2018-02-09 at 3:06 AM UTC
at least in the way you people are
I am beginning to really realize that now
it's not just how I grew up or have been living all this time or environmental factors
there is something fundamentally different about me
I am another species separate from human
this thread is not about vanity or superiority complex
since I was very little I suspected something was off
being in public school around other children of the human species
I tried connecting with them but it was if I was viewing things from an entirely different dimension
communication with people was impossible
teachers knew about my situation and would try to help me out and act as a sort of guardian figure
but in my mind at that time all I could think about was
I wish I could be at home playing the sims
or gta 3
why must I be in this horrible place where I am forced to engage in a high pace action packed environment for several hours every day for the rest of my life until I become a wage slave
so I never adjusted, never succumbed and never joined that world
I stayed a hikikomori
it was painful for a long time because I am not anti-social, I long for deep close friends in friendships that fleshnet normies confuse for romantic relationships no not anything romantic but I wish to have friends who are basically like brothers and sisters or soul-mates.
I might seem edgy and hard to get along with on the internet but in person I'm basically like a beanie baby in person
I am like a very child-like 15 year old girl (from Japan) and it's very awkward because now I'm in an adult body so there is some actual dysphoria here like what transgenders suffer from, except this is age-based.
anyways the point of this thread is I function so much better in private alone in my own dwellings rather than out in the fleshnet
the fleshnet is fine for what it is but it's not for me, I am more of a individualistic existence type of person I want my own private world to myself in full-immersion virtual reality.
2018-02-09 at 4:52 AM UTC
I wish you were a very child-like 15 year old girl (from Japan). Hey so about Nekro Lolita, your magnum opus. That name really reminds me of masterchan, ever been there? I think you'd like it. At some point we had set up a chatroom and would go raid YouNow regularly. There was even this Swedish lesbian girl there, it was pretty dope. Nice people. In the chat room at least. Sometimes an attention whore would come by and you'd never guess it from the activity on the boards but whenever that happened there were always 50 people in the chat room. Good times. I miss those times.
2018-02-18 at 8:31 PM UTC
Oh and, the whole Mara "Green" thing got out of hand to the point people were literally following her from her school to her house and back, taking pictures and everything. Her dad was a diplomat, lmao, then kmar got involved and the servers were seized and everyone shat a brick collectively, but things are fine now. I hear Mara is doing great these days.
2018-02-18 at 11:02 PM UTC
i had no idea just how common the ddlg age regression thing was until a few months ago. they're fucking everywhere.
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