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2019-07-07 at 9:31 PM UTC
Originally posted by Nil I have 2 sisters, one is pretty unstable and i have a hard time keeping in touch with her. the other one doesn't help either and when i did attempt to get some help in 2017 fucked me over massively. So yea not much help.
I've been trying to convince the old man to go to one of my sisters for 2 weeksish because i'm losing my mind over here. it's like pulling teeth. i dunno why. starting to resent him and i hate it.
I think that resentment thing is a totally normal result of this kind of scenario. It's like a natural human need to direct frustration at another human being, and clearly this kind of thing is going to result in a certain degree of frustration eventually.
Originally posted by Nil I'll keep it in mind, last and only time i was in bc was in 2015, vancouver. Flew in to see bolt thrower. It was nice but it feels like a fucking decade ago. the ocean, the coast. ahh.
I like all of Canada, but I especially love the west coast.
Maybe it's influenced by bias since I grew up here, but, there's something about the eclectic mix of scenery you get out here (oceans, mountains, lots of forests and parks, the metropolitan allure of Vancouver - although I don't much like densely populated areas, but at least it's there if I need it). -
2019-07-07 at 9:31 PM UTCI love you gadzooks. I drank last night be accident a little, due to my compulsion towards alcohol (bottle was in front of me so I grabbed it and started drinking, was not in a good head space) and very quickly realized how it made everything terrible permissible
I hope you succeed in your efforts to not make it such a big part of your lifeThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-07-07 at 9:32 PM UTC
Originally posted by billfred Gigantic post that basically said, "I am a sober queer now"
Originally posted by Erekshun And a quitter.
Lol, pretty much.
But also not entirely accurate since I did drink last night.
Wait, am I a quitter for quitting liquor? Or a quitter for quitting quitting last night?
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2019-07-07 at 9:35 PM UTC
Originally posted by Nil w8, does this mean gadzooks finished his wordclouds?
They're on my TODO list.
Actually, I had a lot of NiS and Totse/Zoklet related projects in the works.
One of my major accomplishments during my recent month of sobriety was just wrangling all of my hobby projects and assigning quantifiable priority ratings to each task so I can focus better.
At the top of that list are things aimed at finding gainful employment, but I haven't forgotten everything else. -
2019-07-07 at 9:39 PM UTC
Originally posted by HTS I kinda figured that's where you were, and I'm really glad that I was correct in my assessment. Sounds like your apartment getting flooded with dirty poopwater cleansed all the metaphorical dirty poopwater from your life, at least for the time being, and that's awesome. 💖
The fates have spoken.
And they did it via poopwater.
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2019-07-07 at 9:43 PM UTCI snorted Cocaine from 8pm Fri - Sunday 8am.
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2019-07-07 at 9:52 PM UTC
Originally posted by Octavian I snorted Cocaine from 8pm Fri - Sunday 8am.
EPIC-FAIL.
The first step really is simply labeling it as a 'failure' of sorts, but just don't let it turn into "I failed, and therefore I am a failure".
At the end of the day, when it comes to substance use / addiction, I'll pretty much always be a lucky hypocrite in that my end goal isn't to abstain permanently from alcohol - but rather to minimize the negative side effects (i.e. harm reduction).
Where the luck comes into play is that there's just something about alcohol that allows me use it with a certain degree of moderation. I do get "drunk"/intoxicated when I drink, but I generally don't feel compelled to go full-on binge mode, and thus can manage to live a (more-or-less) "normal" life for the most part.
So, I'll never be able to be any kind of sobriety role model.
But I can definitely relate on some level with anyone's addiction, even if it's a drug I've never felt all that compelled to take consistently. -
2019-07-07 at 10:01 PM UTC
Originally posted by gadzooks The first step really is simply labeling it as a 'failure' of sorts, but just don't let it turn into "I failed, and therefore I am a failure".
At the end of the day, when it comes to substance use / addiction, I'll pretty much always be a lucky hypocrite in that my end goal isn't to abstain permanently from alcohol - but rather to minimize the negative side effects (i.e. harm reduction).
Where the luck comes into play is that there's just something about alcohol that allows me use it with a certain degree of moderation. I do get "drunk"/intoxicated when I drink, but I generally don't feel compelled to go full-on binge mode, and thus can manage to live a (more-or-less) "normal" life for the most part.
So, I'll never be able to be any kind of sobriety role model.
But I can definitely relate on some level with anyone's addiction, even if it's a drug I've never felt all that compelled to take consistently.
I don't drink as much as of late, (cut out spirits completely). Didn't touch a drop this weekend surprisingly either. -
2019-07-07 at 11:54 PM UTC
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2019-07-08 at 1:29 AM UTCThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-07-08 at 1:45 AM UTCGadzooks, Feels great to have you back. You were sorely missed. plz stick Around for a while. There is much to discuss.
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2019-07-08 at 5:39 AM UTC
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2019-07-08 at 5:42 AM UTCi wonder how long a person needs to be completely sober for to become who they were pre-drug use. i was completely sober the longest around 4 months and i slowly became a more functional person. i would suspect that it takes about a year or two of no substances or medications to be 90% back to normal
