2018-01-13 at 3:39 PM UTC
Anyone else like this? The outside of my life looks really great, some noteworthy achievements, not like the next Steve Jobs or Barak Obama but like fairly respectable. But when I'm not doing that shit I'm usually worthless, having the endless craving to smoke weed/take pills/jerk off/think about some topic, because I know all this is meaningless so I don't feel the need to exert myself beyond what is needed of me from other people. Like I need to have some facade of a life at least so everyone doesn't think I'm a loser, and I need to eat kinda healthy and workout a little so I don't feel like trash but yea.
Also what do normal people do? Like I wonder what the other kids at school who are getting the same grades as I am do in their spare time. They obviously don't spend every night passing out off weed and benzos but they also can't be studying much more than I am. It must be soul crushing to sit there and watch anime for hours sober, knowing you are putting off what you need to do. I'd rather just say fuck it and get high. I guess.
2018-01-13 at 4:02 PM UTC
aldra
JIDF Controlled Opposition
very similar, though I never went to uni
2018-01-13 at 4:54 PM UTC
No. I'm a scumbag and I know it.
2018-01-13 at 5:43 PM UTC
Vizier
Tuskegee Airman
[spic of the devil]
I feel like degenerate is a buzzword at this point because alt-right memers use it on every other sentence.
2018-01-14 at 9:41 AM UTC
Daily
an(nu)ally
[dissolutely whisk the pantheon]
Part time degeneracy is the sweet spot between order and chaos.
Depends what you mean by degeneracy.
Eating shitty food like a pizza or a chocolate bar is, to me, degeneracy.
Skipping the gym because you cba is degeneracy.
Watching porn literally wires your brain into cuckoldry (you are literally watching and masturbating to another man fucking a woman that you want to fuck). This is high level degeneracy.
Part time degeneracy is the sweet spot between order and chaos.