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I'm not dead yet, unfortunately...
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2018-11-21 at 6:21 PM UTC
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2018-11-21 at 6:27 PM UTCHey Hydro, why do you have all those conditions?
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2018-11-21 at 7:04 PM UTC
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2018-11-21 at 7:15 PM UTC
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2018-11-22 at 7:54 PM UTC
Originally posted by hydromorphone I'm fighting with the bus driver as we speak about getting on that bitch. I ended up leaving the hospital. I was at Hopkins for whomever asked if I was at Mayo. Hopkins WAS #1 for ever, it now they're 3,so..one of the best, anyway.
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2018-11-22 at 11 PM UTCNeither am I, OP and I remember my first Thanksgiving after my mother died.
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2018-11-22 at 11:06 PM UTC
Originally posted by Odigo Messenger - Now With Free 911 Service Are you ruining your body just to get opiates?
Or do you just like medical environments?
I hate medical environments/hospitals with a passion.
I am not ruining my body just to get opiates, I just have a lot of health issues. I had MRSA back in May/June, and it got into my knee joint (septic joint), and femur bone (osteomyelitis), and I had a blood infection on top of that (septic). I nearly died. I don't take blood products, and my hemoglobin got down to 1.9 (a normal person's is between 10-12). 3 surgeries later, and Ive been in excruciating pain ever since. Took me a long time to even get walking again, which is is still hard, painful, and I can't go very far or fast, and need a cane, and often my knee will give out.
I just wnat to die. At least not be in pain, which is the only reason I was even convinced to come to the hospital in the first place. I've been cheeking my blood thinner (xarelto) they have me on, because fuck it... I don't want to fucking live and I hope this blood clot kills me. I've also been disconnecting the IV antibiotics they have me on and letting it drip into the trash (I usually resent the machine to go faster so I can get it over and done with quicker and be hooked back up before the nurse returns). They aren't treating my pain very well, but the dulaudid I do get, I cheek, shake up in a flush syringe, and IV.
I just want to be out of pain and die. I don't want to live. I pray all the time that this shit just kills me. Fingers crossed that it will sooner rather than later.
To whomever said they'd kill me, bring it on. -
2018-11-22 at 11:07 PM UTCSend nudes
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2018-11-22 at 11:21 PM UTCVideo or it didn't happen.
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2018-11-23 at 12:09 AM UTC
Originally posted by hydromorphone I hate medical environments/hospitals with a passion.
Yeah? You always talk like a Doctor, and always did.
Not that many patients can name their problems or the drugs they are on. The whole thing with the syringes and all.
You're play acting as a Doctor half the time. I'm sure you're smarter than most of them, which isn't too much of a brag, most Doctors are really fucking dumb.
It's a real shame that you let your brain get hacked by opium. -
2018-11-23 at 1:15 AM UTC
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2018-11-23 at 1:28 AM UTC
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2018-11-23 at 1:29 AM UTCLet's see those fat American TTS
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2018-11-23 at 2:05 AM UTC
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2018-11-23 at 2:09 AM UTC
Originally posted by Odigo Messenger - Now With Free 911 Service Yeah? You always talk like a Doctor, and always did.
Not that many patients can name their problems or the drugs they are on. The whole thing with the syringes and all.
You're play acting as a Doctor half the time. I'm sure you're smarter than most of them, which isn't too much of a brag, most Doctors are really fucking dumb.
It's a real shame that you let your brain get hacked by opium.
I agree, most doctors are retards. For an example, they'd rather sedate me for an MRI, than actually just treat my fucking pain... It's fucking stupid. There's a much higher risk of death/complications associated with sedation, rather than just giving an opiate dependent person, who has a fucking record of receiving high doses of dilaudid, just the dose they would need to be out of pain.
I don't claim to be exceptionally smart, but I do know a thing or two about medicine/treatment, especially that in an emergency situation. It's a passion of mine. I wanted to be a doctor way back, and if certain things didn't happen to me, I might have actually have done it. That ship has sailed though.
It's a shame I ever encountered chronic acute pain. That's the real heart of the issue. Opiates/opioids just have aided me in a semi-functional life when they've been there, and hell when not. -
2018-11-23 at 2:15 AM UTC
Originally posted by hydromorphone I agree, most doctors are retards. For an example, they'd rather sedate me for an MRI, than actually just treat my fucking pain… It's fucking stupid. There's a much higher risk of death/complications associated with sedation, rather than just giving an opiate dependent person, who has a fucking record of receiving high doses of dilaudid, just the dose they would need to be out of pain.
Nah, not really. They just don't want to be audited.
When I was in they'd give me morphine preferentially to something like diazepam.I don't claim to be exceptionally smart, but I do know a thing or two about medicine/treatment, especially that in an emergency situation. It's a passion of mine. I wanted to be a doctor way back, and if certain things didn't happen to me, I might have actually have done it. That ship has sailed though.
When I was in one of the trainee doctors was something like 59 or 60 years old. I don't remember, but as she was listening to my heart I was thinking "wow, 5 years to retirement for you".
I think those cunts keep their prescribing powers for life, even if they're forced out of active practice. And they don't even HAVE to retire. The GP who was so old and dumb he diagnosed me with gastritis when I had cancer a pericardial effusion 10 years ago is STILL in practice today.
You can become a Doctor, even where you are now.It's a shame I ever encountered chronic acute pain. That's the real heart of the issue. Opiates/opioids just have aided me in a semi-functional life when they've been there, and hell when not.
The usual distinction is between chronic and acute. Chronic pain isn't usually treated with opiates, or adequately for that matter. But when did you encounter chronic pain?
When did you wear out panadol and ibuprofen? Let face it, you're just a girl that got addicted to opiates early on because that's what the jedis were pushing. Nothing more. -
2018-11-23 at 2:16 AM UTC..."an example, they'd rather sedate me for an MRI"...
Where do you have your MRIs conducted? -
2018-11-23 at 2:20 AM UTC
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2018-11-23 at 2:24 AM UTC
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2018-11-23 at 2:27 AM UTCThey sedate you if you’re claustrophobic, or in too much pain to lay still for the entire scan.
Soooo, uh, yes they do cuposhit! I’ve seen it done many many times!