I'm og totse, when I first found totse I was good little christian boy and I went into the forum to debate about god and potentially make people believers but I got my ass handed to me, for other reasons I stopped believing in god but I cut my teeth debating people there, alot of it was about god and such but I'm really grateful to those people who taught me how to debate and made me a stronger writer. I wasn't by any means a major player in the original totse and I doubt anyone would remember me but I loved the text files and tried alot of them out and really fucked some shit up in high school. I wrote a few text files that I'm pretty proud of but mostly I was just glad to be a part of totse because these people were fucked up like I was and I was surrounded by people who were shocked at things that didn't seem that provacative to me. I really loved the original totse and I'm really glad I was a part of it even if I was just a small fry.
I've always wondered since after more discussion with some of the members here and on totse2, how nazi/racist was the original totse? I was way left wing and was involved in some anarchist groups after high school and it really surprised me to find racist people on here. I used to carve totse into abandonded places I went and even told some of my ethnic friends about it before I realized that there was a nazi/racist element here. I can laugh at racist jokes and don't give a shit it if puts me at odds with lefty yuppie college kids but its more than just a joke here. So how much of that was in the original totse because I just stuck to a few threads in the forum and never came across any of their dumbass propaganda in the text files, somebody tell me because I'm really curious.
I mentioned this in my wall of text but I love jedis, I think they build strong communities and thats why they are successful, I've always found older people especially to be a little incompetent so I don't buy global conspiracy shit but I think that if jedis do run the world then that is their natural place because they build the strongest communities, like how you can be an athiest and still be a jedi. When I admitted to not believing in god in my christian community i was fuckin out there, people hated me for it and treated me like shit, christians build weak communities to me and I'm what you cal an EAT THE STATE anarchist, most anarchists(not anarcho capitalists or right wing "anarchists") are smash the state anarchists, which I think is stupid but I still had fun fucking shit up with them. Eat the state means make communities so strong that it makes the government redundant, I think this is the only real way to be an anarchist but anymore I've dropped the "make the state redundant" part and just want to build strong communities. This doesn't jive with most left wing anarchist groups and after I've had my fun fucking shit up with them there is too much of an ideological difference for us to stay together. They are fucking idiots, if you destroyed the state of america, russia, china, and probably some south american cartels would march in and be the new dictators, America has to be a superpower no matter what the cost, we are too far in to back out now. I don't give a shit how immoral america is, the non violent exchange of power is enough for me to support it and atleast call it the lesser evil. I always wanted to join the military since I was very young but when I was 18 they were waterboarding people without a trial and I was just like, I won't die for this shit and instead met up with differant anarchist groups and learned some things from them. I was arrested in the 2009 g20 summit but wasn't charge for all the shit I broke, just protesting without a permit which is something I feel no shame about. I also did alot of work with honeless people and made friends with alot of them, even the crazy motherfuckers, at my best i believe anarchist starts at a personal level by dissolving the social hierarchy and everyone instantly becoming peers. At my worst I say "death and hatred to mankind" society is sinking not swimming and I want to push it under the water because I would thrive if all industry in the world shut down and there was an apocalypse of sorts. Its something that i'm basically alwaqys preparing for but don't actually believe will happen but preparing for it is what I like to do so whatever. So as an og totse member this is what I represent, i'm left wing hardcore and love the communist manifesto, I have a hammer and sicle tattoo fully knowing "communism" is responsible for millions of peoples deaths. This was the natural course for me after totse was no more which happened the same year I graduated higgh school, this is why I'm surprised to find nazis and racists here because I thought left wing anarchist was the natural progression of the original totse. I was foolish then but I still want to represent it because I think it deserves to be part of totse. I truly fucked cops shit up and got away with it and have not one single misdemeanor on my record. I don't know what totse actually was because I was young when I was a part of it but its something that was important to me and the only reason I post here now. Totse is dead, except on my hardrive where I'm still making text files, the best ones I've ever made full of shit that I did to cops and got away with and how to commit crime and get away with it along with some con artists shit, all of which I have put into practice and isn't just theory. I don't share them because I don't trust really anyone with that information, I can kill a person with one strike and that knowledge is a responsibility along with all the other crazy shit I know that you would have to be a crazy bastard like me to do. If anyone wants I can tell you some of my cop stories because they are fucking insane and I got away with all of it. Anyways I don't even really know what totse was, especially the forum, to me it was just raw data that I was crazy enough to put into practice as well as some smart people that taught me how to debate and showed how to not let words control me and to not be offended. I use alot of this shit offensively now because everyone is still the same domesticated bitches and I am here to teach them the same things I learned on totse. They don't like me for it but they are stronger for it and come on motherfuckers, look at the hardcore motherfuckers in russia that were borne out of the most intense suffering the world has ever seen, you need to be prepared to fight them, not because you will have to but because they exist and you must be prepared to fight the smartest and most hardcore enemies that could possibily exist. I'm way overprepared for most americans but I truly believe I am teaching them to be stronger because I cannot stand weak men and if an environment allows men to be weak then I will invade that environment and change so they can no longer be little bitches. American culture discustes me, I don't really watch tv but there is cable in the house I live in and there are these progressive commercials where this same guy is made out to be such and beta piece of shit and loser and I seriously want to hire this actor to have him kick some ass or just get fucked in the ass by a big black dick because it is discusting, they would never depict a woman to be such a bitch and i hate the actual actor so god damn much. Today my roomate was watching these retarded home makeover show and some middle aged guy said "To me a bedroom should have alot of pillows" and I just wanted to beat the shit out of him. If we fight russia we are fucked because they dont allow that pussy ass shit over there. You should live in a room with just drywall, a computer, and a small bed with 2 pillows maximum because the decadence of so many choices is disgusting. I hope russia kicks our asses because american culture sucks SOOO much, if you get your ass kicked you deserve to get your ass kicked. I would do fine in prison and I believe I could just join russian forces because I think we are on the same page. I drink prison coffee and am always careful around other races because there is a tension there that I don't trust. I'v had some great black and native american friends but I don't turn my back on them because I never know when they might decide i'm a privileged white boy and fuck me over? I fucked a black kid up and made him walk funny for a while because he called me a privileged white boy and his native american roomate totally had my back and beat him up again when he wouldn't drop it. Retarded leftists say black people can't be racist but they sure as hell can, I don't give a shit if they don't like me because i'm white but if you disrespect I have to kick your ass. I'm part native american and I've always gotten along better with them, but when they start imitating black culture I call them out because its weak shit, make your own culture and don't act like a retarded rapper, if they were as hard as they say they were they would be in prison. Anyways I'm noticeably native american and my dad and grandpa are even moreso, I can call myself white or native american and people accept either one. Thats why i'm curious about the racist shit around here because honestly I love my native american heritage, I want to hunt buffalo and cut peoples scalps off. At the same time I'm like, indians agreed to trade with europeans and that was a choice to trade cultures with europeans and they won the west fair and square, Indians put up a damn good fight and they killed many white men but whoever wins deserves to win and I'm caught somewhere in the middle. I like the warrior indian tribes like the apache who were fierce as shit and I also love the settlers like daniel boone. Either way I'll fuck your nazi face up with my hatchet, scalp you like an indian and desecrate your body like a white man, or we can just never meet and that fine, I don't want to censor nazis but I would kill them if they ever gave me shit about looking like an indian in person. Ladies love my native american looks, I've got crazy cheek bones and dark hair and year round tan, on my other side i'm german and ive got an unnatturally wide chest. I'm only six feet tall but my chest is massive and if I don't wear extra large t shirts they look pretty tight and gay on me. I think I got the best genenets because I've got the wild ethnic native american and built like a motherfucker german. I admit sometimes I feel like america is more mine than the average white person and I might intimidate them on purpose but its basically a bluff, I won't start a fight because I think its wrong and because its a legal liability its just that no one ever calls my bluffs in real life because they are pussies and my anger is really intense and like another personality compared to how I usually treat people. I believe whoever wins deserves to win and I fuckin win because america is trash pussy culture, at the same time I call everyones bluff even if its not a bluff, I was about to make a thread about that before I saw this thread.
I took a huge bike ride today for the first time all winter and and got a great dopamine boost out of it and now I'm just writing non stop and off topic but fuck it, I"m totse og, text file author and still creating text files to this day, I don't like what totse means to some other people and I won't give up the idea, I will share it, even with nazis, but I don't think many totse members took the direction I took and I want to represent it as one iteration of totse.
