one day I would starve myself so that I would have to prove to myself I really want it, and by the time i died I'd probably feel better
Lol dude. That's gonna' take a while and be fucking terrible. Drown yourself instead, takes a lot of willpower to just breath in a lung full of water if you don't have to. Plus you get the benefit of dying quickly.
