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I have been cleansed by the lord and savior and now I am making some major changes in my life
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2019-05-17 at 5:51 PM UTCIt has been a week or so since I have drank alcohol and I have no intention of ever returning to the world of substance abuse ever again.
For a decade straight I was an alcoholic and then later took up marijuana.
That whole time I felt so depressed, numb and bored but something has changed in me somehow because I feel perfectly fine right now as if I never had an addiction in the first place and will feel just fine going the rest of my life sober.
I also want to make some other changes in my life, I was thinking about it but the truth is I'm not a hateful person like I might seem, I just am angry in general and find pleasure in taking my hate out on others, which means no I am not racist and I don't actually hate jews, but at the same time I'm not a retarded liberal and will admit niggers are fucking ugly and violent subhumans (literally they aren't fully human and science proves this) and as for kikes their whole religion is a disease and needs to be abolished.
I want to be more of a Christ-like person, in that I reject negativity and evil and embrace only the light.
I am considering joining charity organizations and if I ever end up rich I'll use the money to help people out.
This is how I have always been, but the internet and society corrupted me.
I am finally returning to my true-self and it feels great. -
2019-05-17 at 5:54 PM UTClol
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2019-05-17 at 5:56 PM UTC"I have been cleansed by the lord and savior and now I am making some major changes in my life"
You mean you bathed yourself...less is more my lad, less is more. -
2019-05-17 at 6:02 PM UTC
Originally posted by Jesus Christ no I am not racist and I don't actually hate jews, but at the same time I'm not a retarded liberal and will admit niggers are fucking ugly and violent subhumans (literally they aren't fully human and science proves this) and as for kikes their whole religion is a disease and needs to be abolished.
I thanked your post at first, and was excited to do so, because you sounded like you were making a real positive turn around in your life...
But than I got to the part.
Dude, your new found "spiritual enlightenment" is exactly like your "I'm going to become the greatest programmer ever in like two weeks" threads.
I do sincerely wish you well in your endeavors, but any real life changes are going to take effort and commitment.
Posting a thread in SG about how you're going to make monumental strides of self-improvement are not entirely sufficient. -
2019-05-17 at 6:14 PM UTCI really mean it though
Here is the thing, I just got all caught up in /pol/ drama and allowed that to take over.
I'm very susceptible to influence (must be the autism) and easily get caught up in drama and situations without putting any real conscious effort into it, such as when I started taking hormones because I wanted to be a cute little girl although I'm not transgender I just like to be feminine, or how I was going to join a National Socialist movement in the US even though I'm not fully white and don't even care about white people or their culture (I just miss my childhood where WASP culture was defacto) or even my marijuana use where I never even enjoyed it I just wanted a replacement for alcohol.
I am a drifter in life and have no purpose or desire to live according to an ethos or create any reason, my life is just a form of masturbation and I'm fine with that (in fact that is how I prefer it to be).
I am a good person though and I have always known that, but somewhere along the line something happened and I became a demonic influenced person (I think it was all the Korn I listened to when I was young).
You know the reason I am so paranoid is because it really does freak me the fuck out just how depraved this world truly is and it pains me to see my lifetime go to waste because retarded evil people want to control the planet and humanity.
I hope they're all exterminated and true peace and heaven on earth can commence. -
2019-05-17 at 6:18 PM UTC
Originally posted by Jesus Christ You know the reason I am so paranoid is because it really does freak me the fuck out just how depraved this world truly is and it pains me to see my lifetime go to waste because retarded evil people want to control the planet and humanity.
I hope they're all exterminated and true peace and heaven on earth can commence.
Are you implying (((retarded evil people)))?
Because if you still cling to the belief that ALL jedis are evil and controlling the world, and that ZERO "Goyim" are evil and controlling the world, then you really haven't changed.
It's the dichotomous/binary black and white style thinking that you need to work on. -
2019-05-17 at 6:21 PM UTCI'm referring to any single person and organization that wants to rule the world
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2019-05-17 at 6:22 PM UTCYou have to understand, up until 2015 I was COMPLETELY oblivious to the world outside my own and knew nothing about anything in the outside world.
I stopped going to school after the 4th grade and became a hikikomori and lived inside my room ever since.
I quite literally had no concept of the outside world outside of television and the web. -
2019-05-17 at 6:22 PM UTCYou're a bad person.
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2019-05-17 at 6:26 PM UTCOne of these Jesuses is the true messiah, the other is the great deceiver.
Fight!The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-05-17 at 6:27 PM UTC
Originally posted by Jesus Christ You have to understand, up until 2015 I was COMPLETELY oblivious to the world outside my own and knew nothing about anything in the outside world.
I stopped going to school after the 4th grade and became a hikikomori and lived inside my room ever since.
I quite literally had no concept of the outside world outside of television and the web.
4th grade??? Are you serious?
That sounds incredibly unrealistic.
Don't you have parent(s)? -
2019-05-17 at 6:28 PM UTCIf true.. praise Jesus. I'm glad you're trying.
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2019-05-17 at 6:32 PM UTC
Originally posted by gadzooks 4th grade??? Are you serious?
That sounds incredibly unrealistic.
Don't you have parent(s)?
My mom met my dad at some gym and had sex, which is how I was born.
He never had a relationship with my mother and never made any effort to be in my life.
My mom, I'm not exactly sure what's wrong with her.
I was very very very miserable in school, the environment made me feel extremely stressed out and psychotic so a few months into the 5th grade I convinced my mom to let me drop out.
At the start she tried homeschooling me but I had no desire at all to force myself to study things I wasn't interested in so I went on 4chan and TOTSE instead.
I might very well be the only person in the whole world to have spent the amount of time I have on 4chan, so I take it very personally when people call me a newfag.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-05-17 at 6:37 PM UTC
Originally posted by Jesus Christ My mom met my dad at some gym and had sex, which is how I was born.
He never had a relationship with my mother and never made any effort to be in my life.
My mom, I'm not exactly sure what's wrong with her.
I was very very very miserable in school, the environment made me feel extremely stressed out and psychotic so a few months into the 5th grade I convinced my mom to let me drop out.
At the start she tried homeschooling me but I had no desire at all to force myself to study things I wasn't interested in so I went on 4chan and TOTSE instead.
I might very well be the only person in the whole world to have spent the amount of time I have on 4chan, so I take it very personally when people call me a newfag.
Damn.
Well, I like I said, I sincerely hope you find your way.
You had a rough start, and that sucks, but you seem to be making genuine progress regardless.
Despite what 95% of folks on here will say to ridicule or dissuade you from your current path, I commend it.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-05-17 at 6:43 PM UTCHuggy Bear?
