2016-09-21 at 4:15 PM UTC
...I don't actually care.
Like, I don't care about women at all. It's all a distraction for me. I play these games with girls and rant about how much I hate them, when really I'm just trying to distract myself from the fact that I'm nearing closer to 30 and working in fucking retail.
My life's shit.
It's... shit.
And I'm a fucking nihilist in a sense... I know life is pointless and has no inherent meaning. But I'm still scared. I'm scared of being 40 with nothing to show for it.
I'm not depressed about this. I don't have depression. I'm just admitting the glum truth.
2016-09-21 at 4:17 PM UTC
Life is a game to me. I don't take any of this shit too seriously. But at the same time... the fact that it's a game to me means I should be winning. Instead I'm a loser. I've fucking failed at everything this universe has thrown at me so far. School, jobs, friendships, relationships, hobbies, talents, any fucking goal at all. I've failed at 'em all.
I'm shit.
2016-09-21 at 4:22 PM UTC
The only thing I've succeeded in is having a regular workout routine for the past 11 days since my birthday... but so what? I'll more than likely just fucking give up again, like the last 50+ times I told myself I'd start going to the gym regularly. Pathetic.
2016-09-21 at 4:25 PM UTC
kroz
weak whyte, frothy cuck, and former twink
if you don't care then why start a thread with a triple post you big derpadew
2016-09-21 at 4:53 PM UTC
Are you saying I should become an alcoholic or that I have ass burgers?
Also, I just looked in the mirror and realized I'm not attractive, either. Fuark.
2016-09-21 at 4:56 PM UTC
Obbe
Alan What?
[annoy my right-angled speediness]
I'm saying you should try to laugh about it and feel better.
If that doesn't work, maybe you do have ass burgers or should become an alcoholic.
2016-09-21 at 4:59 PM UTC
Okay. So life is a game. And I'm losing right now.
How do I win the game? I'm not talking about the end goal. The end goal is the same for everyone: maggot food.
The way to win is to follow the rules.
What are the rules?
The rules are different for each person. I actually created a list of rules a while ago, that I've been adding to as time goes on. I only have 3 so far, but they're very important to me. Commandments, if you will.
If I can live my life by my commandments, then I'm playing correctly.
Hmm... you know, I should create my own bible. Just fill it with stories from my life. Each book could be a different era. Ugh, no, I couldn't do that. I'd get too emotional writing about loves lost and whatnot.
Anyway, as I said, life's a game and I'm losing right now.
2016-09-21 at 5:08 PM UTC
Look at all this drivel. Who gives a fuck. I'm so boring.
2016-09-21 at 5:48 PM UTC
do meth you will be happy. you have a job so buy a gram YOU DESERVE IT!!.
2016-09-21 at 8:59 PM UTC
Become wealthy...
...or perish attempting.
2016-09-21 at 11:52 PM UTC
kroz
weak whyte, frothy cuck, and former twink
^you're such a prophet man
2016-09-22 at 8:45 AM UTC
Hey Enter, calm down man. You aren't alone in these feelings. What does your workout routine look like? I would advise not doing it everyday. When I started I worked out 2/3 days. Two on, one off. Eventually I incorporated running into that third day. Now I workout five days a week and run almost daily. Soon I started eating healthy and seeing results, it made me feel better about myself. I began to look forward to working out, craving it even. It's almost like self harm in the way you crave the pain and seek it out, only its productive, it's good for you, it's healthy.
It's a good outlet and I think you should be proud of yourself for having done the 11 or 18 days or whatever the fuck im not scrolling up. Stop hating on yourself. Have you kept up with the working out since posting? You should keep at it for two months, at first it feels really forced but I guarantee you or your money back within 60 days you will learn to love it as I and many others have. Go fuck yourself faggot. You're a piece of lazy shit, no good do nothing what a waste of human life.
