2016-06-20 at 4:03 PM UTC
2014 was the best year of my life. Even though I was working a shitty job and had no friends, I appreciated life a lot more. I was completely hedonistic. I did a lot of acid, and had a lot of great tripping experiences.
2015, despite me having a girlfriend and having sex more times than I can even remember, was a mess. It was awful. Having a relationship completely destroyed me, emotionally, mentally, and physically.
The first half of 2016 has been crazy as fuck. While it's been pretty awful... in fact, I'd go as far to say the worst year of my life so far, it's also offered me something I've never had before: friends. I actually have real friends now, ones who invite me places. And by "real friends" I mean attractive, socially capable people who aren't complete degenerates. I'm hoping the second half of this year gets better for me.
2016-06-20 at 4:08 PM UTC
Everything 2013 and earlier is pretty much a blur. I just sat in my room, unemployed and posting on forums after I left high school in the mid-2000s.
2016-06-20 at 4:13 PM UTC
kroz
weak whyte, frothy cuck, and former twink
why has 2016 been the worst year of your life?
2016-06-20 at 4:23 PM UTC
kroz
weak whyte, frothy cuck, and former twink
^It sounds like you should probably cut down on the drugs.
2016-06-20 at 5:01 PM UTC
So when you hang out with your new friends in real life do you just sit around talking about hating women and life and yourselves and anxiety and how miserable you are? How does that work?
2016-06-20 at 5:09 PM UTC
I see. Well, at least you're not so miserable to where the thought of hanging out with people in real life repulses you. Don't beat yourself up.
2016-06-20 at 5:11 PM UTC
I am repulsed by the majority of people -- it's surreal to think I've finally found a good group after all these years.
2016-06-20 at 7:48 PM UTC
Wow that's very similar to my life back then, I wish I would have found RDFRN back in 2014, I could have avoided using meth for the first time and trying to kill myself.
When zoklet went down for good I was too busy doing benzos, LSD, mescaline, cocaine, hash, opium (silk road) and bundy with beedrill and alcohol while working 40 hours a week and getting more and more depressed
If I would have just got TUFF I would skate through Christmas, my dad would be out of jail and I would have $1000 instead of being broke and shit posting on RDFRN until spring.
I would have not done meth in April 2015 and I would still be working full time. I could have saved RDFRN because I had money, I could have bought the domain at least without the Vbulliton and redirect it to niggasin.space which would probably double traffic.
I wouldn't have done so much MDMA and heroin last summer.
I would be debt free and living at the old unexploded crack shack with my cats, plum and walnut trees and I would have a functional stocked laboratory in my garage, and a new computer, and I wouldn't have sold my car.
I wouldn't have been homeless all year either. God damn.
2016-06-20 at 8:51 PM UTC
I don't even fucking know and that's not a joke. Fuck that. The last 5 years of my life have been complete shit.
2016-06-20 at 10:38 PM UTC
2014- Broke up with my ex, dropped out of HS, went on Xanax because I was losing my shit, got addicted to spice, met Ashley, %had the best time of my life.
2015- Spice addiction got worse, got hospitalized a bunch of times, narrowly escaped a 6 month inpatient, did a breathrapechairkick when I saw Ashley again, went to Turkey, lost my shit.
2016- Came back from Turkey, lost shit even harder, got addicted to daily use of bundy, stopped a month ago, still trying to get my life back together before college starts.
2014- Wanna KMS 10% of the time
2015- 90%
2016- 50%
2016-06-21 at 12:17 AM UTC
In 2014 I was trying to get shit together and just live, my dad was still alive and §m£ÂgØL hitchhiked down and stayed a month- we all planned he come in 2015 and we do a shitload of drugs which never happened because I got pregnant. In January 2015 my dad died, shit was going to hell... I was heavy pregnant and everything was so fucked for me mentally and physically... my baby was born in May and it just got worse and worse and finally I got rid of my exhusband and I started getting shit together... had a job in Januaury of 2016 and been working up til now but my health has really gone to hell this year. Ive had a heart attack, my anxiety is terrible, Ive had a bad kidney infectionthey wanted to admit me for, along with pneumonia they wanted to admit me for just this month... now Im moving in a day to the north east and taking ny animals and baby where I know absolutely nobody and have been saying goodbye to the few people I have come to care about here or who have helped me and my son. My roommate whom I met at my job while he was hitchhiking is going but gonna be leaving in a day or two upon arrival when we get there to go to the rainbow gathering. Weve planned to meet back up and head west and pick §m£ÂgØL up along the way... we will see how it all pans out... The last few years have been hell.. especially since I lost my dad.
2016-06-21 at 1:28 AM UTC
kroz
weak whyte, frothy cuck, and former twink
^yes we already know the stupid story you sappy cunt, you do nothing but repeat yourself.
2016-06-21 at 1:23 PM UTC
kroz
weak whyte, frothy cuck, and former twink
^you always blame the drugs, you blame xtc for making you a pussy. It's not the drugs it's you. You're supposed to do drugs, not let the drugs do you.
Take some accountability for yourself. It's like geez six months sober and youre still having mental withdrawals...
Do you have any hobbies or something your passionate about in life?
2016-06-21 at 1:46 PM UTC
But no, I have nothing, essentially waiting for death right now.
