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2015-12-21 at 12:21 AM UTCOkay, since the baby was born and all this shitwent down with my ex-husband I been working on straightening shit out for my son and myself. When my ex left me, I did not have a job, vehicle, or much of anything, not even a decently clean house. Right now, I have gotten my house straightened up to a reasonable appearance. I cant help sone og the other shit wrong with it atm, but its definetely 1000x better than the state my ex and grandmother left the house in. I no longer sleep in the garage and have shit going okay here. I started a seasonal parttime job. Its now permanent according to my boss. Its not much, but its a pay check ans considering I get no help from my ex, its better than nothing. as for a vehicle, Ive paid someone to help me with it, I got to buy 2 tires, transfer, register and insure. The tires should be after christmas, and the latest for the tranfer, registeration and insurance should be early February and Ill have a running vehicle for sure by then. Dealing with my baby and dogs alone has been a bitch and a half. Imconstantly walking the dogs, feeding the baby, keeping him entertained, having to get up2-3 hours before every shift to be ready for work. Lug all his stuff for his babysitter out front (150lbs worth of shit, his playpen, carseat, his diaperbag, his basket with clothes, toys, milk ect.) And wait for my ride everyday I work, rain or shine, freezing my ass off or sweating my balls off. then when I get home I got to do it all in reverse. Feed, change and then deal with the dogs. Its overwhelming at some points. I have no real support. These people help me because I pay them good and throw my kpin script their way, but they still find a way to complain. my question is, what else could I be doing to make shit better? How much more could I be doing than I already am? Its a matter of time in a lot of this, once certain shit gets completed, then other shit will get better quicker.
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2015-12-21 at 1:03 AM UTCDo the world a favor,Suffocate you kid and hang yourself.
Trust me you'll feel better. -
2015-12-21 at 1:10 AM UTCShit that wasn't very nice.
I don't know why I say shit like that.
Life sucks deal anyway you can. -
2015-12-21 at 2:09 AM UTCWell, offing myself has been a reoccurring idea, but what I amreally asking here is does anyone see anything more I could be doing to improve my life? Sure, Ive got a lot to bitch about, its been tough, but I havent thrown in the towel yet. certain people keep seeming to think Im not doing enough, yet wont exactly explain to me what else it is I could be doing tomake it better/speed up the process of getting shit together.
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2015-12-21 at 2:13 AM UTCI tried to get my life together. It wasn't fun and didn't work.
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2015-12-21 at 3 AM UTC
Okay, since the baby was born and all this shitwent down with my ex-husband I been working on straightening shit out for my son and myself. When my ex left me, I did not have a job, vehicle, or much of anything, not even a decently clean house. Right now, I have gotten my house straightened up to a reasonable appearance. I cant help sone og the other shit wrong with it atm, but its definetely 1000x better than the state my ex and grandmother left the house in. I no longer sleep in the garage and have shit going okay here. I started a seasonal parttime job. Its now permanent according to my boss. Its not much, but its a pay check ans considering I get no help from my ex, its better than nothing. as for a vehicle, Ive paid someone to help me with it, I got to buy 2 tires, transfer, register and insure. The tires should be after christmas, and the latest for the tranfer, registeration and insurance should be early February and Ill have a running vehicle for sure by then. Dealing with my baby and dogs alone has been a bitch and a half. Imconstantly walking the dogs, feeding the baby, keeping him entertained, having to get up2-3 hours before every shift to be ready for work. Lug all his stuff for his babysitter out front (150lbs worth of shit, his playpen, carseat, his diaperbag, his basket with clothes, toys, milk ect.) And wait for my ride everyday I work, rain or shine, freezing my ass off or sweating my balls off. then when I get home I got to do it all in reverse. Feed, change and then deal with the dogs. Its overwhelming at some points. I have no real support. These people help me because I pay them good and throw my kpin script their way, but they still find a way to complain. my question is, what else could I be doing to make shit better? How much more could I be doing than I already am? Its a matter of time in a lot of this, once certain shit gets completed, then other shit will get better quicker.
and i thought my daughters mom and I were fuck ups.
but basically this is §m£ÂgØLs "delusional" illness account. -
2015-12-21 at 4:57 AM UTC
Do the world a favor,Suffocate you kid and hang yourself.
Trust me you'll feel better.
It's not necessarily something you should feel guilty about, at least the former:
After-Birth Abortion
The pro-choice case for infanticide.
http://www.slate.com/articles/health_and_science/human_nature/2012/03/after_birth_abortion_the_pro_choice_case_for_infanticide_.html -
2015-12-21 at 7:40 PM UTC
and i thought my daughters mom and I were fuck ups.
but basically this is §m£ÂgØLs "delusional" illness account.
No, this isnt §m£ÂgØL's account. I am my own person. I am the woman who took his virginity in a threesome which resulted in a pregnancy and my son whois clinging to my leg atm. I wish this were a troll but its not.
Besides making fun of my fucked up life, you got anything constructive to add? -
2015-12-21 at 7:47 PM UTCAlso, I would never harm or kill my son. I love this child so much and hes the reason Im not sitting here with dogshit piled to the ceiling, I have a clean home, I do all this shit I need to do. He is the reason I have this job and he is the reason I keep going. Without him, Id have killed myslef by now for sure. now having said that, if I had a child born with some horrible defect that would have made his life hell, required surgery, and put him through a shitload of pain andsuffering, I would have done the most selfless thing I could have and ended his suffering as I would have wanted if that had been me. I think ita cruel for parenta to put a newborn through all sorts of fucked up shit, surgeries, post picks and act like OMG ITS A FUCKING MIRACLE!! Its selfish, its cruel, its wrong. Id never have done that.
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2015-12-22 at 2:03 AM UTCBill Krozby you are such a fucking piece of shit. anyway, hydro, it was hard enough raising my two kids even with their mothers help, I imagine it is overwhelming doing it alone. You will get through it, though, you are tough. Just take each day as it comes, and sooner or later it will get easier, it always does.
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2015-12-22 at 2:07 AM UTC
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2015-12-22 at 5:37 AM UTC
It's not necessarily something you should feel guilty about, at least the former:
After-Birth Abortion
The pro-choice case for infanticide.
http://www.slate.com/articles/health...anticide_.html
I actually do think infanticide is acceptable in some cases but I think infanticide is a good example of why Judith Jarvis Thomson's position breaks down in the limit (her position being that a woman's autonomy over her body trumps most other moral considerations in allowing or barring abortion which I disagree with for other reasons. I'm closer to Singer's position although disagree with him as well.). Thomson's argument, I contend, sets the stage for infanticide pretty clearly even if she backs out of that particular extrapolation (I'm not sure if it was in a published paper but her position is that born infants have some kind of derived value by way of their parents, like art has value because we enjoy it or something, which is really pretty weak). At the end of her paper where she makes the famous violinist argument she contends she hasn't make an argument that all cases of abortion are permissible but it's a broad enough umbrella that (and we've seen this) it's gleefully taken up by pro-choice activists. The fact that it breaks down (or requires these stretched post-hoc explanations rather than just biting the bullet) shows, I think, why the argument is flawed in the first place. -
2015-12-22 at 6:44 AM UTCOh, it reminds me of a thought experiment I made years ago, although I didn't develop it to much length, so I don't know if there's much merit to it or if there has been something similar proposed before.
Basically the scenario was: Imagine there was a device that could give animals, animals we eat, that we find permissible to consume, the intelligence of an adult human being. Given that infants are at a stage of intelligence, self awareness, and overall value/utility to society arguably lower than that of most animals we consume, farm animals, why is it not permissible to end their lives? Many people would argue that it would be because of the potential they have, or rely on speciesist arguments, but in this case animals would have that potential as well. They could argue that it would only be due to an unnatural intervention, some variation of the appeal to nature, but infants would not develop to that level in isolation, they require a great deal of intervention, of care/resources, for that to occur.
xannex just told me that it was so ridiculous it wasn't even worth responding to. Typical.
Do you think there's any merit to this? I may just really want to believe that it's justifiable to kill young children. -
2015-12-22 at 7:26 AM UTCI agree with the idea that animals and infants, under the appropriate circumstances, may have comparable moral statuses. If you wanted to run the thought experiment in reverse you could say that there are extreme cases of infants alive today without the potential to exceed the cognitive capacity of farm animals and I'm sure a lot of people would give brain damaged infants some level of worth (minimally no one would condone killing them for mild transient pleasures).
But I'd argue we need to bite the bullet in a different direction. Instead of trying to deny the moral capacity of animals with potential for human-like minds we should accept that killing animals with potential for human-like minds is wrong. And I'd argue that mammalian farm animals show significant signs of human-like minds in all the appropriate dimensions, specifically hedonic capacity. The answer to the dilemma presented is vegetarianism rather than infanticide. By the same maxim that killing human children below a certain age barring extenuating circumstances is impermissible so is modern animal farming. -
2015-12-23 at 3:54 AM UTCI would only kill a child under these circumstances. A.) They are born with something seriously fucked with them and may not live long and that life would be filled with a great deal of suffering or even if they were to reach a normal life age, they would be put through a great deal of turmoil, pain and suffering at an early age. B.) They were involved in an accident or suffered an injury that would lead to similar situations as stated in A. C.) You were unable to for whatever reason have an abortion prior (circumstances change, what if the end of the world occurred or something?) And you were unable to provide basic care for the child such as food, water, shelter and things of that nature and there was no other option- the child suffers a long drawn out death due to starvation, rickets from malnutrition, and a host of other nasty things that occur when a baby isnt given the things to survive properly. D.) The child is so annoying as fuck and you are doing a favor to the world by killing said child. Also, thanks, Mike. I do appreciate your encouragement and support. it has been overwhelming, especially with my other kids (the animals). Im hanging in there though. Nobody has really mentioned though what more I might be able to do in this situation as it stands now. I really wish I could better my situation quicker, but at least, I feel I am on the right track.
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2015-12-23 at 4:11 AM UTC
Bill Krozby you are such a fucking piece of shit. anyway, hydro, it was hard enough raising my two kids even with their mothers help, I imagine it is overwhelming doing it alone. You will get through it, though, you are tough. Just take each day as it comes, and sooner or later it will get easier, it always does.
and you're a fat faggot so who cares? -
2015-12-25 at 9:41 PM UTCFuck yourself, Bill Krozby.
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2015-12-26 at 3:23 AM UTC
Fuck yourself, Bill Krozby.
its all good i have my own bastard child that was a fetus during my own 3sum shenanagins. -
2015-12-28 at 3:15 PM UTC
Bill Krozby you are such a fucking piece of shit. anyway, hydro, it was hard enough raising my two kids even with their mothers help, I imagine it is overwhelming doing it alone. You will get through it, though, you are tough. Just take each day as it comes, and sooner or later it will get easier, it always does.
the asshole hurt never ends -
2018-08-16 at 12:16 PM UTC
Originally posted by hydromorphone Okay, since the baby was born and all this shitwent down with my ex-husband I been working on straightening shit out for my son and myself. When my ex left me, I did not have a job, vehicle, or much of anything, not even a decently clean house. Right now, I have gotten my house straightened up to a reasonable appearance. I cant help sone og the other shit wrong with it atm, but its definetely 1000x better than the state my ex and grandmother left the house in. I no longer sleep in the garage and have shit going okay here. I started a seasonal parttime job. Its now permanent according to my boss. Its not much, but its a pay check ans considering I get no help from my ex, its better than nothing. as for a vehicle, Ive paid someone to help me with it, I got to buy 2 tires, transfer, register and insure. The tires should be after christmas, and the latest for the tranfer, registeration and insurance should be early February and Ill have a running vehicle for sure by then. Dealing with my baby and dogs alone has been a bitch and a half. Imconstantly walking the dogs, feeding the baby, keeping him entertained, having to get up2-3 hours before every shift to be ready for work. Lug all his stuff for his babysitter out front (150lbs worth of shit, his playpen, carseat, his diaperbag, his basket with clothes, toys, milk ect.) And wait for my ride everyday I work, rain or shine, freezing my ass off or sweating my balls off. then when I get home I got to do it all in reverse. Feed, change and then deal with the dogs. Its overwhelming at some points. I have no real support. These people help me because I pay them good and throw my kpin script their way, but they still find a way to complain. my question is, what else could I be doing to make shit better? How much more could I be doing than I already am? Its a matter of time in a lot of this, once certain shit gets completed, then other shit will get better quicker.
Given your latest walls of text regarding your “extended stay” in the “nursing home”.....one can’t help but wonder what ever became of “your baby”?
Or was this just how the fiction novel began?
