2018-04-18 at 5:43 PM UTC
I called work and they said they only have 1 opening and it is too far for me to get too.
Maybe tomorrow I will get a job.
I feel really good right now.
So calm and so confident.
I am not use to feeling this way but I am sure I have a chance at doing something awesome today.
I think I will go work on restoring my flower box. It has went to hell after 5 years of neglect.
I might go mushroom hunting with my sister-in-law and my niece later.
I need to apply at more places for work.
I am confident I am about to kick todays ass.
No I will not kick todays ass.
I will embrace today and be thankful and grateful for everything it has given me.
I am Fonaplats. I am not depressed right now. I am manic.
I hope I am not delusional.
I dont know that I am delusional until I have a "click" of reality.
Then I realize that I am being delusional.
My mind plays tricks on me.
My mind wants to die but my body wats to live.
I have to be awesome today.
Its ythe only way to get Kinkou back.
I have to impress her.
I will impress her.
I am Fonaplats.
I love you guys.
Thank you for all your support.
Gratitude List Time!
What am I grateful for?
-I am grateful I woke up and was not dope sick today.
-I am greatful for my family and all their support
-I am greatful for all the doctors and nurses and physical therapists who have helped me learn to walk again and regain use of my arm
-I am greatful for drug treatment which allowed me to explore a glimpse of sobriety. I got was able to find out that in fact I am delusional and that I have a major problem,
-I am greatful for Kinkou who keeps me going. She is a really good friend
-I am greatful for my mom who is buying my groceries and letting me live with her even though I stole tens of thousands of dollars from her and turned her house into a brothel and drug den the last time i lived with her.
-I am greatful for NIS for allowing me to connect with people.
-I am greatful for Donald Trump because he is fucking hilarious.
-I am greatful for music which keeps me focused and entertained.
-I am greatful for everyone who calls the fona-fone (937) 522-1751 because they help me by just being good friends and talking to me.
2018-04-18 at 5:57 PM UTC
Seriously guys, I am about to do something todAY!
2018-04-18 at 6:03 PM UTC
Thanks but I think I will change my name to Emily.
Back when I was cross dressing I used the Name Emily.
I also used Emily as a way to separate my manic episodes from my depressive episodes.
Emily is outgoing, pretty, and a whore.
Andrew is depressed and drunk thinking about how he is so awesome yet he just wants to die because he lives in a delusional state all the fucking time.
