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2017-10-10 at 6:36 PM UTCEvery day I get on the treadmill around 4-5am so I feel happier when I go to work.
But My girlfriend says it's keeping her up. So I grabbed a tablet and headphones and listened to tosh-o for 40 minutes while I jog and walk. and it's hard in the dark.. I keep losing my balance but do it anyways.
She tells me "Why did you say ;I hope you die a horrible death" and I said.. what the hell are you talking about. and then I said, Maybe I was thinking out loud and said it to one of Tosh-Os videos in a sardonic way.
She keeps accusing me of saying it to her then says You didn't just say it, you said it a month ago. but my friends tell me dont worry I'm protected.
I know 100 percent I wouldn't think this or say this about her. or anyone unless it was again, a sardonic sense of humor. Dark Internet Humor I developed over time.
then I thought. Wait, you friend told you this? who did you say this too. She told me her buddhist friends.
I said, when did I tell you this. She said when you were online on that chat board (THIS ONE). I'm laughing my ass off and she looks like she's about to cry. over and over again since we've seen each other, if I say something outload (which I don't realize I'm doing) she automatically thinks its her. But this time she didn't confront me right then and there. she holds it in.
It's sad because she's all depressed and not talking to me lately. I'm like "Why the hell would I ever think of the worst thing like that to say to you" I wouldn't even say that to my ex wife during my most angry period towards her. and she's fiesty unlike my Girlfriend who is all Zenned out.
So now a bunch of Buddhist think I'm some kind of asshole and verbally (and probably think physically) abusive to my girlfriend.
I fucking can't get ahead in this world. for fucks sakes. I can't even have me time and have my mind say something on its own. I never remember saying ti, but it's exactly the kind of thing I would say jokenly to one of you morons.
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2017-10-10 at 6:43 PM UTCi dont really understand ...
WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO GET OUT OF THIS WHORE ?????
is it company ???
is it pussy ????
is it children ????
what exactly ???? -
2017-10-10 at 6:51 PM UTC
Originally posted by benny vader i dont really understand …
WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO GET OUT OF THIS WHORE ?????
is it company ???
is it pussy ????
is it children ????
what exactly ????
Dude don't call her a Whore. She owes me nothing. And only asks for little. She says she loves me. She thinks I have talent in acting (which I don't see) and believes in my producing and editing skills (which I feel I can acomplish if I can find my way to see through it).
No Children. Her doctor did a surgery which stopped her periods and stopped her from getting pregnant. she has no kids.
We finish each others sentenses and its like we read each others thoughts. meaning we're sensitive to one anthers thinking. but once in a while she glitches and thinks I'm saying things about her. so it swings from knowing almost exactly to what I'm saying to thinking I said something nasty to her when I didn't. She's in this room or the other room and I say something and she wont ask "You talking to me". sometimes she does if she's in the other room. it doesn't happen all the time but it happens. -
2017-10-10 at 7:09 PM UTC
Originally posted by Totse 2001 Dude don't call her a Whore.
why not ???
she does sleep with you, does she not ???? and she sleeps with you to get something in return from you, yeass ?????
well, that makes her a prostitute, a whore by any other name. maybe not a professional prostitute cos your not paying her in cold hard cash ... but a prostitute nonetheless. -
2017-10-10 at 7:14 PM UTCYou finish her sentences with your mouth. She finishes whoever she wants with her mouth.
Seems legit. -
2017-10-10 at 7:18 PM UTC
Originally posted by benny vader why not ???
she does sleep with you, does she not ???? and she sleeps with you to get something in return from you, yeass ?????
well, that makes her a prostitute, a whore by any other name. maybe not a professional prostitute cos your not paying her in cold hard cash … but a prostitute nonetheless.
but wives aren't whores because they're ordained by a guy and a piece of paper. they still need stuff from you, sleep with you, need money or some other form of services by their husbands. She's a life partner (or I was hoping.. which we agreed on trying it out) but no marriage again for me. Plus I'm not legally divorced yet. I waited 2.5 years not dating anyone before I dated one lady then this lady.
Don't call her a whore. she first took me in because she didn't want me sleeping in my van. then she and I got flirty and hit it off.
well even in Acting Class.. most women flirt with the guys and vice versa. there are no permanent relationships .. just fooling around when you're pared up for a 2 week project. I never fooled with anyone but I've seen it with others. It's a good place to meet pretty women. -
2017-10-10 at 7:23 PM UTCWhat the fuck are you doing here, nigga? You're a 60 year old, politically correct, whatthefuckmaton, schizzophrenic buddhist.
Is there a less fitting place for you on the internet than here? Not hating on you. I think you spice things up with your insanity. Just wondering. -
2017-10-10 at 7:24 PM UTC
Originally posted by RisiR † What the fuck are you doing here, nigga? You're a 60 year old, politically correct, whatthefuckmaton, schizzophrenic buddhist.
Is there a less fitting place for you on the internet than here? Not hating on you. I think you spice things up with your insanity. Just wondering.
You bring da lock
I bring the sockThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-10-10 at 7:26 PM UTC
Originally posted by Totse 2001 but wives aren't whores because they're ordained by a guy and a piece of paper.
same with prostitutes.
each time you seek services from prostitutes, your unions are ordained by a pimp and pieces of paper [bills].they still need stuff from you, sleep with you, need money or some other form of services by their husbands. She's a life partner (or I was hoping.. which we agreed on trying it out) but no marriage again for me. Plus I'm not legally divorced yet. I waited 2.5 years not dating anyone before I dated one lady then this lady.
Don't call her a whore. she first took me in because she didn't want me sleeping in my van. then she and I got flirty and hit it off.
well even in Acting Class.. most women flirt with the guys and vice versa. there are no permanent relationships .. just fooling around when you're pared up for a 2 week project. I never fooled with anyone but I've seen it with others. It's a good place to meet pretty women.
you still havent answered : you love her or what ??? or do you satyed just becos she took you in ????
like adopted feral doggs. -
2017-10-10 at 7:32 PM UTC
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2017-10-10 at 7:36 PM UTC
Originally posted by RisiR † What the fuck are you doing here, nigga? You're a 60 year old, politically correct, whatthefuckmaton, schizzophrenic buddhist.
Is there a less fitting place for you on the internet than here? Not hating on you. I think you spice things up with your insanity. Just wondering.
I tried buddism.. it's very calming. I was partly raised by my neighbor who was a reveren in the Presbytarian church. I was a Catholic before that but My mother never took us to Catholic Church except certain Mass like Christmas eve or Ash Wednesday. My girlfriend puts me to sleep (calms me) when she chants her Matra for an hour.
I'm 52 and from the sounds of it.. SpectraL is near my age.
This place brings back some of the addiction I had when going on totse.. which Zoklet called me the "King of Trolls" which kind of offended me. I didn't try and get secret passwords or phish.. just said playful shit which pissed people off enough to want to kill me.. and of course I angered Jeff just after 9/11/01 but he knew I was very serious that day as was he.
anyways. i pretty much lost everything. My mom is really sick and we have to put her in a hospital. My sister moved away. I have 2 dead brothers in the past 8 years (murdered) and all my friends have moved away. some I have no idea where.
I make friends at work but we don't share the same interest.
Now my girlfriend tells me she's hanging out with some dude.. been depressed. When I ask her "His house" she says "I'm not discussing this with you.. you're being Jealous again".
if I was 20.. I would be feeling really punchy and go talk to someone like this guy.. but I just don't have the right nor need to do so. it's her choice. and I don't want to take it out on someone else. I've come to accept this is how it is. Trust your woman, don't get Jealous. it's never going to help.. just make things worst. -
2017-10-10 at 7:41 PM UTC
Originally posted by benny vader same with prostitutes.
each time you seek services from prostitutes, your unions are ordained by a pimp and pieces of paper [bills].
You have a twisted perception of the world. I can't tell if you're joking so I just figure this is dark humor so Haha I guess
Originally posted by benny vader you still havent answered : you love her or what ??? or do you satyed just becos she took you in ????
like adopted feral doggs.
I've had 2 opportunities to stay with some ladies. but I didn't see us being together for long terms
I love her very much. but twinkle eye new love isn't there now. -
2017-10-10 at 7:49 PM UTCOk.
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2017-10-10 at 7:51 PM UTC
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2017-10-10 at 7:52 PM UTCDoes your girl do anal?
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2017-10-10 at 7:54 PM UTC
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2017-10-10 at 8:01 PM UTC
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2017-10-10 at 8:15 PM UTCTry to secretly sniff her asshole. You might pick up the scent of another dick that way.
