I am going to have a good day. I am going to accomplish stuff. I am going to make my life better.

1. 2018-04-18 at 1:08 PM UTC

   #1
   The Self Taught Man Black Hole
   9:00 am
   I have been awake for 3 hours layng in bed dreaming about getting horribly fucked up and going to the hospotial.
   I was trying to imagine being in a lot of pain and having broken bones and crushed limbs.
   I want so bad to be handicapped.
   I watched several amputee videos and I am sure that I want to go through with it. I just want to make sure I am ready to transition.
   
   Now I am up and sitting at the computer.
   I have many voicemails on my fona-fone asking why I am not at work.
   I need to go to work eventually.
   Maybe today I will find the strength to call and say I will be at work.
   
   I do not know what to do differently so that my life doesn't suck so bad.
   I am going to try taking my meds today so that hopefully I will be able to be productive.
   I want so bad to have a job for long enough that when I lose my leg(s) I can go on disability.
2. 2018-04-18 at 1:19 PM UTC

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   NARCassist gollums fat coach
   i'm getting stoned
   
   
   
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3. 2018-04-18 at 1:20 PM UTC

   #3
   The Self Taught Man Black Hole
   Does anybody know if OP is a troll or serious, because this shit's sad.
4. 2018-04-18 at 1:25 PM UTC

   #4
   The Self Taught Man Black Hole

   Originally posted by Enter Does anybody know if OP is a troll or serious, because this shit's sad.

   
   I am 100% serious all the time. Its just my mind plays tricks on me through-out the day so sometimes I am a little dumb and other times I am mean and sometimes I am smart. I do not know what to do with my life Enter. I need a friend like you. I got banned from the NIS kik chat last night. I am not wanted anywhere.
5. 2018-04-18 at 1:30 PM UTC

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   The Self Taught Man Black Hole

   Originally posted by Fonaplats I am 100% serious all the time. Its just my mind plays tricks on me through-out the day so sometimes I am a little dumb and other times I am mean and sometimes I am smart. I do not know what to do with my life Enter. I need a friend like you. I got banned from the NIS kik chat last night. I am not wanted anywhere.

   
   so you actually have down syndrome?
6. 2018-04-18 at 1:42 PM UTC

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   The Self Taught Man Black Hole

   Originally posted by Enter so you actually have down syndrome?

   
   Yes. I was born with it. The doctors told my parents I had down-syndrome and they were going to abort me but I was too far along. My dad drank my entire childhood so I always assumed he was giggling and laughing at me because I was genuinely funny. Now that I think about it he was probably laughing at my down-syndrome. My mom went back to work when I was 4 and never payed too much attention to me either and I am almost certain it was because she did not like me. I am one of the lucky ones though who has normal people eyes but everytime I smoke salvia my down-syndrome becomes visibly apparent on my face and my eyeballs go slanty.
7. 2018-04-18 at 1:58 PM UTC

   #7
   The Self Taught Man Black Hole
   I made a video game.