Malice if I remember correctly you said you're done with sex altogether. Do you still masturbate? What happens when you randomly get a boner? Do you bat it off to get rid of it, or don't find anything sexual enough to orgasm, so just let it go down on its own?
Do you have wet dreams?
Also, do you still work out?
Unfortunately I haven't fully erased sexual desire. I am considering this procedure to also target a region in the brain that, IIRC, is mainly dedicated to sex drive/desire:
Imagine going so far as a to lesion or completely remove the right amygdala. (Fight/fight, fear response, processing of negative emotion), remove certain sections (measured in cubic cm), or the removal of the whole being the most extreme option. A strong and clear link having been repeatedly been found with autism spectrum disorders, enlarged and overactive.
http://www.google.com/search?q=gamma...rgery+amygdala
Hehehe, oh the wonderful world of medical tourism. How lovely it is that it's been available for quite some time, with reports from people receiving it specifically for anxiety disorders.
Actually eliminate, or at least greatly reduce, the ability to experience the emotion of fear. I came to the realization during the trial of suffering in my life (post mental-breakdown about 2-1/2 years ago until present) that it had really been the principle and most destructive force in my life.
This would be a good starting point, and it's actually non-invasive. Relatively affordable as well. Not exactly speculative or risky. And what fascinating literature there is. Can't say a version of me quite literally incapable of experiencing fear shouldn't be extremely worrying for others, though.
http://www.google.com/search?q=gamma+knife+surgery+amygdalaSo far I've reached the point where I
genuinely, I do not lie or delude myself, develop inaccurate perceptions due to wanting reality to be different, do not develop sexual desires or thoughts throughout the day, except on a day when I may masturbate, which always leaves me disappointed and regretful (mildly so, more as, "I should learn this lesson permanently and stop breaking the continuation of my training"), masturbation only occurring about once a week or so to reset the cycle, and as little as twice a month, taking up little time. I also don't develop erections throughout the day or even wake up to them, now have I viewed pornography in a long period of time, now finding it repulsive and moronic (The penis is inserted into the vagina and goes back and forth.). I also do not develop crushes, although I am removed from mainstream society to an incredible extent; to give examples, I don't know what songs are popular, ever hear the radio, watch television (only downloading/streaming the most critically acclaimed media, the best of the best, and standard material aimed at the commoners being genuinely mentally painful due to my need for intellectual stimulation), know anything about fashion (trends) etc. The world of the common man does not interest me in the slightest other than for charting the general path of society, fundamental factors than can affect outcomes. I don't even look at women when outside, any sexual desire drops to zero in person.
Unclouded by sexual desire I can attain a state where my mind can be fully devoted to what I desire. A permanent state of the wise man.
No wet dreams either. I stopped working out close to two years ago, but fortunately I seem to retain muscle mass and strength well, so with supplementation and a perfected routine and technique I could, and have, quickly return to my previous level, then surpass it with steroids.
I recall malice once declaring that the cat fucker moniker was a 'troll.' It's anyone's guess I suppose.
The micro-penis thread was a troll too. People certainly fell for my troll threads easily. I had some of the longest threads on Zoklet, other than TRTs.
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