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my intelligence allows me to be a fucking weirdo
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2016-09-17 at 7:48 PM UTCThere are plenty of smart, social, normal people. Sounds like a cop out to be an outcast.
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2016-09-19 at 6:35 PM UTC
sounds like you got pwnd breh
Indeed.
My weirdo drug fueled lifestyle led to me getting pretty sick, almost dying which took a lot of time and energy out of me. It also made my career a shitload harder.
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2016-09-19 at 9:49 PM UTC
Indeed.
My weirdo drug fueled lifestyle led to me getting pretty sick, almost dying which took a lot of time and energy out of me. It also made my career a shitload harder.
I'm not trying to be be a moralfag, though. Keep it up.
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2016-09-19 at 10:40 PM UTCSemi, you lost a chunk of your arm due to your stupidity, then had a seizure after moronically shooting up, despite having had serious problems, which led to you becoming mentally retarded and losing the function of part of your body for an indeterminate number of months. Now you delude yourself into thinking you're 90-95% recovered, when in reality you'll likely never be the same. It wouldn't surprise me if you were still legally classified as mentally challenged and disabled, but have just been lied to, like a child, so as not to discourage you. Who knows what else they've kept for you. In order to maintain your delusions and not confront you with the soul shattering reality it wouldn't be surprising if there was an immense subconscious force repressing this and causing you to avoid taking any objective tests, as opposed to relying on your own flawed and biased perceptions and opinions, along with other things, such as video recordings or even plain recordings of you speaking; this could be made easier by the people around you likely enabling you and hiding the ugly reality from you.
You've admitted your father was a (allegedly ex) DEA agent who was strongly against your drug usage, and you had to hide it from him. If you see yourself as being above others, those who simply speak the truth you don't want to hear, why were you, and likely still are (unless you're on disability, likely subsidized housing), despite being in your late 20s? How did he react when he caught you having a seizure, rig and drugs scattered around you? I recall someone mentioning that your facebook page was filled with Alcoholics/Narcotics Anonymous quotes (Did you lie and tell them the seizure was from alcohol withdrawal?) and that it was the saddest thing they had ever seen.
Actually, it didn't just happen once, but twice! I do believe it was in fact your second seizure that did you in. You even moronically announced in TinyChat that you were planning on doing a speedball later, some time after your first seizure, with kreepy saying something along the lines of "semi, no :(" and others mentioning that you would never learn, that people like you don't learn and that death is the only thing that teaches you a lesson.
This doesn't even include the myriad of stories of your debauchery from the past, such as the sex clubs, the story with the hooker(s), or that time an old man paid to tickle your feet for an extended period of time and you went through with it. What else have you been hiding from us? -
2016-09-19 at 11:36 PM UTCI've always been totally transparent about everything, even though most y'all get the details off. A lot. I'm mentally retarded? I had aphasia, which now almost completely dissipated, which is why I'm speed reading novel, can do figures in my head and have rational coherent discussions, even with a group of degenerate, misanthropes like yourself. The only part of me that is disabled is my right arm, which through botox injections and OT, is exponentially better than 2 years ago. As far as immense subconscious force repressing" [FONT=helvetica, arial, sans-serif][SIZE=12px]I'm as honest with my therapist as as I've been with this board. When my dad found out about the stroke, because I wasn't living with at the time, he was more worried and sad than anything. I know you've never had parents that care about you, so that must seem alien to you. I stopped posting the NA passages, because I'm not attending meetings as other avenues have become more productive. The intention was to share my experiences to possibly help other see that you can get better. As a social outcast, who is terrified to interact with people in real life, I don't expect you to understand a feeling of community. I've said more than once that my stroke was due to a heroin OD, so strike, what,4, so far? [/SIZE][/FONT]
[FONT=helvetica, arial, sans-serif][SIZE=12px]My 2nd stroke actually inflicted no residual damage because me sober housemates caught it on times. As someone who has never dealt with an addiction as severe as heroin, you wouldn't understand all that goes into, not the least of which is the loss of inhibitions. I have been on TC a few times over that last two years and everyone can see the progress I've made. I had worked for 13 years, usually 2 or 3 jobs at a time, and as soon as I'm cleared to work again, For now, I just volunteer. I'm going back to it. As someone who is also on govt assistance and has never worked a day in his life, I find it laughable that would you try and come at for that. [/SIZE][/FONT][FONT=helvetica, arial, sans-serif][SIZE=12px]All the dirt you, everyone else who tries to troll, is shit hat happened 2 years ago. I can "talk down" to people because I've moved past that life while a lot of yall are still exactly where you were 4 years ago, when I joined. I made a made a lot stupid mistakes for 3 years, and I've never shied away from them. So please, continue to talk about my abscess from 3 years ago, which has left only a bit of scar tissue. Or that fact that 4 years ago, I did a sexual favor for money. It's just reinforces the fact that you're stuck in the past.[/SIZE]
[SIZE=12px]Side note; I find it a tad creepy that remember things, without the use of zoket archive that happened to me years ago. Even as misconstrued as they they are. Anything else, slugger? [/SIZE][/FONT] -
2016-09-20 at 3:23 PM UTCdo meth if you're so weird smart guy
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2016-09-20 at 6:33 PM UTCI just remembered the snakebite thing. That was/is fuckinng hilarious. Hahaha... rembering that made my day, guys. Fuck.
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2016-09-20 at 6:36 PM UTCKudos Semi, by the way. Sounds like you're doing good.
