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My mom is a fucking idiot
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2019-06-11 at 3:37 AM UTC
Originally posted by WellHung You definitely have gone through a lot of adversity. Just remember… perhaps your best days are ahead of you, jesus. Just try to keep fighting one more day….every day. Every day that goes by… find a reason to go on. Tomorrow can be the day you meet an amazing girl… get a great job offer …meet a new friend…etc. Also..if your spiritual.. you have God, no? If nothing else, Stick around to strengthen ur relationship with The Higher Power.
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2019-06-11 at 3:39 AM UTCu disagree? Or are you just disagreeing because you dislike Jesus?
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2019-06-11 at 3:40 AM UTCHere is the thing though
I don't feel good enough to do any of those things, ever since spine surgery and alcoholism I have felt so lethargic and sickly, I have very little energy and I always feel like I have some sort of flu and when I go outside the sunlight makes me feel nervous and my breathing is very difficult.
I tried working at walmart for a few months and it was so difficult, I could hardly focus and on a few occasions I would blackout/lose track of time.
I don't even have any desire to do anything, what I can do and what makes me happy is to stay inside and live on the internet as I always have, but I realize that it's changing and someday maybe web sites like this won't even be alive, though there will be virtual reality but then I'll have to deal with accusations of pedophilia for trying to be myself and of course there is the whole surveillance issue with eye tracking and every momevemnt in the engine being recorded and logged in a database somewhere.
All I want is to travel back to the year 2000 and once 2006 ends time resets itself and I find myself back in the year 2000, over and over.
That is the only way I can be happy because the way things were and the world was back then is my environment, it's my life. -
2019-06-11 at 3:47 AM UTC
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2019-06-11 at 3:49 AM UTCAnd as far as OPie goes, he will be right back to being his nasty personality soon enough. I have nothing to say about his self pity party.
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2019-06-11 at 3:51 AM UTC
Originally posted by HikikomoriYume0 Here is the thing though
I don't feel good enough to do any of those things, ever since spine surgery and alcoholism I have felt so lethargic and sickly, I have very little energy and I always feel like I have some sort of flu and when I go outside the sunlight makes me feel nervous and my breathing is very difficult.
I tried working at walmart for a few months and it was so difficult, I could hardly focus and on a few occasions I would blackout/lose track of time.
I don't even have any desire to do anything, what I can do and what makes me happy is to stay inside and live on the internet as I always have, but I realize that it's changing and someday maybe web sites like this won't even be alive, though there will be virtual reality but then I'll have to deal with accusations of pedophilia for trying to be myself and of course there is the whole surveillance issue with eye tracking and every momevemnt in the engine being recorded and logged in a database somewhere.
All I want is to travel back to the year 2000 and once 2006 ends time resets itself and I find myself back in the year 2000, over and over.
That is the only way I can be happy because the way things were and the world was back then is my environment, it's my life.
Understood. im sorry, man. i just hope that somehow things will get better for you. I understand that sometimes death may be the better option... but I hate to advocate for it, Until you've exhausted all other options. -
2019-06-11 at 4:01 AM UTCI'm going to smoke a bowl and think better of you, that's what I'm going to do.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-06-11 at 4:06 AM UTC
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2019-06-11 at 4:12 AM UTC
Originally posted by WellHung Understood. im sorry, man. i just hope that somehow things will get better for you. I understand that sometimes death may be the better option… but I hate to advocate for it, Until you've exhausted all other options.
Well for starts I should never drink alcohol again.
I spent the last decade straight going through a process of drinking, recovering from hangovers and then drinking and recovering from hangovers and then straight to being high nonstop for five years.
I might buy a treadmill soon so that should help me some.
Idk, the only thing I can try to do is exercise and stay away from substances then maybe after a few years I'll feel decent again.
As for everything else, my thinking and way of living is very different from how you know life so telling me things like getting a girlfriend and "going out in the world" isn't going to solve anything.
I wouldn't mind having a girlfriend though, but she would have to be understanding of my lifestyle and if she were like me and that introverted then she would probably be too psychologically/mentally ill for our relationship to work ...
You know what would make me really happy is to be able to make enough from my bedroom doing programming or music so I could sustain myself.
My plan B besides killing myself is to live in virtual reality and then full-immersion virtual reality ... my ultimate goal in existence is to exist in my own private reality using brain to computer interface technology, which is possible but the key to that is will the tech be available to the public in time and will it be open and free or used for evil (surveillance and mind control).
I'm not so hopeful ... https://www.zerohedge.com/news/2019-06-09/darpa-wants-thought-controlled-weapons-finding-ways-read-soldiers-minds -
2019-06-11 at 4:13 AM UTC
Originally posted by mashlehash I'm going to smoke a bowl and think better of you, that's what I'm going to do.
I wish I had some weed right now and my CRT set up with pseudotv live loaded with tons of channels of 1970s - 2000s tv ... I would lie down on my bed snuggled with my cats and just sit there like a veggie not even paying attention to the shows just absorbing the atmosphere.
I would close my eyes and imagine myself being back at my grandparents and the year being 2006 and I would fantasize about going about my day as if nothing ever changed. -
2019-06-11 at 4:21 AM UTCNo pot?
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2019-06-11 at 4:21 AM UTCbtw I think I have been experimented on by the deep state using sophisticated classified technology.
One time when I was living in a hotel I was on the phone with my mom and I started talking to her about BCI tech and age reversal/longevity and I enthusiastically said "we'll live forever!" and suddenly right behind me inside the room a voice of a man saying "No you won't" appeared .... I know that wasn't a fucking hallucination either someone was in the hallway and they were snooping on my conversation and his voiced echoed into the room and sounded like it was coming from behind me or that was voice-to-skull type technology. -
2019-06-11 at 4:48 AM UTCGod this is pathetic. People who fight with their mom as adults are just total pieces of shit. I would never say, nor even think 'my mom is a fucking idiot.'
What the fuck is wrong with you? Literally kill yourself if you can't love your mother. I mean that from the bottom of your heart.
Unless your mother is actually a piece of shit or something. But somehow I doubt your mom is a bigger piece of shit than you are. -
2019-06-11 at 4:52 AM UTCI'll say this once..
I know "voice to skull" technology. -
2019-06-11 at 5:05 AM UTC
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2019-06-11 at 5:08 AM UTCPM me and maybe I'll tell you about it.
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2019-06-11 at 6:25 AM UTCSo basically you fell off your bike and had a stiff leg for a while, but you made a full recovery and are fine now.
Then you had a boozy-hungover phase, like just about everyone does.
Now you pick fights with your mom cos she does things - that don't affect you in any way - that you don't like?
Not growing up doesn't excuse you coming on here to call random posters niggers and gorillas and all sorts of silly shit.
You need to toughen up and learn to mind your own business. -
2019-06-11 at 6:31 AM UTCyour okasan is a right cunt
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2019-06-11 at 9:50 AM UTC
Originally posted by MORALLY SUPERIOR BEING VII: Mattchews Camping Trip So basically you fell off your bike and had a stiff leg for a while, but you made a full recovery and are fine now.
Then you had a boozy-hungover phase, like just about everyone does.
Now you pick fights with your mom cos she does things - that don't affect you in any way - that you don't like?
Not growing up doesn't excuse you coming on here to call random posters niggers and gorillas and all sorts of silly shit.
You need to toughen up and learn to mind your own business.
These things weren't as simple as listing it and going "ohhh you got through it so it wasn't anything".
Idiot.
Btw the only reason I am able to walk normally now is because I demanded my dumb bitch mother to take me to a doctor and she finally agreed to and they told the stupid whore it was broken, which I knew all along. -
2019-06-11 at 9:50 AM UTC
