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Hydromorphone and §m£ÂgØL need to get back together.
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2019-05-04 at 6:01 PM UTCdo trans have their prostate removed or realigned during sex change ?
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2019-05-04 at 11:41 PM UTCI don't want pity from anyone. This is my life, and I made it that way, and I'm doing my best to fix it now. Getting away from toxic people was a huge step up.
I refused to let him do dope unless he got it himself, and figured out how to shoot it himself. I didn't want any part of him becoming addicted. I only gave him a tiny bit when he was legitimately near tears in pain, and was hesitant at that. I insisted he snort it only. I told him that he could never, around me at least, do dope more than 2 days in a row, and that must be under dire circumstances, with serious pain. If I ever would help him IV, he'd have to be near death. I don't want to cause him more problems. He's a good dude, but because he was too honest with the VA about smoking weed and his brief tango with crack cocaine a while back, a long with being in the psyche ward to get out of bad weather, they went treat his legit pain with anything more than tylenol. Fuck, all he wants is tramadol. They won't even give him that.
He's not using now, just that once, and unless he's bad off, legitimately, once in a blue moon, I won't be letting him use dope.
He just cares a lot about me, like a daughter. Nothing weird, nothing sexual.
I don't care what you all think. I'm not fat but if you wanna believe that then fine. In reality, I'm 150lbs now. Probably less now due to being sick and fucked up. I grew up being made fun of, so nothing y'all can say bother me. I know I'm attractive enough, enough men find me to be beautiful, so much so, a lot can't believe I'm homeless. Since I've been on the streets I've no need to prostitute either. Sure, I could likely make a lot more, but I do well enough panning.
I know I'm a good person. Sure, I've fucked up, I have issues, I'm not perfect, but I try to rectify my wrongs, learn from my mistakes, and do better in the future. I try to live going through life showing love, empathy, and kindness to others. I certainly don't use people though. When people do for me, they do because they want to, and I do my best to repay if I accept at all, and I have to be pretty bad off to accept in the first place. I definitely am no thief either. That's straight up bad karma and I take no part in it.
Difference between §m£ÂgØL and me is that I'll accept my wrongs, and won't shy away from the truth. He justifies his wrongs with "well, you did this.. so what I did doesn't matter or count", if not outright denying any wrong. He sure is too embarrassed to admit his shit publicly. He's also a liar, and has no honor. He doesn't keep his word. He will lie and make excuses for it (and I'm not talking about shit regarding him staying with me, or visiting, etc.) He's a coward pussy, and blames others for shit that truly would be impossible to cause or that developed prior to even talking to me. I just hope he matures, and develops morals and a backbone sooner rather than later.
Well, take it easy, guys. I got shit to do tonight. -
2019-05-05 at 1:36 AM UTC^ what a load of crap
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2019-05-05 at 1:41 AM UTC*gets the popcorn ready*
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2019-05-05 at 5:53 AM UTC
Originally posted by GGG123 I made an alt to address this: Hydro is absolutely an awful person. She has the worst temper out of anybody I have seen in my entire life. She once threatened to file a false rape claim against me. The way she treated her child was downright neglectful. Like, I shouldn't have been changing more diapers than her while I was there, but I had to because she wasn't doing it and would just let him sit in shit. She also believes in hitting your children and once smacked her child when he was a year old. Not hard, which she is absolutely sure to emphasize, but what the fuck you don't hit babies period.
Not to mention she's a thief and probably would've gone to prison for it had the evidence for the investigation not been acquired illegally. Wasn't even that long ago that she was sending me death threats and handing my PI out to other users here. She's a bad person through and through and she deserves every bad thing that happens to her. The best part for me is that all of these terrible things in her life are purely through her own fault. She cannot hold relationships for very long and that's why she's constantly meeting new people to use, which I'm sure some of you have noticed. She's a very personable person and I'm not surprised some of you think she's nice, but I assure you that's a facade. Like Bill Krozby noticed, she is very fake.
I may not be perfect, but I don't start yelling matches and I don't get violent when I'm angry. One of the best feelings in my life so far was getting on the Greyhound away from this bitch and watching her cry from the window. I think she told me that she was going to be so upset by my leaving, that she was thinking about killing herself and didn't want to go home to her child. Another time me and her roommate got sick of her shit and started walking down the road away from her, so she followed us in her truck and told us she'd take us to a motel, which she did. She then guilted the both of us into going back by saying she couldn't take care of her child by herself. Which to be fair, was probably true.
Meanwhile I was seeing this girl for like a year and we yelled/got violent exactly zero times. Hydro is caustic as hell and I assure you I am not the only one in her life who thinks that lol. I'm only caustic online, not in real life.
You could be right. I certainly dont know her at all, but then again you all know me only from what i say on here, so i could be completely leaving out any of the dirt someone would find objectionable. Shes clearly fucked up an an addict and some kind of mentally ill, and if everything youre saying was true, who's to say how she would be as a normal, healthy, sober person? Its hard to say. And when someone has put you through serious misery like that, its often really tempting to look back and believe that theyre just an awful person. It feels easier to believe that, rather than you just happened to have them stumble into your life for just long enough to fuck your life up...but that"really theyre decent deep down". Idk. Its hard to make an honest appraisal of someone when theyre fucked up like that.
Ive stolen jedielry from my mom and gone through her purse for $10 for dope.
Ive broken into houses
Ive sold drugs to mothers with their kid in the car, when id cut them off and told them i wouldnt sell to them if they ever brought their kid again.
I walked away from a meth house were the children were filthy, unwashed, eating handfuls of dirt in a filthy oversized Barney t-shirt, and I didnt call CPS because i didnt want to get anyone in trouble.
Ive sold guns, knowing full well someone might be hurt. I remember one batch I was selling- I was like "If youre going to go kill someone with this shit, im not going to sell them to you. Its for self defense, because i trust you to not be a shitbag." And he just said "No its cool. We just gonna take them home to Mexico." And i needed that money so badly, in my head that seemed like a reasonable explanation. Mexico. No one is going to be hurt. Just taking them to the desert. To Mexico.
Now that Im clean(er), I acknowledge how fucked up that was. I acknowledge that people might not be alive bc of what I enabled. I feel like Im a decent person deep down...but what does that action say about me as a person?
Idk. You could be right. But the shit ive seen and the shit ive done and the fucking gauntlet ive been through...ive met very few genuinely bad people. Mostly Ive met a lot of fucked up, sad people who dont know how to deal with life or deal with adversity, and who just want the pain to stop for a little while- no matter the cost. -
2019-05-05 at 5:57 AM UTC
Originally posted by GGG123 Yeah I forgot you were there the whole time with your boyfriend.
And dude. Shes always been cool to you, afaik (maybe im wrong). I dont necessarily "buy into" a lot of stuff regarding gender identification or pronouns n shit like that. But if someone youve known for years goes out of their way to hack their balls off and make major life changes, then I feel like the least i can do is- if nothing else- just not fuck with them constantly. I feel like a gigantic faggot for even having to say this. But of all the people here- shes probably one of the easiest-going.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-05-05 at 5:21 PM UTC
Originally posted by GGG1234 Hydro has been doing crazy shit since she was young. I don't think getting sober would change her very much. And either way, being on drugs is not an excuse for shitty behavior.
I don't actually have any strong feelings about the gender thing, and keep it up solely to perpetuate the friendly air of hostility that this community of ours has been historically known for. I said it in another thread, but IRL I would just not use any gender pronouns. I don't really see the difference between what I'm doing and what other users do to me and others. I mean, I've never seen you stand up for me when people called me a spic. Not that I expect or want that, but it's the same trolly shit.
Besides HTS loves the abuse.
I dont stand up for you because i think you have enough self confidence and knowledge of yourself to let it roll off your back like a serenaded pond goose.
L, on the other hand- the few times ive talked to her in Tc in the last year or so, she seems really sad, and i feel like she probably beats herself up a ton as it is. Could be wrong, but i feel like it actually gets to her. But if she knows how you feel, and that it all in good fun, then by all means AYO LEMME SEE THAT DICC GURL -
2019-05-05 at 5:26 PM UTC
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2019-05-05 at 5:55 PM UTCGod knows there are better ways to fuck with Scron
1. His parentage
2.His clearly jedi ancestry
3. His complexion
4. His lack of ambition
5. His lack of financial resources
6. His crumbling church
7. His wet-sloth physique -
2019-05-05 at 6:09 PM UTC
Originally posted by CASPER L, on the other hand- the few times ive talked to her in Tc in the last year or so, she seems really sad, and i feel like she probably beats herself up a ton as it is. Could be wrong, but i feel like it actually gets to her. But if she knows how you feel, and that it all in good fun, then by all means AYO LEMME SEE THAT DICC GURL
It's a bit of both tbh, like I'm from the internet so I have a pretty thick skin, but I also do beat myself up a lot and some days the shit people say here actually gets under my skin. *shrug*
I appreciate when people stick up for me though. So thanks, I think. Even if ultimately you probably didn't need to, it's nice.
Originally posted by GGG1234 Mostly it is to troll scron
I was actually considering making a thread about this. Not specifically this, like about me in particular, but more like how dudes throw around "yo bitch ugly" like it's gonna hurt anyone but the bitch in question. Scron does it with hella's wife and it kinda bothers me. Like... hella's wife did nothing wrong. :/ -
2019-05-05 at 6:14 PM UTCHe started it!!
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2019-05-05 at 6:16 PM UTC
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2019-05-05 at 6:16 PM UTC
Originally posted by HTS I was actually considering making a thread about this. Not specifically this, like about me in particular, but more like how dudes throw around "yo bitch ugly" like it's gonna hurt anyone but the bitch in question. Scron does it with hella's wife and it kinda bothers me. Like… hella's wife did nothing wrong. :/
Hes trying to be the "bad boy" that he knows you want. -
2019-05-06 at 12:36 AM UTC
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2019-05-06 at 2:16 AM UTCYour mother is sexually unattractive
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2019-05-06 at 3:20 AM UTCInteresting thread
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2019-05-06 at 3:27 AM UTCYou must be drunk
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2019-05-06 at 3:39 AM UTC
