2018-10-31 at 12:24 PM UTC
it's been almost 2 weeks since i last did meth and started tapering off pst with Crouton, 3 or 4 days since i totally cut off Crouton and i finally am past the physical withdrawals (just slight pain a few times a day now) and now the mental part is kicking in with excruciating depression and anger. now i've been using more etizolam to try to sleep because despite being on meth for like 7 months straight i haven't been sleeping more than 3-4 hours a night. i'm dependent on nicotine also which i want to fix but stacking withdrawal on top of withdrawal seems totally unbareable at the moment. i think i'm going to try to reduce caffeine intake to a minimum, taper nicotine with patches, and try to get by on as little benzos as i can handle for now. it sucks thinking about going into benzo withdrawal after having not even really completed opioid withdrawal, but if i don't quit or at least heavily restrict benzo use right now it's just going to become a more huge problem than it already is. right now i usually take like 3-4 mg a day (1 mg in the late morning and 2-3 at night) and if i don't take the morning dose i start to feel withdrawal around 1 pm. the withdrawal also seems to bring back paranoid tendencies that i started to develop on meth and makes me jerky and shit which isn't good right now since my boss knows i'm sober off meth and my job is kind of dependent on that fact remaining true.
TLDR fucked up my brain and bitching about it
2018-10-31 at 12:57 PM UTC
Have a nice cup of tea instead and perhaps an afternoon nap.
2018-10-31 at 1:01 PM UTC
You have to stop. I did. It's a whole life change. You wake up differently. You act differently. To enjoy different activities it's a huge change and totally worth it
2018-10-31 at 1:03 PM UTC
Green,
I think you’re asking too much from yourself all at once. It’s a complete lifestyle change.
2018-10-31 at 1:04 PM UTC
I gave up bread, rice potatoes and alcohol a year ago...It made me a new man...a fucking miserable one but still a new one.
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2018-10-31 at 1:41 PM UTC
Jack, every time I see your name... I wanna say: Jackrabbitslim instead
2018-10-31 at 2:43 PM UTC
Tired of doing drugs? Just don't do them. Its easy, you literally dont have to do anything.
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2018-10-31 at 2:52 PM UTC
wow, im cured, can’t believe that never occurred 2 me
2018-10-31 at 2:54 PM UTC
Benzos suck.
Whenever I'm on meth my bosses love me 1000x more and take advantage of me being bi polar and on meth, I become a charismatic yes man that only exists to tell you what you want to hear
Then they give you a bunch of responsibility and I blow it off to get high. The junkie cycle.
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2018-10-31 at 2:57 PM UTC
I mean... I would if they asked.
My last boss was this sexy chubby blonde lady a bit older but thicc as hell. Everyone was intimidated by her except me because I had a crush, when she yelled I would blush.
Same deal with the HR lady. I started smoking just so I had an excuse to stare at them
2018-10-31 at 2:59 PM UTC
Did they wear those pencil skirts with lacy topped stockings?
2018-10-31 at 3:02 PM UTC
Originally posted by OG_GREENPLASTIC_JOHNSON_III
wow, im cured, can’t believe that never occurred 2 me
Its too simple to understand.
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2018-10-31 at 3:03 PM UTC
Nah don't listen to that guy he's not even white.
If anything you aren't doing enough drugs.
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