Pure Hate Part ∞

2018-09-19 at 3:09 PM UTC

#21

HTS highlight reel

Originally posted by RisiR † How?

I don't know, maybe if you weren't preoccupied with negative emotions you'd be able to grow spiritually to the point where you could find true meaning in something, rather than sustaining off the fleeting reward that is violently venting your pent up aggression?

2018-09-19 at 3:12 PM UTC

#22

RisiR † 29 Autism

That's the dumbest shit I've ever read. Do you think I like feeling like this?

I'm sorry for having negative thoughts and emotions but I can't stop it. Fucking piece of shit. Don't talk to me again.

2018-09-19 at 3:13 PM UTC

#23

HTS highlight reel

Originally posted by RisiR † That's the dumbest shit I've ever read. Do you think I like feeling like this?

I'm sorry for having negative thoughts and emotions but I can't stop it. Fucking piece of shit. Don't talk to me again.

2018-09-19 at 3:13 PM UTC

#24

RisiR † 29 Autism

I was obviously joking about killing dogs. Are you fucking stupid?

2018-09-19 at 3:14 PM UTC

#25

RisiR † 29 Autism

*sigh*

....

2018-09-19 at 3:16 PM UTC

#26

Sudo Black Hole [my hereto riemannian peach]

Wow you were actually a German hospital clown? That's actually the most frightening thing I've ever heard of. If you were dual wielding flaming CUModo DRAGons it would only make you marginally more scary

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2018-09-19 at 3:23 PM UTC

#27

RisiR † 29 Autism

Originally posted by Sudo Wow you were actually a German hospital clown? That's actually the most frightening thing I've ever heard of. If you were dual wielding flaming CUModo DRAGons it would only make you marginally more scary

Hahaha... yea. I somehow got a real talent with being goofy. I can fall without hurting myself and kids love that stuff. I did it from 2012 to 2014. I've actually cried a lot during that time which is super cliche. It was on voluntary basis. I only did a couple of "workshops" to get licensed and worked with an older dude who was an actual clown. I've often posted about working at a hospital. I was a clown.

I was so high during that time. It was a lot of fun. I would probably have to renew my shit and find a real clown dude to work with, though.

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2018-09-19 at 3:25 PM UTC

#28

RisiR † 29 Autism

I should incorporate dual wielding commodos into my act. That made me laugh, bro.

2018-09-19 at 3:32 PM UTC

#29

Technologist victim of incest

Originally posted by RisiR † Hahaha… yea. I somehow got a real talent with being goofy. I can fall without hurting myself and kids love that stuff. I did it from 2012 to 2014. I've actually cried a lot during that time which is super cliche. It was on voluntary basis. I only did a couple of "workshops" to get licensed and worked with an older dude who was an actual clown. I've often posted about working at a hospital. I was a clown.

I was so high during that time. It was a lot of fun. I would probably have to renew my shit and find a real clown dude to work with, though.

You have to have a license to be a clown?

2018-09-19 at 3:33 PM UTC

#30

aldra JIDF Controlled Opposition

I used to be angry all the time, then it sort of faded to a vague, ever-present feeling of nihilism

2018-09-19 at 3:34 PM UTC

#31

aldra JIDF Controlled Opposition

Originally posted by Technologist You have to have a license to be a clown?

probably to work with sick children

2018-09-19 at 3:36 PM UTC

#32

tee hee hee Naturally Camouflaged [slangily complete this slumberer]

Originally posted by RisiR † I used to be a hospital clown (seriously). But that was what feels like 6 million lifetimes ago. That was so fucking sad but it was also a lot of fun. I thought about doing that again but I dunno. I don't think I have it in me right now.

That's cool and different. How many ppl can say they did that? and brought a laugh/smile to sick children?

2018-09-19 at 3:44 PM UTC

#33

RisiR † 29 Autism

Originally posted by aldra I used to be angry all the time, then it sort of faded to a vague, ever-present feeling of nihilism

That seems nice. I'm not always angry but often. Do you have a clue what helped you?

I got "bi-polar" and "borderline" retardation so that is probably a factor.

2018-09-19 at 3:48 PM UTC

#34

RisiR † 29 Autism

Originally posted by tee hee hee That's cool and different. How many ppl can say they did that? and brought a laugh/smile to sick children?

It doesn't seem to help me a lot, though. I liked working for the kids but the doctors and nurses were real cunts. One faggot took a piece of cake from my plate, took a bite, placed it back and then asked me if that was my cake. All while holding eye contact. Hahaha! I was dumbfounded by that. He was a doctor and I couldn't believe that happened. What a piece of shit. I should have knocked his face into the back of his head.

2018-09-19 at 3:56 PM UTC

#35

Soyboy 2.0 - The GMO Reckoning African Astronaut

2018-09-19 at 3:59 PM UTC

#36

tee hee hee Naturally Camouflaged [slangily complete this slumberer]

Oh no!!!! Pupper are you ok?😢

2018-09-19 at 4:01 PM UTC

#37

RisiR † 29 Autism

I was trying to figure out why you posted that shit in my FIFA thread but that's actually pretty close to how playing that game feels.

2018-09-19 at 4:03 PM UTC

#38

Sudo Black Hole [my hereto riemannian peach]

Originally posted by RisiR † Hahaha… yea. I somehow got a real talent with being goofy. I can fall without hurting myself and kids love that stuff. I did it from 2012 to 2014. I've actually cried a lot during that time which is super cliche. It was on voluntary basis. I only did a couple of "workshops" to get licensed and worked with an older dude who was an actual clown. I've often posted about working at a hospital. I was a clown.

I was so high during that time. It was a lot of fun. I would probably have to renew my shit and find a real clown dude to work with, though.

That's pretty patch Adams. It's good it seems like you would get catharsis from it as well. There's something about being near pain that makes yours seem less severe.

That's actually awesome so was it like a set show or was it tailored to specific kids and full of improvising? Did you get emotionally invested in your audience? Did you break character? We're you always with the other guy? What age were the kids typically? So you volunteered at the hospital for 2 years? I feel terrible about my karma. What are other jobs that you can volunteer hospitals besides clownery?

2018-09-19 at 4:06 PM UTC

#39

The Self Taught Man Black Hole

The thought of pushing people into freshly poured asphalt and the picture of that puppy are the only things that have brought me joy today.

2018-09-19 at 4:22 PM UTC

#40

RisiR † 29 Autism

I'm actually laughing right now.

I honestly didn't do much. The dude I worked with was a professional clown and he did most of the act. It was a routine but there was lots of improvising. We would go in and he would introduce himself as one of the doctors and tell the kids that I'm a nurse (krankenschwester - female word) to wich I'd make a funny face. We would walk from bed to bed and mess up magic tricks and balloon animals. I would casually fall on my face and act as if I was hurt just to bounce back like a champ and do funny faces. The massage was to never stop laughing. We gave them toys and books and then talked to them.

It was absolutely heartbreaking sometimes. I often felt guilty for some reason.

You can do all kinds of voluntary jobs in hospitals. I helped out in other areas, too. That's how I started in the hospital. You can help in the kitchen (lots of convicts doing community time) or you can push beds around. You can clean sheets and stuff but that's hardcore. You can go there and spend time with the elderly. They need that, too. Yea... lots of stuff.

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