2018-01-22 at 6:05 AM UTC
Mine sort of has been, i've had some hurdles and shitty times that a trecked through. I'm mostly not gonna commit suicide right now just to see where life & its bs takes me.
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2018-01-22 at 6:27 AM UTC
Zanick
motherfucker
[my p.a. supernal goa]
Not as hard as some, but I've had my share of difficulties.
2018-01-22 at 7:03 AM UTC
By most standards I'd say yes, but I accept responsibility for it being that way as opposed to a hard life due to a series of unfortunate events outside of one's control.
Two inpatient treatment programs consisting of a total time of 22 months.
Drug court outpatient treatment lasting a year, 3 times a week, bi-weekly court appearances and monthly probation meetings.
3 other court-ordered outpatient treatment programs consisting of a total time of 8 months.
At least ten periods of jail/prison incarceration consisting of a total time of 12 months.
3 court-ordered halfway house stays consisting of a total time of 14 months.
Off and on probation from age 17-28, with several violations.
At least $5,000 in fines and court costs.
Multiple DUIs resulting in incarceration and/or treatment, as well as loss of driving priveleged. From age 16 until now I've probably had a valid driver's license 35 or 40% of the time.
5 felonies ranging from burglary to possession of a stolen vehicle.
Probably at least 15 arrests and misdemeanor charges ranging from driving under suspension to simple assault.
Loss of my dad when I was 22 due to hep-c, liver and kidney failure.
Ongoing major depressive disorder diagnosed at age 25 though certainly started earlier than that.
A very habitual personality resulting in several addictions, mainly cigarettes and drinking, costing me god knows how much money and time over the last 15 years.
The accumulation of the aforementioned things inhibiting my desire and ability to pursue a professional career, save any real significant amount of money, or have more/better/stronger relationships with family and friends.
Pretty sure Chootie has cancer or some shit.
Shrimp Creole, shrimp soup, shrimp salad, and well, tha-, that's about i-it.
To be fair, I've had a plenty of intermittent wonderful times and experiences in my life as well, but the consequences of my actions have drastically affected the potential I had to do much more with my life up to this point.
Relatively speaking I'm doing alright these days for what it's worth. Finally saving a little money beyond a paycheck to paycheck lifestyle, making $15+ an hour at a nearby job I usually have fun working at, soon to reobtain my driver's license which will drastically help to open up possibilities and my pursuit of schooling or non-hospitality occupations that pay well and I have a passion for.
Anyway..
2long did not Reed: I've wasted most of my adult life being a miserable piece of shit because of crime, addiction, and depression, but things are looking up for the most part.
I also like brief walks in my parking lot, romantic getaways to cemeteries and crack dens, and exploring nature and the outdoors on YouTube videos while laying in my dark bedroom.
The End
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2018-01-22 at 7:04 AM UTC
Hydro hacked my account I apologize guise.
2018-01-22 at 10:56 AM UTC
Nope, it's been pretty much piss easy so far. At least in the secure food and shelter and maintain non-abusive relationships sense.
Its been shit, and its about to get a lot more shittier.
2018-01-22 at 12:44 PM UTC
i've had my fair share of strife, prolly double up what mmq listed at least, but i am older. altho my dad didn't die. well my adopted dad didn't, my real dad was some local gangster back in the 70s/80s who got blasted through his front door with a shotgun, but i'd never met the cunt. my real mom was a total fucking piece of shit that would make anyone on this site look good. i was taken into care before i was even 1 year old battered and neglected. child services weren't so sharp in them days so over the next few years i was sent back to her and taken away again about 4 or 5 times with the same shit happening. her excuse apparently was that she was getting a neighbor to babysit so they must have been beating me. but what kind of a mother gives her baby to somebody after they came back all beaten, even once tho? obvious bullshit, and doesn't explain the neglect and me being half starved and shit all the time. my earliest memories are being there in a cot in a bedroom and all i can really remember was this overwhelming feeling of fear and nobody coming. i'm guessing having a baby was just too inconvenient to her lifestyle at the time. i guess it explains my attachment disorder, altho i don't have it severe, i just won't allow many people close to me until i've weighed them up somewhat.
of course there's many people had way worse than me.
the way i see it is life is just a series of good and bad events. that's how it is. fairy stories and shit that we're fed as kids set us up for a fall. we grow up with these ideas that life is gonna be like a fairy story and go all nice and smooth. the glitzy side of the media constantly showing the rich and famous living their fabulous lives on a minute by minute basis also doesn't help with peoples expectations of life.
life is a series of problems to solve. just get on and solve them to the best of you're abilities and try to be ready to deal with the next one, but without getting paranoid about every possibility, like viewing the media would make you believe.
its all worth it for the sweet moments anyway. the bad times are just the price you pay for the good times.
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2018-01-22 at 12:51 PM UTC
No, but I've been through shit that the average person would kill themselves over.
Overall though, no it hasn't been hard.
2018-01-22 at 1:34 PM UTC
and if you come out with shit that's really dumb ima call you the biggest pussy.
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2018-01-22 at 2:04 PM UTC
Red roses on my grave bury me with art and with some backwoods & a lighter just so I can spark
2018-01-22 at 2:05 PM UTC
Like the side-effects/comedown of bath salts.
2018-01-22 at 2:41 PM UTC
you wanted to kill yourself coz you felt a bit shitty on a come down? fucking hell mate, millions of people are on a come down every single day. barely any kill themselves or even seriously consider it.
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