2019-03-31 at 6:25 PM UTC
I had a really deep conversation with my therapist in which I involuntarily started crying for a bit while talking about my overwhelming physical and emotional pain and how basically the pain I have that I can't control is ruining my life and he told me that people with internal chronic pain like migraines have a way higher rate of suicide than more external kinds of chronic pain that others can observe like a fucked up spine; sometimes up to like 50x higher than average, and such people have way higher rates of drug abuse and whatnot. He said that i don't really have a whole lot of support from others in my life right now, and that I have a lot of toxic relationships bringing me down,
he told me to basically go do some things that are kind for myself because nobody else is really helping me right now so I have a lot more reason to have more leisure time and to do some things that simply make me feel nice, much moreso than most other people, and that I should go do that. I take that as a very subtle hint that if I need to take tramadol now and then to get myself out of a bad pain flare-up then so be it.
2019-03-31 at 6:27 PM UTC
Why did you go to a therapist for PMS?
2019-03-31 at 9:25 PM UTC
If my tramadol doesnt come tomorrow or tuesday ill be moderately upset.
