2019-09-09 at 11:18 PM UTC
So as most of you know for the past 11 months I have been getting rid of all the bullshit drugs I was doing before. I quit nicotine, Crouton, poppy seed tea, meth, weed, and have drastically reduced my benzo consumption to the point where it doesn't interfere with my normal functioning at all (and am still working at getting that down). Also I spent a long ass time mourning decisions that I made during the time period previous to that and everything I lost because of those decisions. I'm now at a point where, although it is still painful, I am beginning to accept the things that happened and that they are now in the past and that there is nothing I can do about them now. I've realized a lot about myself and spent countless hours and days analyzing everything that I did wrong, the shitty, selfish attitudes that I held that lead me to make those decisions, and I think I am in a position now that I can realistically decide my next course of action in life.
The three most promising options that I have right now are:
A. Go work as an electrician for a contractor company. This would be a good job and I could make like $25 an hour but it wouldn't be too intellectually stimulating, and the path kind of ends making not a whole lot more than that (I think). Also I would probably not fit in too well in the environment, although it wouldn't be a total dealbreaker.
B. Go to a web development boot camp for 4 months and try my best to assimilate myself into that culture. I could make a little more money with this job, but I'm not sure I care much for web development, so maybe it'd be fun and maybe not. But the positives of this would be that I could get into a job (and normal adult life for my age) relatively soon as long as I stayed sober and applied myself.
C. Go back to the university I was attending before, as I could start again in about 4 months, and majoring in cognitive science. I've already decided I'm not doing engineering. I like the math but I don't really care for the engineering aspect of it and I don't want to be put in another situation where I am competing against people who are willing to give up their entire lives for the subject. The cogsci program seems really fucking interesting. It's essentially the science of how the mind works which is something I have always been interested in, mixed in with a little computer science (not as rigorous as an EE or CS degree), a little psychology and biology. You can take classes about AI and machine learning and will definitely learn some coding.
The cons of this degree that I've read people talking about are mostly that it is not as rigorous as a CS degree and so people say that while the classes are very interesting, most of them are interested in doing data analysis and things like that so they end up going with a more rigorous degree. However, it seems that you can get a lot of different jobs with a cogsci degree and the school that I would be attending has a good name. Graduates of their bachelors programs generally get good jobs in a lot of different fields.
I'd also get paid to go to school and complete this or any degree, so I can do it for free. I'm gonna be like fucking 35 by the time I graduate, but that's just where I'm at in life right now and I wish I had done it a little younger but can't change the past now. I also look like I'm like 25 and handsome again now that I'm clean(ish) so I could probably bang a few college girls while I'm there.
As it stands I see no reason to not go with this option.
idk what do you negroes think?
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2019-09-09 at 11:39 PM UTC
As you know I'm in a similar situation and for the past two years I've been considering the electrician or some other blue collar route.
I don't want to continue writing and even though I have that ridiculously profitable and easy career option I told you about, it's not really what I want to do. Blue collar work seems stable and straightforward. I don't know how I'd feel about having to go to college again. I have an associates in science but I hated every fucking step of the way and it took me years to get it done because I dropped out of college multiple times. Plus I don't really want to take out insane loans. But you don't have to worry about the loans cuz you got shot at, so that's probably a good option.
I feel like I'm in a much better position to be doing so (at least mentally) than I ever have before. Just straight up fucking sick of the drugs and degeneracy to the extent I can and have been around people smoking and drinking and doing opiates and I just don't want any at all. Sobriety is actually nice. I feel like all the rehab in the world couldn't have given me this feeling. I remember thinking it would go away or that it was temporary, but it hasn't.
Just got a really good sales gig and I'm planning to use this money to buy a car and start school hopefully this coming January.
We gonna git gud man. THAT'S how a nigga live
2019-09-10 at 1:04 AM UTC
Matt lives with his grandma because he got evicted from a motel so he’s making a diversion by pretending to not be a failure
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2019-09-10 at 1:10 AM UTC
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Or D. Go back to drinking full time, triple down on the benzos, throw away what little self esteem and self worth you have left, and end up hanging yourself with an extension cord from your bedroom door handle.
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2019-09-10 at 2:39 AM UTC
good for you op and §m£ÂgØL.
nice to hear a litte substance in a thread every once in a while around here
2019-09-10 at 2:48 AM UTC
aldra
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yeah I'd recommend trying out option 1 first, web development is very gay and fairly competitive so you need to get good at rapid-fire dick sucking like you're playing hungry hungry hippos. If you get certified as an electrician you can work part time or on contract and work around uni studies should you choose to go later on
2019-09-10 at 4:52 AM UTC
Electrician is fine and all, but I'd kind of hate to see you waste your pretty much free uni
