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I hate being human
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2019-08-20 at 5:29 AM UTCI hate having to eat in the middle of my hooch session
that feeling of starvation
so I have to warm up some pizza
but it's like ... gonna kill my buzz
I was so engrossed in guzzling down this toxic waste
but hunger set in
being in a fleshly body is such a curse -
2019-08-20 at 5:29 AM UTCgood thing I have five more beers left
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2019-08-20 at 5:30 AM UTC
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2019-08-20 at 5:54 AM UTCme too.
I'm not trying to be edgy when I say this, but I don't even really feel human anymore. I don't seem to have many of the drives that I used to, I don't feel much of anything, don't care about much. I don't even feel like I have a strong sense of self-preservation anymore -
2019-08-20 at 5:56 AM UTC
Originally posted by aldra me too.
I'm not trying to be edgy when I say this, but I don't even really feel human anymore. I don't seem to have many of the drives that I used to, I don't feel much of anything, don't care about much. I don't even feel like I have a strong sense of self-preservation anymore
How old are you? -
2019-08-20 at 5:58 AM UTC13/f/caliThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-08-20 at 6:02 AM UTC"I don't like this"
"What, consuming beer, pot, pizza, and sitting in your room all day?"
"Being Human"The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-08-20 at 6:03 AM UTClul
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2019-08-20 at 6:12 AM UTC
Originally posted by aldra 13/f/cali
Don't be coy, anybody who can fuck you over with your dox already knows everything about you down to how often you shit and what containments are in your fecal matter.
I have/had a friend in your position, he's Australian and would complain about being stuck in a deep depression, I think he took medication too.
What you need to realize is you're a mistake and the fact that you even exist is a "miracle" (if you can consider yourself to be worthy of that title).
There are people born so fucked they can't even piss right, they shit out of their ears.
At some point you're going to start losing your senses and at a certain age you'll be so fucked in the head you can't even hold a conversation.
SO my advice is to stop caring about human life and the format that was crafted for you by others.
I hope you're still reading this far, because I have some important information for you.
My life is a testament to the human body's ability to evolve to any situation, I grew up in extreme isolation and in my late teens went through spine surgery that took away most of my tactile senses, then I became an alcohol and here I am now but you know what? I still find reasons to live adn things that give me some desire to go on and live ... even if they aren't necessarily reasonable or doable.
You have this notion of what is rationale and realistic, you gotta throw that shit down the toilet and start living outside of rationality.
There is nothing sane or normal about this reality but the masses who are asleep subscribe to that notion.
There are people every single day on this planet who do things that would seem so utterly macbre and bizarre, like murdering little children and eating their body parts and that kind of shit is what excites them, gives them a glimpse of something new and differnnt ... now I'm not suggesting you go out and hurt people but what I am saying is you gotta start thinking outside the box.
From wht I have gathered you're a boring wage slave code monkey with an ordinary life, what if you sold all your shit and tried explxoring the world or become a performance artist?
stand in the middle of your hometown with a megaphone yelling at random people about how much you hate yourself and how much of a loser you are, that'll at least excite you for a few minutes.
idk people like you piss me off because you are so stuck in the ordinary routine you can't even allow yourself to branch out and try something new and different.
Maybe you should become an alcoholic and explore your inner world inside consciousness like me, learn how to meditate and hallucinate.
I told you I was up for starting an Industrial band with you, what havey ou got to lose you should visit the states and play some shows with me in frnt of a bunch of mouth breathing idiot fleshbags then we can hit the bars and ruminate about how depressed and miserable we are. -
2019-08-20 at 6:28 AM UTCand please know that I legit think you're an interesting person and if you can believe it, I care for you.
You remind me of all the cool people I have met on the internet.
I want to meet you someday, along with Sophie (and maybe totse2001 if he can handle human interaction for more than two minutes).
You need to branch out and explore life.
You live in Europe, so I understand you don't have very many options but I implore you, before you die come to the United States and hang out here for a year or two, it will change your life.
Here are a couple youtubers I have been into they show me sides of life I wish I could experience
That's Campervan kevin, he travels the country in his RV along with his three little puppies.
He has a bunch of cool friends who are non-judgemental and cool as fuck.
He eats out at tons of restaurants, commnunes with locals and gazes at sights people wish they could visit and to him, it's just daily life.
Also friendly is magic so here is my second favorite youtuber:
He lives in a house with his friends and they spend their days doing drugs and having fun.
It's fucking magical and I wish I could live that way.
Aldra, what you need are friends who understand and get you.
We humans, we are social beings and when deprived of that we break down, socialization is our programming, we are like computer programs.
What you are going through right now is your body is telling you you are lacking something vital and important which is a sense of friendship and importance
You are just like me and I know exactly why you are miserable
if only you lived in Indiana we could be tomodachis and you wouldn't be so miserable
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2019-08-20 at 6:32 AM UTCI appreciate the sentiment
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2019-08-20 at 10:16 AM UTC
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2019-08-20 at 11:33 AM UTCHow can you hate being something youβre not?
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2019-08-20 at 11:49 AM UTC
Originally posted by Japan-Is-Eternal I hate having to eat in the middle of my hooch session
that feeling of starvation
so I have to warm up some pizza
but it's like … gonna kill my buzz
I was so engrossed in guzzling down this toxic waste
but hunger set in
being in a fleshly body is such a curse
You are not starving after just missing lunch. You've simply trained your body to require food at certain times of the day. You're body can be trained out of that just as easily. -
2019-08-20 at 12 PM UTC
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2019-08-20 at 12:42 PM UTCop should hate being a total faggotThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-08-20 at 12:45 PM UTCThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-08-20 at 2:24 PM UTCThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-08-20 at 6:18 PM UTC
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2019-08-20 at 8:07 PM UTC
Originally posted by Jiggaboo_Johnson You are not starving after just missing lunch. You've simply trained your body to require food at certain times of the day. You're body can be trained out of that just as easily.
Stop pretending, you're not smart.
At that point the only thing I had eaten the whole day was cereal.
