2019-09-01 at 5:11 AM UTC
over the course of a year i've quit nicotine, Crouton, poppy seed tea, meth, and etizolam/other benzos. nicotine just made me really fucking irritable for a while but all the other ones had intense withdrawals or comedown periods at least that if they weren't physically debilitating, they left me so depressed and anxious that it was extremely difficult to do anything worthwhile. but now i went 24 hours without thc for the first time in a really fucking long time and i'm just like eh whatever. took some hydroxyzine the dr gave me and i feel pretty sleepy (my friend wanted to walk around the graveyard last night with me so i didn't get much sleep) so that should be nice. it honestly feels surreal to me that being clean and sober and not being in some sort of dire emotional or physical crisis is very very near.
