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i can feel the life running through my veins again
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2019-06-21 at 3:16 PM UTCI remember back in like January/February (and many months before that) I would be always feeling like shit from Crouton and have so little energy I'd need to just space out and stare at nothing so that I could concentrate at all afterwards and I'd always be irritated or pissed off. It took a shitload of effort to do anything physical. I didn't even have the energy to crave sex or food at all and it was like my dick just wouldn't really work. Now I've been off the shit since March 12th (and two weeks taper before that), spent the time going through a terrible breakup and working out and eating well despite having a few little slipups with stims.
But today, I just crushed a decent workout for like the 3rd day in a row after sleeping 8 hours and I still have an above average amount of energy with my dick randomly getting hard from time to time. Got a haircut so I look clean cut, my eyes are bright again and my skin is clear. The ego that my mind built out of necessity to justify the meth and the opiates and the drugs and the shitty relationship is falling off hard, like every 12 hours I feel like a new person damn near. ANNDDDD I found out the financial constraints that I thought were keeping me here are actually manageable in such a way that it's not holding me back anymore.
I'm gonna stick around here for a few more months while I tie up the last few loose ends, probably fuck some girl from work or two (the rest of the faggots there judge because I've done this before but they're really all just bitter cafe dipshits so I'll do it to spite them, fuck them let them die hating) then go start a new life. -
2019-06-21 at 3:49 PM UTCLol I got a haircut too yesterday. I got my mullet touched up.
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2019-06-21 at 4:15 PM UTC
Originally posted by OG_GREENPLASTIC_JOHNSON_III I remember back in like January/February (and many months before that) I would be always feeling like shit from Crouton and have so little energy I'd need to just space out and stare at nothing so that I could concentrate at all afterwards and I'd always be irritated or pissed off. It took a shitload of effort to do anything physical. I didn't even have the energy to crave sex or food at all and it was like my dick just wouldn't really work. Now I've been off the shit since March 12th (and two weeks taper before that), spent the time going through a terrible breakup and working out and eating well despite having a few little slipups with stims.
But today, I just crushed a decent workout for like the 3rd day in a row after sleeping 8 hours and I still have an above average amount of energy with my dick randomly getting hard from time to time. Got a haircut so I look clean cut, my eyes are bright again and my skin is clear. The ego that my mind built out of necessity to justify the meth and the opiates and the drugs and the shitty relationship is falling off hard, like every 12 hours I feel like a new person damn near. ANNDDDD I found out the financial constraints that I thought were keeping me here are actually manageable in such a way that it's not holding me back anymore.
I'm gonna stick around here for a few more months while I tie up the last few loose ends, probably fuck some girl from work or two (the rest of the faggots there judge because I've done this before but they're really all just bitter cafe dipshits so I'll do it to spite them, fuck them let them die hating) then go start a new life.
ur pretty gay, bro.👍 -
2019-06-21 at 4:27 PM UTCThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-06-21 at 4:43 PM UTC
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2019-06-21 at 5:23 PM UTC
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2019-06-21 at 5:28 PM UTCI'm sitting in a dark room. looking at the gate not so golden today. a train of foggy-rail-cars slamming into its front at me; head on.
shades drawn closed as it feels almost like nighttime all day long.
and it is the longest of days this day.
Happy Summer Solstice today to all of the Northern Hemisphere people.
Merry Winter Solstice to those coming out of the fall.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-06-21 at 5:50 PM UTCHeroin should not be mistaken as life.
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2019-06-21 at 8 PM UTC
Originally posted by OG_GREENPLASTIC_JOHNSON_III I remember back in like January/February (and many months before that) I would be always feeling like shit from Crouton and have so little energy I'd need to just space out and stare at nothing so that I could concentrate at all afterwards and I'd always be irritated or pissed off. It took a shitload of effort to do anything physical. I didn't even have the energy to crave sex or food at all and it was like my dick just wouldn't really work. Now I've been off the shit since March 12th (and two weeks taper before that), spent the time going through a terrible breakup and working out and eating well despite having a few little slipups with stims.
But today, I just crushed a decent workout for like the 3rd day in a row after sleeping 8 hours and I still have an above average amount of energy with my dick randomly getting hard from time to time. Got a haircut so I look clean cut, my eyes are bright again and my skin is clear. The ego that my mind built out of necessity to justify the meth and the opiates and the drugs and the shitty relationship is falling off hard, like every 12 hours I feel like a new person damn near. ANNDDDD I found out the financial constraints that I thought were keeping me here are actually manageable in such a way that it's not holding me back anymore.
I'm gonna stick around here for a few more months while I tie up the last few loose ends, probably fuck some girl from work or two (the rest of the faggots there judge because I've done this before but they're really all just bitter cafe dipshits so I'll do it to spite them, fuck them let them die hating) then go start a new life.
OG, please get help. stop shooting up. Opioids cramps up the poop chute and makes you miserable. get methadone and smoke some buds with it. come off of it. I hate the heroin and not you. I hope we become friends. I don't know what I can offer for advice since I never been a drug addict (other then maybe alcohol in the day) but you seem pretty cool. -
2019-06-21 at 9:14 PM UTC^^ PLZ EXCEPT HIS APOGLEE
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2019-06-21 at 9:23 PM UTClol why does everyone keep talking about heroinThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-06-23 at 8 PM UTC
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2019-06-23 at 8:05 PM UTCMy favorite heroin is Nancy Drew.
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2019-06-23 at 8:07 PM UTC
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2019-06-23 at 8:09 PM UTCMaybe I transferred my life force to OP while I was drinking lol
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2019-06-25 at 7:12 PM UTCAlla Akbar Jack
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2019-06-25 at 7:52 PM UTCMore power to you OP. We're gonna be positive for now on. I had a good 2nd day of work today, got to sample some craft brews at 1030 this morning and played footsie all day. So many ho's to fuck so little time, gotta run!
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2019-06-25 at 8:27 PM UTCTo be honest last time I was in Berlin about a yr ago or not too long after getting out I had multiple chances with younger girls and this young Asian one kept talking to me and her friend kept trying to pull her away but there was a language barrier I think that was the last time felt life running through my veins. And I mean she was young young and she thought I was 24 lol and still talking to me. All I did was like say hey.
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2019-06-25 at 9:21 PM UTC
Originally posted by Wariat To be honest last time I was in Berlin about a yr ago or not too long after getting out I had multiple chances with younger girls and this young Asian one kept talking to me and her friend kept trying to pull her away but there was a language barrier I think that was the last time felt life running through my veins. And I mean she was young young and she thought I was 24 lol and still talking to me. All I did was like say hey.
You should probably try getting a life if thats all that makes you feely -
2019-06-26 at 5:07 PM UTC
Originally posted by Wariat To be honest last time I was in Berlin about a yr ago or not too long after getting out I had multiple chances with younger girls and this young Asian one kept talking to me and her friend kept trying to pull her away but there was a language barrier I think that was the last time felt life running through my veins. And I mean she was young young and she thought I was 24 lol and still talking to me. All I did was like say hey.
Do you speak German? is your Mom or Father German by chance? I know the Military probably offered classes.
I always wanted to learn it yet I cant' seem to commit to learning Spanish. German is a whole other beast to learn. and there is something about Upper and Lower German?
I might do that google program (cost money) babble and learn Spanish first
then French (since it's fairly close being latin)
then German and finally Mandarin.
all of these languages along with English are the languages of business. and with those skills, one can get a fairly high paying Job. especially if they have code set skills.
