Was just watching some of his videos on youtube and was reminded of myself a little bit, only a bit because unlike him I have found happiness in loneliness. I started watching my videos and wondered what people would think if they saw them on youtube after a hypothetical event of me becoming a mass shooter or serial killer. Then I realized I am much more interesting than all of the shooters on youtube, except ... no I'm way more interesting than mr. anime. Don't worry though, I'm not looking to harm anyone especially not with legal weed and VR being a reality now. It's interesting though, I share a lot of similarities with the youtube killers, in fact I am exactly like them but unlike them I somehow have a much higher desire/will power to go on. To be taken away from my hikikomori existence would be worse than death, or imprisonment. I can sympathize with them though and when I watch their videos I get the sense that I know exactly what their pains were, their motivations etc Their problem is that they were so caught up in the fleshnet and blinded by the normie expectations of reality that they saw a violent murder suicide as the only way to release their anger and pain. If I could have met Elliot I would have been a good friend of his, I would have shown him the light about fleshnet women and why they are not worth any energy whatsoever. Elliot and I would have gone to concerts, played video games, watched anime together we could have gotten high and gone for walks along the pier while making fun of the fleshnet normies. Maybe we could have even been boyfriends. .... no homo
They just needed someone to "get" them and show them the path towards whatever little chasm of hope they could hold on to. For me it was myself, the spirit of myself and my ego keeps me going on. I gave up on humans a long time ago and now when I'm around them I can't help but feel so bored, I don't even know how to communicate with them they are on such a different plane of existence from me.
Elliot and I could have made a great duo. We're both hapa, both anti-social, both awesome dudes ... what is not to love? We could have formed a band.
I have my own
Surely he would have been into death industrial, he definitely seems like the type.
All the friends I have had are so boring, I want a tomodachi like Elliot Rodger.
Originally posted by Open Your Mind
You are another animal.
You want to be better.
But you are just another animal.
I don't want to be better, I want better. I am so bored of all of this, none of it means anything to me. I want out of here, away from all of this. I want a place where I am in full control of The thought of being stuck on a planet full of things I have no passion for, and one where my passions can disappear overnight if the masses choose to stop supporting them is deathly depressing.
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[annoy my right-angled speediness]
Originally posted by Hikikomori-Yume
I don't want to be better, I want better. I am so bored of all of this, none of it means anything to me. I want out of here, away from all of this. I want a place where I am in full control of The thought of being stuck on a planet full of things I have no passion for, and one where my passions can disappear overnight if the masses choose to stop supporting them is deathly depressing.
Listen to this cow rambling on about his pointless banal bullshit.
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I miss the 90s I miss the aesthetic The social attitude handsome and well tanned individuals knowing their place in white countries or not being there at all I miss the PS2 era Walking into EB Games and feeling as though I stepped inside a gaming museum I miss record stores Collecting cds and adding them to my inventory of physical items that became part of my life and physicality I miss CRT tvs and that warm glowy feeling I miss the innocence and jubilance
That was a form and shape of human expression that made me happy being alive, it's what I crave and desire When I'm in FIVR I'll go back to living in the 90s and early 00s and erase all my memories of everything post 2006.
These days even if I'm not tired I'll rest in bed and try to fall asleep Unconsciousness is my only respite It's the only time I feel at ease and happy Then I wake up and it's back to suffering
