I have the tendencies to be a self-pittying, self-hating, massive fucking cunt myself but I have truly realized, and I mean that, it has clicked, that you can not, NOT, change your emotions or your thoughts. You can trick them, you can hide from them, you can numb them down but you can't change them. The only thing that you can change is your behavior. You can only, and that's the good thing, at all times, change what you are doing.
If you are like me and you have some childhood traumas or you're stressed out, burned out from drug use, feel like an underachieving loser it won't be easy.Especially the beginning because everything sucks and there is no direct reward. Oh boy, all those years of drug use and internet addiction really conditioned me for those quick rewards.
So, in the beginning you are working your ass off for no reward but the days go by and you just stick to it because if you feel like shit anyway, why not?
You keep doing your thing until it really becomes your thing and you're not questioning it anymore. Things will have changed at this point but you probably didn't even notice all your improvements because it was such a gradual process instead of a slap in the face that leaves one with a permanent smile on the face. I still wish someone would slap me like that, though.
Anyway... you can only change what you do, and what you think and feel will follow suit.
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I first listened to that song/album in 2014 (while tripping on acid, tee hee). It's been three years. Trying not to let 10 years get behind me since then.
But still, it's been ten years since 2007. That's fucked. :(
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