2018-04-29 at 9:40 PM UTC
Hello everyone.
Fonaplats here.
I woke up today and was deeply troubled as I relfected on my recent actions over the last few days.
That is not the person I want to be.
I am guilty of trolling.
I am guilty of hating.
I have been a bad friend, a bad person.
Some of my actions have caused real fear and discontent.
I am very sorry.
Please, I beg you to know that I have realized my faults.
I want to change them now.
My delusions have caused me to alienate my friends.
I have lied and have twisted my reality into a self-centered mass of hate.
I am not looking for forgiveness.
I am looking to change my ways.
There are many character defects that I must work on.
I can not change the past but I can keep working to make a better future.
From this point on I will be limiting myself to brief activity on NIS.
I am doing this to try and keep from becoming delusional.
I will only post real responses and create real threads.
No more bullshit.
I want to change so bad.
Therefor I will.
My addiction can take me out at anytime.
I blame most of my problems and faults on it.
Today I will start fresh by doing the next right thing.
"What if...."
Page 123
"Living just for today relieves the burden of the past and the fear of the future. We learned to take whatever actions are necessary and to leave the results in the hands of our Higher Power."
Basic Text, p. 94
In our active addiction, fear of the future and what might happen was a reality for many of us. What if we got arrested? lost our job? our spouse died? we went bankrupt? and on, and on, and on. It was not unusual for us to spend hours, even whole days thinking about what might happen. We played out entire conversations and scenarios before they ever occurred, then charted our course on the basis of "what if..." By doing this, we set ourselves up for disappointment after disappointment.
From listening in meetings, we learn that living in the present, not the world of "what if," is the only way to short-circuit our self-fulfilling prophecies of doom and gloom. We can only deal with what is real today, not our fearful fantasies of the future.
Coming to believe that our Higher Power has only the best in store for us is one way we can combat that fear. We hear in meetings that our Higher Power won't give us more than we can handle in one day. And we know from experience that, if we ask, the God we've come to understand will surely care for us. We stay clean through adverse situations by practicing our faith in the care of a Power greater than ourselves. Each time we do, we become less fearful of "what if" and more comfortable with what is.
Just for Today: I will look forward to the future with faith in my Higher Power.
I love you all.
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2018-04-29 at 9:42 PM UTC
You didn't let me down fonaplats just weirded me out once but I'm actually trying to emulate your recent successes.
Happy 1000th post
2018-04-29 at 9:48 PM UTC
kroz
weak whyte, frothy cuck, and former twink
When are you going to send me that pic?
2018-04-29 at 9:49 PM UTC
Zanick
motherfucker
[my p.a. supernal goa]
Fonaplats, nobody with remorse is beyond redemption. I believe you can change for the better. I believe you can make the right choices, and be a righteous person. Keep living for tomorrow, Fonaplats.
2018-04-29 at 9:54 PM UTC
What I want to say is that I want all my posts and threads to be real shit.
No more trolling.
No more being mean.
No more lies.
I have accomplished a lot today.
But I know it is very easy for my mind to trick me into loosing it all.
I want to be good.
I want to be positive.
I am doing good.
With my higher power's help I can and will be a hope shot for all my friends and people who I meet.
I have to win.
I will win.
I love you all.
Thank you
2018-04-29 at 9:55 PM UTC
Throws holy water and rejoices
2018-04-29 at 10:23 PM UTC
Told you he would burn out
2018-04-29 at 11:44 PM UTC
Ajax
African Astronaut
[rumor the placative aphakia]
You went too hard for too long. Itâs exhausting living a lie.
2018-04-29 at 11:45 PM UTC
oh apparently you did let me down, nevermind
2018-04-30 at 1:22 AM UTC
Hell yea, big Tex is back in the saddle fellas
2018-04-30 at 1:23 AM UTC
Donât completely give up on the trolling though
2018-04-30 at 1:43 AM UTC
No more trolling.
I literally killed someone with my trolling.
I ran another member off and he is in hiding and I terrified another person who did nothing to deserve it.
I take my trolling too far.
No more trolling.
2018-04-30 at 5:15 AM UTC
Why donât you just come out and tell us all specially what the fuck youâve done so we can actually help you and/or have a good laugh?
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