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Friends becoming Foes
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2016-07-03 at 12:22 AM UTCWow, I can't wrap my head around it. For some reason people I've always been cool with attack me out of the blue and I don't get it. I'm really really down and in a bad mood and a total asshole so I could understand if I was the one who initiates the fights but I'm not. What the fuck?
It's happening online and in real life so I don't know. I don't think I've been worse than usual so I don't get it.
I'll still fuck each and every of you motherfuckers who needs it up of course.
Want some. Get some.
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2016-07-03 at 12:24 AM UTCWhat happened tho?
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2016-07-03 at 12:32 AM UTCPsycho is calling me a bitch for no reason.
Malice just went at me like a motherfucker.
And my two closest friends, real brothers, are totally mishandling that I told them that I'm suicidal and it led to "burning bridges"territory and I don't even know what's going on. What the fuck, mate? -
2016-07-03 at 12:44 AM UTC
"A big gorilla with a red beard that scares women." I guarantee you that if you we ever met I would be the first person to show absolutely no fear in their eyes when I stared into your's, not out of contempt, but because I see through people and I know that inside you have so little will that even if I did the worst thing that would anger you you would have no real strength that would give me the least bit of worry.
That's fighting words. I have never talked shit about Malice once. I fo real tried to better his life by being a friend to him. Even if it's just online. I really tried to have a positive impact on his life because he can need every kind of help he gets.and I liked him from the get go.
What the fuck? I'm baffled. -
2016-07-03 at 12:51 AM UTCFuck you. EAT SHIT AND DIE!!! I will slit your fucking throat you malnourished kike.
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2016-07-03 at 1:16 AM UTCWe were never friends. LOL.
Cute that you thaught that, though. -
2016-07-03 at 2:22 AM UTCMy brass knuckles and bottle of KY jelly are the only friends I need.
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2016-07-03 at 2:43 AM UTC
That's fighting words. I have never talked shit about Malice once. I fo real tried to better his life by being a friend to him. Even if it's just online. I really tried to have a positive impact on his life because he can need every kind of help he gets.and I liked him from the get go.
What the fuck? I'm baffled.
You have to think about Malice differently than other people. We treat most people as if they are the sum of their actions, if Bob steals from you or calls you a faggot then that's good reason to believe Bob is going to try to do you harm in the future. With malice that's not really the case, he's not as devoid of emotions as he'd like to believe but there is no emotional inertia. He won't avoid calling you out if you've had positive interactions in the past and he won't hold a real grudge. He's brought up the story of his former principal calling him the most destructive person he (the principal) had ever met repeatedly and that's clearly an enduring self image.
You should engage him with that in mind. Interacting with him clearly has its charm, he's smart and highly entertaining but it's also kind of like interacting with a robot. Every conversation is closer to talking with a stranger than with a friend and the outcome is forgotten immediately afterwards. It's actually kind of refreshing once you get used to it, there's a kind of honesty in it, you don't need to try to spare his feelings and you know what you're getting is unenhancemented. -
2016-07-03 at 4:22 AM UTCHey! What about me? Don't I count, Darkster?? Are your insults too good for me or something?
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2016-07-03 at 6:14 AM UTC
That's fighting words. I have never talked shit about Malice once. I fo real tried to better his life by being a friend to him. Even if it's just online. I really tried to have a positive impact on his life because he can need every kind of help he gets.and I liked him from the get go.
What the fuck? I'm baffled.
Steppenwolf. He took the game of life too seriously, but one day he may have learned to play, and finally laugh like the immortals. It was insinuated that he was still alive, somewhere, and after having experienced and learned something so profound, how may it have changed his course in life? "How can you say you've had enough of life when you're never even experienced it? He learned to dance, and love, and fee, some freedom among others.
Hahaha, read the post again. Only the part after the final two quotes was an insult. Actually, the first few paragraphs were a legitimate critique of your comment's about Strangelov's method of shipping NSI. Everything was augmented my flmodafinil and parnate though, so it was akin to a far purer stimulant effect.
Then I insulted your fear of prison, and again spoke only the truth. It is a complement to be told the truth, to be treated as a true equal that can bear it, rather than someone that's so childish and undeveloped they need to be lied to (Why even ask a question then? Is it a real relationship if you can't be fully honest.) The differences of the German system are positive, and our perceptions can be largely relative.
Penultimate, I called you a little girl who wears flowers in her beard, I wanted to write that you wore roses because they matched the color, but couldn't get a good translation. It's such an incredibly silly insult, but you're German, and I wasn't sure how you'd perceive it. That was part of the fun, and you satisfied me by reaction to something so absurd.
Finally, do have no fear of another person, of them harming you, wouldn't that allow for true peace and openness? It's a beautiful thing really.
But you are depressed and easily hurt in this stage when you want someone to understand you, particularly to understand the difference between grief, a natural reaction from an event, and chronic severe depression and suicidality. I literally have not had a friend in 13 years, it's been half of my lifetime now; can you imagine what that does to you? And I did it to myself, I chose to be alone, and when I realized what it had done to me and would continue to keep doing to me, I still chose to be alone. It's at the point where no one, or someone extremely rare, a service you;d have to be rich to afford, would even be worth trying. Even what natters most in my mt mind, heart, feels trapped. Completely alone. To be honest, I don't expect to make it out of this alive, and when you aggregate the relevant data, it supports it.
You know, you're displaying the porcupine's dilemma. I hate how how fragile human hearts are.You have to think about Malice differently than other people. We treat most people as if they are the sum of their actions, if Bob steals from you or calls you a faggot then that's good reason to believe Bob is going to try to do you harm in the future. With malice that's not really the case, he's not as devoid of emotions as he'd like to believe but there is no emotional inertia. He won't avoid calling you out if you've had positive interactions in the past and he won't hold a real grudge. He's brought up the story of his former principal calling him the most destructive person he (the principal) had ever met repeatedly and that's clearly an enduring self image.
You should engage him with that in mind. Interacting with him clearly has its charm, he's smart and highly entertaining but it's also kind of like interacting with a robot. Every conversation is closer to talking with a stranger than with a friend and the outcome is forgotten immediately afterwards. It's actually kind of refreshing once you get used to it, there's a kind of honesty in it, you don't need to try to spare his feelings and you know what you're getting is unenhancemented.
If my emotions weren't so severely blunted, I not so detached, that may have been extremely hurtful, although the rest is flattering, Unfortunately the pain is augmented greatly and the caoacity for joy diminished, -
2016-07-03 at 9:53 AM UTCFriends becoming FAGS. I have been experiencing the exact same bullshit and wonder "is it me or is the world burning". Everyone is so angry.
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2016-07-03 at 11:15 AM UTCI don't give a shit about the novel you wrote before insulting me. I also don't care about the flowers thing. I actually do that from time to time just for fun.
I quoted what insulted me. Where is your apology? -
2016-07-03 at 11:24 AM UTC
You have to think about Malice differently than other people. We treat most people as if they are the sum of their actions, if Bob steals from you or calls you a faggot then that's good reason to believe Bob is going to try to do you harm in the future. With malice that's not really the case, he's not as devoid of emotions as he'd like to believe but there is no emotional inertia. He won't avoid calling you out if you've had positive interactions in the past and he won't hold a real grudge. He's brought up the story of his former principal calling him the most destructive person he (the principal) had ever met repeatedly and that's clearly an enduring self image.
Unenhancemented but completely delusional. I don't care about interactions like that.
You should engage him with that in mind. Interacting with him clearly has its charm, he's smart and highly entertaining but it's also kind of like interacting with a robot. Every conversation is closer to talking with a stranger than with a friend and the outcome is forgotten immediately afterwards. It's actually kind of refreshing once you get used to it, there's a kind of honesty in it, you don't need to try to spare his feelings and you know what you're getting is unenhancemented.
Malice is hard to deal with but I just ignored all that and cared about the person behind the autism and augmentations. He was my weirdo buddy and seriously I connected with a lot of things he has posted over the years.
If he doesn't apologize like a normal friend he can fuck himself. -
2016-07-03 at 1:57 PM UTC[greentext]>attack me out of the blue[/greentext]
Lol, where do you draw the line between harmless trolling banter and attacking a person. Because even when we were on 'good terms' there have been a number of occasions wherer you were a downright asshole but i just chalked it up to online shenanigans, then when i do the same. Hurr durr, nobody likes me.
Lmao. I don't even wanna' fight you just went full retard. -
2016-07-03 at 2:51 PM UTCErrr... maybe he just takes offense much too easily. I dunno...
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2016-07-03 at 5:59 PM UTCI'm always a downright asshole. I call people out on the spot. That's called being real.
I don't want to fight you either, though. That's why I'd prefer you to stop those subtle jabs and passive aggresive bitch shit.
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2016-07-03 at 6:03 PM UTC
Errr… maybe he just takes offense much too easily. I dunno…
That's true, too. My friends should know that and act accordingly. I'm sensitive. Always been, always will.
I'm fucking down and out. Broken and ready to let go off everything. No reason to kick a dying dog who has always treated you right unless you stepped on his tail. -
2016-07-03 at 6:08 PM UTC
Hey! What about me? Don't I count, Darkster?? Are your insults too good for me or something?
Just now saw that post. We are still buddies even though I'm really, honestly, not Darkhunter. Stopt it.
Or do you want to attack me and question my realness/manhood? Please don't. -
2016-07-03 at 7:52 PM UTC
Unenhancemented but completely delusional. I don't care about interactions like that.
Malice is hard to deal with but I just ignored all that and cared about the person behind the autism and augmentations. He was my weirdo buddy and seriously I connected with a lot of things he has posted over the years.
If he doesn't apologize like a normal friend he can fuck himself.
I mean, lucidity varies from post to post, sure, but that's not the end of the world. Even arriving at the conclusion that malice is delusional is an epistemically challenging task. Everyone posts some off the wall stuff when they're in a mood.
On the other hand you can you can accept what there is, what he is, and be happy with that or just stop paying attention. I don't really think there is a "person behind the autism and augmentations", for anyone, all we are is what we do, how we act. Hardly an exchange goes by where malice doesn't do something that would be considered wildly insulting in a normal human interaction, between enumerating logical fallacies he thinks I embody, insinuating I'm autistic, and threatening to kidnap me and lock me up in a gay sex dungeon he can get under my skin at times. But when I weigh that against the positives I think the harassment is just a reasonable price to pay. Maybe I value someone who can catch my interest on a forum too highly or take insults too lightly but ultimately the math works out, it's better to just accept someone's flaws with their virtues than to act like they're better than they are and get hurt when they're not. -
2016-07-03 at 8:07 PM UTC
I'm always a downright asshole. I call people out on the spot. That's called being real.
No it's called being rude. And i wil try to mind the quote unquote bitch shit, when you show the same effort on your part.
