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Regarding my autism
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2019-10-31 at 2:04 PM UTCSo I have been reading more and more about autism and what it consists of and realize I have some traits of it but am completely opposite in others. For instance unlike this girl here:
https://www.vice.com/en_us/article/pg75qg/what-its-like-to-go-clubbing-when-you-have-aspergers
I do not enjoy doing the same thing every day. I always switch shit around and hste the idea of a set schedule. I like to just be everywhere and almost move around a lot in adhd fahsion than go to the same exact bar or cafe at the same time of the day. I also suck at timeliness or remembering things so I am almost always late.
However, other traits have me covered like being obsessive in my head about something and not letting it go until i find a solution to the situation in my ahead even before it occurs. Also, I tend to be uncomfortable looking people in the eye particularly when I dont know them and this was real bad during my teenage years when I thought people were looking at me. It git so bad then I would try holding stares with people and always lose. I also at one point thought people are tyring to shoulder bump me when walking across particularly young males to challenge me and other stuff. It is much less severe now as it was during my teenagehood, although the feleing of being uncomfortsble in new surroundings or being around crowds is still there. This is why I generally dislike parties, particularly with strangers, concerts or clubs. -
2019-10-31 at 2:07 PM UTCAlso, Ive realied the women in my life who were i to me or ive had sex with sll had a similar condition. The ukrainian 48 yr old i met when first coming here for instance would sometimes twlk and just look ahead while smiling as to make a point regardless if I agreed or not. Jamie, thst chick in snata cruz who rimmed me and would let me put her head up and down my cock as hard and fast as i wanted and just loved fuking me had a similar like unsure of herself thing going snd i think mild autism. I actually invited her over then to my place and we watched a movie and she started to take my clothes off. She loved fuking me but would never call firts or actually ask for it. But everytime i tested she was right there.
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2019-10-31 at 2:12 PM UTCOk the article above talks about aspergers not autism so maybe that is where the difference lies. Maybe I have more of an autism condition rather than espergers.
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2019-10-31 at 2:13 PM UTC
