2019-08-10 at 2:51 AM UTC
This is a curious place.
To think I was randomly invited here for having pestered lanny enough on animebytes and out of boredom and stubbornness I have stayed here for going on three or so years, though to be honest with all the drugs and the hiki lifestyle it feels like I have only been here for a few months.
Anyways, some of you people here are cool (Sophie, Aldra) and if you're real and not bots or paid to post here by some intelligence agency, I want you to know you two are alright and remind me of some cool internet friends I used to chat with years ago.
Anyhoo, I just smoked some weed and had a pretty bad experience, but it was necessary because it was the wake up call I needed to finally decide to make a change.
My life fucking sucks right now, it's been shit for a pretty long time too and it's time for me to make a change and improve my quality of life in any way possible, no matter how little.
For starters I need to stop coming to places like this and 4chan, which only exacerbate my anxiety and depression.
Also too I'm quitting alcohol, a substance that has plagued my life for a decade now.
I have been struggling with substance abuse and web addiction for so long, the web being even more of a problem.
I need a break from sites like this though, I don't think I can quit the web for an extended period at this point seeing as how useful it is.
Tomorrow, instead of going on the web and shitposting here all day, or thinking about how much I want to drink, I'll fight that feeling and try to move forward.
I'm going to try and make a real effort to learn music theory and make my own music, that will keep me occupied for the rest of my life and give me something to immerse myself in that isn't so detrimental to my health.
It seems like the majority of this site is made up of people struggling with addiction issues and drug use.
I want you all to know that it is wrong and you can quit, drugs are not a good thing they are the devil's work.
Jesus and Lain didn't do drugs and neither should you or I.
Let us all work together to make our lives better in any way possible.
Anyways, idk if I'll be able to begin work on my music tonight seeing as I'm still a little fried from the ganja so I guess I'll shitpost here and browse 4chan one last time.
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2019-08-10 at 2:53 AM UTC
Even if I don't leave this place I want the people here who also struggle with drugs to know, this time for real I'm being serious.
No matter what, I have to stay away from alcohol and weed, doesn't matter how bored I get.
2019-08-10 at 3:14 AM UTC
Aldra will be staying here with us. He knows where his bread is buttered.
2019-08-10 at 4:04 AM UTC
Didn't read good riddance
2019-08-10 at 5:58 AM UTC
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2019-08-10 at 3:51 PM UTC
Goodbye thread,
100th edition.
2019-08-10 at 6:37 PM UTC
Hopefully OP can concentrate long enough to learn what the buttons on his piano do now.
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2019-09-19 at 6:07 PM UTC
Well op got banned from 4 Chan, so guess that's an improvement
