Struggling With Being Transabled

1. 2018-05-07 at 2:47 AM UTC

   #1
   The Self Taught Man Black Hole
   I do believe I might have Body integrity identity disorder.
   https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Body_integrity_identity_disorder
   
   Anyways as many of you know I wish really bad to be handicapped.
   
   I do not necessarily want amputation, maybe just to be paraplegic.
   
   I have struggle with this for so many years.
   In fact for the last 10 years I have routinely walked to the mailbox faking a limp.
   
   Last year when I was stuck in a wheelchair with a broken hip also got to wear a sling due to breaking my fucking scapula (that bitch made it hard as fuck to reach the remote when i dropped it out of bed) I got to taste my fantasy and ever since I have wanted more.
   
   Each morning I wake up and jump out of bed and am disappointed that I can do it with such ease.
   I can run and lift weights and do push ups.
   Its just not fair.
   
   I am really thinking that maybe for my birthday next week that I will go ahead and treat myself to the final solution.
   But at the same time I really want to go to the Chicago Abilities Expo and I dont want to be too freshly paralyzed to make it there.
   
   I am certain that one day I will get to experience the joys of being handicapped once again but in the mean time I have to live in the able-bodied fleshy prison.
   
   Can anyone please give me some helpful or encouraging words.
   Please no trolling as most of you know I am quite dedicated to my dream and I take it very seriously.
   Thank you.
   
   
   
   
   
   This next picture is me in my nursing home bed eating free food and watching all the tv i wanted.
   
   
   And here is my wheelchair. I feel so lost without it.
   
2. 2018-05-07 at 4:05 AM UTC

   #2
   The Self Taught Man Black Hole
   seriously feeling alone right now
3. 2018-05-07 at 4:21 AM UTC

   #3
   

   A College Professor victim of incest [your moreover breastless limestone]
   Take up an adventure/extreme sport and wear your body out while having fun. Then when you are old and gimped up you can appreciate your injuries that much more having had to deal with full use of your body all those years.
4. 2018-05-07 at 4:28 AM UTC

   #4
   The Self Taught Man Black Hole

   Originally posted by A College Professor Take up an adventure/extreme sport and wear your body out while having fun. Then when you are old and gimped up you can appreciate your injuries that much more having had to deal with full use of your body all those years.

   
   It doesnt work like that. Having full use of my body is a constant source of depression for me. It has to happen soon.
5. 2018-05-07 at 4:29 AM UTC

   #5
   The Self Taught Man Black Hole
   Wtf Fona? Smh
6. 2018-05-07 at 4:47 AM UTC

   #6
   The Self Taught Man Black Hole

   Originally posted by ohfralala Wtf Fona? Smh

   
   I don't go into your threads and smh at you.
   I am being 100% serious.
   I am transabled.
   I know you are new but this is something I talk about very often.
7. 2018-05-07 at 4:52 AM UTC

   #7
   The Self Taught Man Black Hole
   Ok well
   
   I only have two threads and if you wanna get in there and syh then I won’t pitch a fit
8. 2018-05-07 at 4:55 AM UTC

   #8
   The Self Taught Man Black Hole

   Originally posted by ohfralala Ok well
   
   I only have two threads and if you wanna get in there and syh then I won’t pitch a fit

   
   I just want to feel normal.
   I see all these lucky bastards with missing limbs and riding around in wheelchairs but I don't fit in. They know I'm different. And every time I try to talk to one of them I am asked to leave the VA hospital
9. 2018-05-07 at 4:57 AM UTC

   #9
   The Self Taught Man Black Hole
10. 2018-05-07 at 5:17 AM UTC

    #10
    RestStop Space Nigga
    Snort meth and fuck racially mixed girls you freakin' noob!