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Is anybody else here keeping their nose clean?
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2016-12-17 at 7:08 PM UTCI just take my medication, for the most part as prescribed. I haven't even smoked weed in almost a year. It's not by choice so much as lack of connections and no motivation to seek them out, largely due to mental health reasons. Lately I just smoke and drink, although I really don't feel attached to those either and I can see myself giving them up as I seek more clarity.
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2016-12-17 at 7:54 PM UTCYes. I want to do hard drugs but I can't do it around a parent, it's just too hardcore even though my parents used to do heroin and crack cocaine I AM JUST TOO FUCKING HARDCORE FOR THEM. Darknet drugs scare them, I can have MDMA, meth, heroin, coke, LSD, fentanyl, xanax and everything in between in a matter of days. Once I start I NEVER stop.
I supposed I could order a lighter drug like LSD or some hash or something but I have no desire to trip or feel good. I want to stay awake and expose myself to harsh chemicals, brain damage from oxidative stress and opiates overdoses and withdrawls until I die gloriously.
Maybe Santa will bring me a miracle this year.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2016-12-17 at 8:47 PM UTC
Originally posted by SCronaldo_J_Trump Yes. I want to do hard drugs but I can't do it around a parent, it's just too hardcore even though my parents used to do heroin and crack cocaine I AM JUST TOO FUCKING HARDCORE FOR THEM. Darknet drugs scare them, I can have MDMA, meth, heroin, coke, LSD, fentanyl, xanax and everything in between in a matter of days. Once I start I NEVER stop.
I supposed I could order a lighter drug like LSD or some hash or something but I have no desire to trip or feel good. I want to stay awake and expose myself to harsh chemicals, brain damage from oxidative stress and opiates overdoses and withdrawls until I die gloriously.
Maybe Santa will bring me a miracle this year.
I also feel the drug seeking degenerate feel. Ive been abusing benadryl alot recently and but the only think thats keeping me from taking it is the asteroid-size boogers you get as a result -
2016-12-17 at 8:47 PM UTC
Originally posted by SCronaldo_J_Trump Yes. I want to do hard drugs but I can't do it around a parent, it's just too hardcore even though my parents used to do heroin and crack cocaine I AM JUST TOO FUCKING HARDCORE FOR THEM. Darknet drugs scare them, I can have MDMA, meth, heroin, coke, LSD, fentanyl, xanax and everything in between in a matter of days. Once I start I NEVER stop.
I supposed I could order a lighter drug like LSD or some hash or something but I have no desire to trip or feel good. I want to stay awake and expose myself to harsh chemicals, brain damage from oxidative stress and opiates overdoses and withdrawls until I die gloriously.
Maybe Santa will bring me a miracle this year.
I also feel the drug seeking degenerate feel. Ive been abusing benadryl alot recently and but the only thing thats keeping me from taking it is the asteroid-size boogers you get as a result -
2016-12-17 at 9:49 PM UTClemmon if ygm fam
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2016-12-17 at 9:59 PM UTCTell us more about the mental health reasons. No need to be shy, we're all mad here
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2016-12-17 at 11:50 PM UTC
Originally posted by Malice Tell us more about the mental health reasons. No need to be shy, we're all mad here
I had a very damaging depressive episode over the Summer and was lucky seeing a therapist at the time, who connected me with a group that's helped me immensely. I do have to take medication now, but it's a small price. -
2016-12-17 at 11:55 PM UTCI try to keep myself sober due to mental health reasons like anxiety, depression, and severe OCD. Dissociative hallucinogens fucked with my mind more than any other, so I'm avoiding those for a long time. I relapse frequently on other drug classes because of the boredom and lifestyle I live, but whenever I do my mental health nosedives, so it's reinforcing to me not to. For example, recently I've been staying sober for weeks at a time but always end up going on some retarded, dangerous drug binge for a few days which resets all my progress, then I spend the next few weeks after that hoping to feel better again.
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2016-12-18 at 12:05 AM UTCkoff gels
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2016-12-18 at 12:06 AM UTCNo
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2016-12-18 at 12:10 AM UTC
Originally posted by mmQ No
chat with me in group im bored -
2016-12-18 at 12:23 AM UTC
Originally posted by the holy ghost I try to keep myself sober due to mental health reasons like anxiety, depression, and severe OCD. Dissociative hallucinogens fucked with my mind more than any other, so I'm avoiding those for a long time. I relapse frequently on other drug classes because of the boredom and lifestyle I live, but whenever I do my mental health nosedives, so it's reinforcing to me not to. For example, recently I've been staying sober for weeks at a time but always end up going on some retarded, dangerous drug binge for a few days which resets all my progress, then I spend the next few weeks after that hoping to feel better again.
It's weird to think about it like this so far, I've never abstained willingly from drugs for mental health and almost had the suspicion that others did so out of some perceived nobility. It's totally different from that, though, it's a measure of self-preservation and although I know I'm doing it to be more free, it feels more frustrating than anything else. -
2016-12-18 at 12:25 AM UTCYes, I have a drug problem. I cant do enough drugs is the problem........ Just saw my probation officer this week. One month I report to her and the next month I put my hand in a machine to check in. I finally get off probation in March.......
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2016-12-18 at 12:35 AM UTC
Originally posted by Zanick It's weird to think about it like this so far, I've never abstained willingly from drugs for mental health and almost had the suspicion that others did so out of some perceived nobility. It's totally different from that, though, it's a measure of self-preservation and although I know I'm doing it to be more free, it feels more frustrating than anything else.
Can you say that your mental health problems aren't substance induced? I can't for sure. Drugs cause mental illness. They change your brain and neurotransmitters. -
2016-12-18 at 12:42 AM UTC
Originally posted by the holy ghost Can you say that your mental health problems aren't substance induced? I can't for sure. Drugs cause mental illness. They change your brain and neurotransmitters.
Generally speaking, I think that's a very difficult question to answer. They certainly facilitate a neuronal transaction I'm trying my hardest right now to prevent. I know the drugs I desire make it worse, so it really becomes a matter of the chicken or the egg. In my case, it looks like it's the chicken.
